Part I was a journal entry I wrote Freshman year.

Basically, I accidentally stepped on Curtis's shoe in PE and he started calling me names, to which I laughed at. He said it wasn't funny "bitch". And I said "Yes it is." And walked off. So I later wrote what if I had said something more? Something else?


So, I'm on the school bus for like... from 2:30 to 3:10.
It's not fun, man.

And for some goddamned reason, they only allow us 5 minutes to get on the bus (even though today I SWEAR it was less. I mean, people were running for god's sake! And like as soon as I got out of the building, I had to go on the bus!). And so THEN, we have to go to JEMTEGAARD where we have to WAIT for a couple minutes until they actually GET OUT of school. Then why the hell don't they give us more time to get on the bus?
Suuuuee. Well, like, now. Because I feel... violated. As an adult. Which I totally am. Now. I kinda hate it.

Ummm.... so yeah, the bell must've rang later or something. SOMETHING. Something was up with the clocks. I SWEAR.
But yeah, so he was "playing" with 3 kids that were trying to catch the bus, because he was pulling away... And it's his FUCKING job to take kids to and from school. And well, if they're left at school, don't they vandalize it, or something? (POV of School, I mean... they get really sensitive about things)
And, well, surprise surprise, somebody missed the bus. So they got picked up by another bus and that bus driver told ours that there was a kid... and he (Mike. The worst bus driver in EXISTANCE. He's been a driver here since I was AT LEAST in 2nd grade. And then I thought he was the scariest guy in existance... Still kinda is. Doesn't make me respect him (anymore), though. If I use the right fucking words with the right fucking tone, I can get my point across. But since it's impossible to tell him about a different side without offending him... yeah.... It all makes it really hard for me to keep my mouth shut. But I mean, since I'm a fucking adult now, shouldn't my voice also be heard?)
Okay, crap... where was I?

So, yeah... Jemtegaard. Jesse walks on the bus, and for a few seconds everything is fine. Then it takes a trip and fall down a bottomless pit.
Kay, how'd it go?
It was like "Miss the bus?"
"Yeah."
"(something about next time and he won't pick him up, or something)"
Well, I don't remember, but before long, Jesse's saying "I've had a very bad day, so I would end it here if I were you."
Mike: "Oh really?!"
Those last two lines get repeated a couple times, and I was thinking "Okay, now shut the fuck up while you still have your neck."
Then Jesse said that his math teacher kept him in, and Mike was saying how it's not acceptable (what the teacher did), and... I'm just gonna go ALL over the place here on what was said first and stuff... but yeah, so this girl was trying to defend Jesse with things like "Apparently it is acceptable (for a teacher to keep a student it. Happens all the fucking time, people)." and like... crap.
Well, I think it was like Mike made him sit in the front for like 2 weeks, and I didn't hear or see after that, but then Mike's saying "There is a god!" all thankful like. ((Which means there's a devil, which totally makes sense cause that's who you're gonna meet as soon as you die. If you are not, in fact, him)) Then Jesse said "Apparently not, if you're my bus driver" or something like it. Which I totally agree to.

Oh! And the girl said "Why does he have to sit up there?"
"Because he ran his mouth."
Jesse: "I was not running my mouth. I can run my mouth."
They used the word "mouthy" at least once.
And then Jesse said that other things happen if he runs his mouth.
Mike: "Is that a threat?" all authority-like.
Then Jesse said that it wasn't cause he didn't say he was going to DO anything. More like a warning, or something. And that he was having conversation with his bus driver.
Mike: "So make conversation."
Jesse: "I am."

Then after that I got almost too pissed to control myself and stopped listening.

Most of this happened before the Jemtegaard bell even fucking rang.


I just hate it how they treat us like kids. I mean, people like Mike the bus driver are the type of people that DRIVE others to... let's say... vandalize the bus.... commit suicide.... do drugs....

I mean, the pure HATE that came from that "conversation/argument" affected everyone on the bus. I wanted SOOOO much to yell "SHUT UP!"
I wanted to literally jump in between them and repeat "Peace and love" over and over.
I wanted to join in the argument, like the girl. I wanted to tell Jesse to shut up and then tell Mike off about how he shouldn't make everything so bloody personal, and that just because he's older shouldn't give him any sort of rank?... crap, I had the word, and I forgot.

It all just really pisses me off.