Um... "Delilah" by The Dresden Dolls... stuck in my head, and ^^that^^ is a lyric. Not sure if it fits or even what the hell I am going to write about in this... (And, yes, I really need to write in that 2009 entry below)

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I really like donuts.

Which REMINDS me, I was going to talk about donuts!!

Known as doughnuts, donuts, or d-nuts (dude, totally made that up earlier today. Awesomeness, right?)

What the hell is with the "nut" part?
I really want to know. Did they use to always be made with nuts? Haha, dude, that could totally mean a ton of things.
I'm mature. I swear.

Yeah, so donuts...
I really like Donut. OFFICIAL CRUSH. I mean that, because I actually KINDA know him. I mean, I've talked to him, he's talked to me.
An official crush!
Not an obsessive freak crush.

Last crush, was with Tyler, who moved, and is now a jackass in a relationship.
He doesn't talk to me, so he's a jackass.
And I did try to talk to him! So don't even tell me that I should've tried that, 'cause I DID. I think.... twice... with 2 months in between. Yep... nothing back.

God... Donut is so fucking cute. He reminds me of Nate Barcalow... singer of Finch... one of my favorite bands.
Nate Barcalow is a god.
It wasn't until a week ago that I noticed the resemblance between the two. It's more obvious at some times than others. He's not a celebrity lookalike or anything. (I hate these fucking weird g's).
God is a really weird word.
I mean... look at it. Then look at it again. Now stare at it.
It IS a really weird word, right?


So, yeah... Donut talked to me today.... Wait, back up a bit.
So it's lunch, yeah? Walk into the vending machine hall, and I see Donut, Kevin, Nick, and Kaie in a tight circle. Kevin has this package thing, and he's talking about it with a great deal of enthusiasm. I hear something about figurine, collectible. So, I get closer. I got kinda close. Not touching, but almost. Donut saw me before Kevin did. Even though they both had their backs to me.
It's a tiny Moses action figure.
The Drama class had this gift exchange the period before, so some people had some odd objects... like Orion and his rainbow feather duster... which he used to attack David with on the bus, and you couldn't help but laugh everytime the duster attacked. It made the bus ride bearable.

ANYWAY, so then I go over to my main friends, and we're playing with Tiff's black, floopy top hat with these... not sequins, but plastic circles. Michelle has to wear it crooked, or it falls down.
Hilariousness.

Richard looked my way during one of the only times I looked at him. I haven't looked at him much all year. I'm kinda proud of myself.

So, Nick saw the hat a bit later, when it was on someone... maybe Caitlin. So I say, "You should see it on Michelle!"
Hat goes on Michelle and falls down.
Laughter from Nick, Donut, and Kaie (who were still gathered).

Oh, I gave Donut a candy cane yesterday. I gave everyone a candy cane. I cleaned out my box of 12 candy canes in like 3 minutes. I got it as a Christmas gift from Mrs. Dillion.

LATER, we went to the Office to be decieved, and start back to our table with deflated hearts. I noticed on our way there that Donut was hanging with Alex (Roggenkamp), Shafte, and a few others at that door.
On the way back to the table, somehow, Donut talked to us, or joined our group or something. Then, he was walking next to me (in the back of the group), and I said that Caitlin's head was massive.
"Well, that's not a very nice thing to say."
"She didn't hear me, so it's alright."
Then he said something about it not counting then. Then he got behind me, and I SHOULD'VE fucking continued talking to him, or something, because then he disappeared!!

I should've said that her head was massive because it was so full of dreams! Man.

I regret a lot of things.

I hate it when people say they regret nothing in life.
Come on.
It just makes me feel that more horrible when I regret tons of things.
Well, I guess if you have a different definition for regret.... Because I do stupid things all the time. They haunt my thoughts. They are REGRETS. I wish I hadn't said it, or had said something else instead or after.

I feel guilty a lot.
I feel bad about the things I say and do.
I care about what people think about me... or at least, I don't want them to have the wrong idea or impression about me.
I try not to be prejudice.

And me and my friends give kids names. Well, we don't know they're actual name, so either they look a certain way, or something down the road happens, and suddenly, one kid is "Sparkly Butt", which I felt HORRIBLE laughing at. And I don't even recall who the kid actually was.
"Emo Kid" 'Cause he looks emo even though he denies it, and calls Michelle emo.
Poor "Donut" because his last name sounds like it.
"Snodgrass", because... man, I'd hate to have that last name.
"Holds Himself", because he kept having his hands in front of himself to avoid being kicked in the nuts by his "friends"
And so on and so on.


Oh god, remember when Cat Hat was humping the vending machine?! Oh my god, I won't ever forget that. I think I always say that, but it's TRUE! It still makes me laugh after over 6 months.

I'm gonna go to the bathroom and then bed.
Can't wait for another day at school (I'm pretty sure I'm being sarcastic...)


You schizos never learn.

Dude! I finally freakin fixed it! BOOYAH!!