Mat Devine, of Kill Hannah, has a blog on Fuse: http://fuseblog.typepad.com/kill_hannah/
It makes up for the blog on there before that was erased, because he didn't post anything new for a few years. It's still sad to think of all the pictures and stories that are gone. Hey, at least other fans also saved some pics (like I did)


So, I was on the Fuse website anyway, and the first choice under the blog tab was the Kill Hannah blog. So, hey, I looked. And I saw many glorious pictures. And this entry caught my eye. I cut out some stuff to hurry the story along:


Random Notes From an Aspiring Recluse
Posted on December 2, 2008 at 03:32 PM

Slouching here at my desk for days, curtains drawn, watching the collection of empty wine bottles (dead soldiers as my dad once called them) grow and grow and grow. Since my last blog entry I’ve been swallowed up by my bedroom and fully immersed in the process of writing new KH material. It’s always been my belief that the best art is produced by the worst-fed, cos the hunger makes you fight for it. –and this session seems to have supported that theory. It's getting deeper, darker and more real than anything we’ve done before.

...

Ok, I just ordered a pizza, and i have a total stomach boner in anticipation. So while I wait, I’m going to open the blinds, crank up My Bloody Valentine, and transcribe the scattered mess of random notes I’ve left to myself in various states of delirium over the past month or so. Entropy always wins.

1. Research the Fire at the Iroquois theatre in Chicago 1903,

2. buy a champagne saber

3. explore the cost and logistics of touring by nuclear submarine.. only play coastal cities.. Singapore, Sydney,etc.. when the sub surfaces we throw a Surface Party -then we perform on the deck of the sub

4. idea for drinking game. view episodes of bad reality TV and listen for certain trigger words. example: Rock of Love, whenever Brett Michaels says AWESOME or DIABETES, take a shot. Also whenever Tyra Banks says FIERCE, or whenever Andrew Zimmern says GAMEY

5. read article about the tragic “butterfly children” –who suffer from Epidermolysis Bullosa -rare skin disorder which makes them so fragile they tear and bleed at the slightest touch–and the mothers who have to worry all the time—explore as possible subject matter for song and/or charity event

6. buy ferret. start holding ferret in all videos, photos and on stage- why has no one else has done this before? Research the logistics. call PETA re: potential hearing damage to ferret.

7. mindblowing article on recent discovery that elephants actually mourn their dead. thought: If the smartest elephant or chimpanzee or giant squid is arguably smarter than the dumbest human, then don’t they deserve a heaven too? Is it arrogant for religious people to assume that heaven is strictly for our species? Isn’t that a form of species-ism? What entitles us? Self-awareness? That may not be a trait exclusive to our species. If certain dogma allows deceased infants into heaven, having never made a single choice in their short lives, then you simply must let the giant squids in too.

8. don’t want to knock on doors anymore. It’s the sound of my bones.

9. anecdote from Toronto- a mom requested that I sign her daughters wrist, so it could be tattood- so that she would stop cutting-

10. Scary dream. Toothless old lady in victorian house, maniacal and strong. throwing grandfather clocks out of the 2nd story window- crashing all around me. Analyze.

11. books to buy: The Night Climbers of Cambridge, Gracefully Insane: Life and Death Inside America's Premier Mental Hospital, How to Become a Professional Con Artist, Decoding Wagner: An Invitation to His World of Music Drama

12. AMAZING: the great moon hoax of 1835—article claimed that a race of batmen lived on the surface of the moon and were visible by telescope. Believed to be factual. http://www.museumofhoaxes.com/moonhoax.html

13. God made everything out of nothing, but the nothingness shows through. -Paul Valery, poet and philosopher (1871-1945)


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So, it's things like this that really make me respect Mat... even if he does do drugs, smoke, have groupies, and all that stuff.

He really does have an amazing mind.

The only #'s that I could care less on this list are 1, 3, 4, and 11.
All the others really touched me. Either by making me laugh or making me wonder.


Oh, and I was going to say why it's the "Raccoon Society," even though Mat has said at least twice in this blog. Because he hangs out with a ton of people who wear "shitloads" of eyeliner or eye make-up.... so they have those raccoon eyes.
I think it's freaking awesome.
I love raccoons.
I don't really care if people think I'm insane for loving raccoons because they're greedy.
Have you looked in a mirror lately?

I really can't stand the sight of myself without eyeliner.


#9 hits me hard. The story of the mother wanting him to sign her daughter's wrist.
As does the story of the "butterfly children," which, by the way, is a pretty badass name. It'd be a wonderful band name or song or book or something else title.



On a completely different note, I have seen the Street Fighter IV commercial at least 3 times in the past hour. I do love the song, though.

Which reminds me of Donut. Which reminds me of this morning.
By some... magic, we had late start today.
We've had snow here the past 3 days. It's lovely.
So, I had to ride the bus, and I knew the others wouldn't be around for at least 5 minutes. So, hey.... Donut's there... only with Chelsea Y. and Logan. And Richard was walking in front of me. And he's now sitting down... right over there. Go and talk to Donut.
I wedged myself between Logan and the garbage buckets... said "Hi" to Donut, who was being talked at by Logan. Donut stopped listening to him and said hi to me. Then he said to Logan how he stopped listening to what he was saying to say hi to me. Me and Donut both agreed that Logan was a nobody.
I claimed being really hyper (which I was. Which would explain why I was being so outgoing).
Bryan came... with a flower power baby. (a bag of flour. For the Child Development class)
I hadn't seen him since.... Wednesday?
Anyway, he came over to me and gave me a hug saying he missed me, so I said that I missed him, too.
I know Donut saw this, but I was also desperately wishing Richard would, too.
Then I see... Henry coming from the bus area, (Okay, maybe this was before the Bryan thing) and he goes and stands by Richard and his friends.
Jackpot, man.
And Bryan and Donut are my keys... my doors to those two.

Which reminds me. Japanese class today.
Bryan told the story of how he was at his sister's wedding in Mexico. And his sister is 24, and she has this friend, also 24. And he said that he asked her to a dance at the reception, and they dance, and they were suddenly making out.
...yeah.
Why couldn't it have been me he asked to dance? Why couldn't I have been in her place?
I just couldn't stop thinking about how... unfair it was that Bryan, a sophomore, was making out with a 24-year old hot stranger. And I... me, a senior, an 18-year old... I haven't had anything happen to me like that. Nothing at all that could even be considered in a section next to the one that experience would be in.


....Also.... #13 basically blew my mind.


And I am loving Demetri Matrin. Who is incredibly cute with that shaggy hair. Not so much when it's greased back...


We went to EM (Everyday Music) for the first time in MONTHS on Saturday. I found the Emilie Autumn: Opheliac CD. I was ecstatic. It was the ONLY one, too.
=D