Or so Karlie says.

Um... I really liked today. =D

I actually got stuff done in English.
On the way to 5th, Steph kept looking behind us... obviously looking for Richard.
I couldn't believe it.
Ish.
So, we got to the T, and I stopped to kinda humor her. I dunnoo... I kinda wanted to see him too, to tell the truth. >.<;

And I was looking at Steph for whatever reason. I don't recall, I think I asked what she was doing or planning to do, or something. She was still looking.
Then I looked at where he would come from, and holy crap, he was there... Looking at me. Or Steph. Or just us. I didn't expect him to be there at all. Really.
Like I was thinking "He's not there. Holy crap, he is. Shit." 'Shit', because he was looking at me, and because, for some reason, the guy you like looking at you is always fear-inducing and makes you want to run away.
So that's what I did. I turned away real quick and said something like "Shit" with this huge smile on my face, and I like... did a power-walk thing for a few seconds. I don't quite remember.

Steph was saying that he was staring at me. I told her a couple times he wasn't, but then I wasn't looking at him as long as she was. And you can't really know for sure who he could've been looking at.
...Fuck.

So then we went to the library, and Steph told Michelle the "good news" as she put it.

6th period.
Sitting at my desk, I had this... urge to tell Bryan "I have this urge to hug you." Cuz my need to hug him seemed really... oddly strong. He did look pretty sad, and I wonder if that is why. I went off and did 3rd year stuff with the others on the other side of the room as the 2nd years did a quiz.
For a bit, we had fun knocking on the wall and having someone respond back.

Anyway, at the end of the period, I was putting my stuff away. Sensei was talking to Bryan about something she told his stepdad, I believe. How he has potential and stuff. The bell rang after Sensei was done, and he stood.
I asked if he wanted a hug.
"That would be nice."
So I gave him a hug. My hug was more... forceful I think, than his. I barely even felt his arms, around me. I knew one was for the second that the hug lasted. The half hug. I put both arms around his torso, but I didn't do much contact since he was hardly giving any to me. But yes, the weak hug, but a hug still, lasted a second, if that.
I fucking miss Tyler's hugs.
"See ya."
In an instant he was gone.
It was like the hug never happened. I know hugs are really common and such, but I personally find them pretty... special. Somewhat intimate. I don't want a hug from someone I don't know. I want a long hug from someone I like....
Like, remember that time Tyler gave me a really tight, long hug?
Heavenly.

Eh, thought'd I share this.

PEOPLE YOU TALK TO THE MOST DURING:​

Period 1: AP Stats
Like Jacob or Emily... cuz they're nice and cool like that.

Pretty much anyone who'll talk to me. Small classes are awesome in the way we basically all know each other...

Period 2: Film as Lit
Katie. She hits me a lot, though. I apparently laugh in unappropriate places.


Period 3: CWP
Whoo! Um... It used to be to Amanda, but we've been assigned seats this week, and I haven't begun to really talk to anyone around me.


Period 4: Senior English
Erm, Steph and Tiff mostly.


Period 5: Library Aide
I'm gonna have to go with Michelle

Period 6: Japanese (2 and 3)
Caitlin, Kelly, Katie, Bryan sometimes


Who is your Fav Teacher this year?
I really like Mr. Isaacson, probably because I feel like I learn the most about LIFE in that class.
Things make more sense when he talks about it, you know?
Of course Mr. Gregerson and Mrs. Stanton are awesome as always.


Who annoys you most during 4th period?
Who? Um... I can't think of anyone.


Who do you sit with at lunch?
With the peeps I usually sit with!

Which period is most boring?
I'd have to say... AP Stats. It MIGHT be because it's first period... math first period should seriously be illegal.


Which class do you get the most homework in?
English. Well, at the moment with the Senior Paper and all.


Which period are you most hyper in?
5th? Running around the school and putting tape on a person's back is fun, man!

What is your favorite class?
5th.
Does being a library aide count as a class?

Do you like the lunch?
Sure!

Do you like school?
Not the classes so much, but the people and social part isn't bad.


Who sits behind you in first period?
I sit in the back.
=D
The math gods must like me.


How many kids are in 2nd period?
That has to be my most crowded class. Maybe not, but it feels like it sometimes... Umm... let me count... 28-30?
Whoa... Umm... no... 26-29 more like.


What teacher(s) do you hate most?
Of this year? Or in GENERAL?
Sensei can get a bit sensitive and mean at times, but I don't hate her.

I don't have him this year, but I don't like Boothby that much to be honest. I had him an entire year for Freshman PE and another year for US History. I've come close to exploding in his class, to tell the truth.

...and what were his favorite words? Sissies and pumped, I believe.


Can you talk in 3rd period?
Eh. When he lets us have free time or when we give our opinion and whatnot.

Part I was a journal entry I wrote Freshman year.

Basically, I accidentally stepped on Curtis's shoe in PE and he started calling me names, to which I laughed at. He said it wasn't funny "bitch". And I said "Yes it is." And walked off. So I later wrote what if I had said something more? Something else?


So, I'm on the school bus for like... from 2:30 to 3:10.
It's not fun, man.

And for some goddamned reason, they only allow us 5 minutes to get on the bus (even though today I SWEAR it was less. I mean, people were running for god's sake! And like as soon as I got out of the building, I had to go on the bus!). And so THEN, we have to go to JEMTEGAARD where we have to WAIT for a couple minutes until they actually GET OUT of school. Then why the hell don't they give us more time to get on the bus?
Suuuuee. Well, like, now. Because I feel... violated. As an adult. Which I totally am. Now. I kinda hate it.

Ummm.... so yeah, the bell must've rang later or something. SOMETHING. Something was up with the clocks. I SWEAR.
But yeah, so he was "playing" with 3 kids that were trying to catch the bus, because he was pulling away... And it's his FUCKING job to take kids to and from school. And well, if they're left at school, don't they vandalize it, or something? (POV of School, I mean... they get really sensitive about things)
And, well, surprise surprise, somebody missed the bus. So they got picked up by another bus and that bus driver told ours that there was a kid... and he (Mike. The worst bus driver in EXISTANCE. He's been a driver here since I was AT LEAST in 2nd grade. And then I thought he was the scariest guy in existance... Still kinda is. Doesn't make me respect him (anymore), though. If I use the right fucking words with the right fucking tone, I can get my point across. But since it's impossible to tell him about a different side without offending him... yeah.... It all makes it really hard for me to keep my mouth shut. But I mean, since I'm a fucking adult now, shouldn't my voice also be heard?)
Okay, crap... where was I?

So, yeah... Jemtegaard. Jesse walks on the bus, and for a few seconds everything is fine. Then it takes a trip and fall down a bottomless pit.
Kay, how'd it go?
It was like "Miss the bus?"
"Yeah."
"(something about next time and he won't pick him up, or something)"
Well, I don't remember, but before long, Jesse's saying "I've had a very bad day, so I would end it here if I were you."
Mike: "Oh really?!"
Those last two lines get repeated a couple times, and I was thinking "Okay, now shut the fuck up while you still have your neck."
Then Jesse said that his math teacher kept him in, and Mike was saying how it's not acceptable (what the teacher did), and... I'm just gonna go ALL over the place here on what was said first and stuff... but yeah, so this girl was trying to defend Jesse with things like "Apparently it is acceptable (for a teacher to keep a student it. Happens all the fucking time, people)." and like... crap.
Well, I think it was like Mike made him sit in the front for like 2 weeks, and I didn't hear or see after that, but then Mike's saying "There is a god!" all thankful like. ((Which means there's a devil, which totally makes sense cause that's who you're gonna meet as soon as you die. If you are not, in fact, him)) Then Jesse said "Apparently not, if you're my bus driver" or something like it. Which I totally agree to.

Oh! And the girl said "Why does he have to sit up there?"
"Because he ran his mouth."
Jesse: "I was not running my mouth. I can run my mouth."
They used the word "mouthy" at least once.
And then Jesse said that other things happen if he runs his mouth.
Mike: "Is that a threat?" all authority-like.
Then Jesse said that it wasn't cause he didn't say he was going to DO anything. More like a warning, or something. And that he was having conversation with his bus driver.
Mike: "So make conversation."
Jesse: "I am."

Then after that I got almost too pissed to control myself and stopped listening.

Most of this happened before the Jemtegaard bell even fucking rang.


I just hate it how they treat us like kids. I mean, people like Mike the bus driver are the type of people that DRIVE others to... let's say... vandalize the bus.... commit suicide.... do drugs....

I mean, the pure HATE that came from that "conversation/argument" affected everyone on the bus. I wanted SOOOO much to yell "SHUT UP!"
I wanted to literally jump in between them and repeat "Peace and love" over and over.
I wanted to join in the argument, like the girl. I wanted to tell Jesse to shut up and then tell Mike off about how he shouldn't make everything so bloody personal, and that just because he's older shouldn't give him any sort of rank?... crap, I had the word, and I forgot.

It all just really pisses me off.