It's been awhile since I've written in this OR my journal. If there isn't an entry on this, then I probably wrote something in my journal....

Ummm... I just re-read by last post. Soo... update on my life...

Matt has finally backed off. He sent me a message on Myspace, and it makes me uncomfortable and feel like a bitch when I share with others what it said. Basically, it said that he finally thinks he understands why I've been ignoring him.

Busboy has made his profile into "Friends Only" instead of "Under 18 Only".

I have very slight crushes on... 2 more guys now... More on one than the other. I have absolutely NO chance with them, but I just have these crushes to have something to look forward too and keep my days moving along.
...In a way, it's like I'm waiting just to die...
I'm not really doing anything.
....Maybe I'm waiting for my life to start. I really haven't, like, gotten up to go catch my life. I'm waiting for it to come to me...

Anyway, one is Brandon. Not the Brandon. He's in my clay class, and I really never saw him before this class, but I looked in my yearbooks, and he's in ALL off them, starting when I was in 6th. He's a senior. And he's all hip-hoppy, so that's kind of a turn-off. But he's nice, and he makes me laugh (unintentionally), and he occasionally comments on my clay, and it makes me feel good about myself.
The other kid... I have no idea what his name is. It's kinda chance that I decided to start "tracking" him. I've seem him before the one day he got my attention... but... it's hard to explain. I think he's a soph, but I could be wrong. At yesterday's pep assembly, he sat like 4 people away from Brandon in back row of the bleachers. But then people like Mo were sitting nearby, too. So, I don't know. And he's always with this blonde girl. If they're going out, then they show absolutely NO PDA.

Sooo....

I'm just gonna go to today.

I liked today.

It was the first half day. Periods 1, 2, & 3.

I wore my hair in a sort of bun... just to be different. And... to attract some guy's attention... I'll admit it. All my girl friends said they liked it.

In Phys. We watched The Big Bang Theory (not the whole episode, I WISH), cuz they said the joke that Bennett had tried on us before, and none of us laughed. I already saw most of this episode, and it's weird cuz it's the ONLY episode I've seen. But yeah, so he showed us a funny part before he got to the joke. I kinda wished he had shown the fight between the 2 nerds. Then, in the back, we did Sudoku.

History was lame. As usual.

Japanese was fun, yet it felt really long. We searched through a dictionary and tried to figure out what the sentences were saying.

Now comes the good part.

We went to lunch, sat where we usually sit. I got my iPod out. A few minutes later, Tyler comes and sits next to Steph, who was sitting in front of me. He and Cassy were talking, and I could've sworn he said something about being lonely and Cassy was saying how she likes to be with us, because we care, or something. Then Tyler was saying that he was "fucking hungry" so I gave him my Rice Krispies Treat. He got it out of the wrapper and stuffed all but the last 1/2 inch in his mouth. I was the only one laughing at him, cuz the way he was trying to eat it clearly showed his pain. Plus, I couldn't believe he could fit that much in his mouth.
He eventually got it down.
A bit later, he reached over to me and pressed "pause" on my iPod. I pressed it again to play, and when he tried reaching again, I moved it away slightly. Cassy then pressed the back button, restarting the song. I thought it was kinda odd how the song I was listening to was from the CD Tyler had given me (lostprophets: thefakesoundofprogress).
A bit later still, Caitlin was looking at Steph's binder, and realized that Bob (the smiley faced coin) was in it, and so the two were fighting over it, since Caitlin wanted it back. It was very entertaining. I noticed that Tyler was smiling at us. Then I kinda tried to make it so he'd be laughing/enjoying something I said/did. So then I said "You guys sound like you're fighting over a.... boyfriend or something: 'No! He's mine!' 'I want him!' 'You slut!'"
I didn't really look to see if he did.

Oh! And in Japanese class, Caitlin gave me this small sticker with a cake on it, so I put it on my face. Like, near my left eye, on the cheek bone. Only Cassy said anything about it. Then she said she wanted one, so I got Caitlin to give her one, and she did the same thing I did, but on the other side of her face. This was when Tyler was sitting with us, and I said that she was a copy cat.

Tyler left after awhile.

We left after a while. For some odd reason, someone closed the doors to the hallways (god, could I feel more like a prisoner?). So we went out the front doors and walked to the very opposite side of the school. There, Steph lost her shoe for a while, and all sorts of hilariousness occurred, including Steph saying "Give me your shirt!" to Michelle (she was carrying her PE shirt), then they were tugging on it together, and all sorts of people passed us during this... even Holds/Grabs Himself Kid (he's new to the named scene) and the random freshman guy that commented on my lipring (actually, we was against the wall with his girlfriend. I'm actually okay with her.... no idea who she is, but she likes Gir!). Remember him? He comes later in this post again.

So, eventually the bus came. Orion sat in the front seat on the door side, and I sat behind him. Orion was trying to out-wave Michelle. So they were both waving at each other, and I decided to join in. I looked away for a second, and when I looked back, the freshman guy was kinda looking/talking to Michelle, then turned to the bus, and started waving. I laughed a bit, and continued waving. Steph got off the bus and stood by Michelle (Steph had to give Mel her key, cuz she was going to Michelle's house to paint eggs! I was invited, but I turned it down cuz 2 of my cats got fixed yesterday, and I want to be there for them and cuz... other stuff). Then the freshman turned to Steph, and like tapped her on the arm and said something, then she also started waving. So yes, 2 kids on the bus were waving at 4 kids outside who were waving back. It was really weird.
Orion out-waved Michelle in the end. So, me still kinda laughing, asked him why "that one kid" was also waving, and he said "Because Michelle told him to." It actually made me feel good. That that one freshman guy payed attention to me again. I kinda got high off of his last/first comment, and then he just never said anything to me, or tried to get to know me.


Damn that Busboy. Damn him and his house for being so close to the school. I saw him this morning, and I'm sure he saw me. I saw him at the beginning of lunch, when he was looking in our direction a ways away. Then after awhile, I stopped seeing him, then he and his friend(s) weren't on the bus.

I think there's Blue Note tonight. I never heard them say anything in the announcements, but then again, I don't really listen. I want to invite Tyler, but I don't want to invite him now to find out there ISN'T Blue Note, or invite him at the last minute when I DO know there is.
And I'm wondering if Tyler was kinda... flirting with me at lunch. With the pausing my music thing.... Hey, I'd do that purposefully if I was flirting. I usually don't realize I'm flirting until later, when I'm looking back...

It kinda feels like it should be 6 or 7. I was on the computer for like an hour, and got bored, to look at the clock, and realize I wouldn't even be out of school on a regular day.


OH!!! We're gonna get satellite internet soon! I am so effing excited! It's about time we updated from the evil dial-up.

It's so pathetic. Whenever I go to his Myspace profile... I get this adrenaline high.
And like... today. I noticed (on my Favs page) that he updated his profile.

Is he not going out with that one chick anymore?

Oh yeah... did I forget to mention he had a girlfriend? Yeah... for like a week now. I'm so pissed. Well, not really... more left out and unnoticed than pissed.
All the good guys have girlfriends... ='(
That aren't me.
...It kinda hurts... I mean, have you SEEN some of the girls guys are dating? They can have ANYONE and of course, they choose the guy I want.
....The story of my life....

Yeah... and awhile ago... I kinda drew a pic of him... yeah. It's not framed on my wall or anything; It's nestled nicely in the notebook it was drawn in.

He's always wearing baseball hats now. It bugs me. He doesn't seem like the type to wear them, right? Well, he does and it covers up his to-die-for hair. Not to mention, it's harder to find him in a crowd.

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Okay, so... HOW long had I been ignoring Matt? 3 weeks AT LEAST. So at club yesterday, he was talking to me, and I answered him indifferently, not taking my eyes off what I was doing. Suddenly, he CLINGS to me again like a freaking leech. ESPECIALLY after Tyler left (early, I may add... leaving me in Hell with Matt). He was less than a foot behind me, literally looking over my shoulder at what I was drawing.
Can you say awkward and uncomfortable?
Of course, the one thing I just can not say for some reason, is, of course, "Back off."
....OH! If ONLY I had enough guts to say those two syllables!!

At lunch today, he "hung out with us" at our table again. Ugh.
KILL ME NOW!
But after he was gone, we all (mainly me and Kearsten) shared why Matt bugs us (the two of us) so freakin' much.

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P.S. Going to school this morning, the stop sign by the school said "Hammer time." Once I realized what it said, I laughed my head off. My dad hadn't even noticed. At the end of the day, Jessie was looking through someone's iPod and said "You have MC Hammer?" which, of course, reminded me of "Hammer time." So I told Steph, and as the bus passed the sign, we looked and someone had freakin cleaned it off!!
DAMMIT!
I should've gotten a pic when I had the chance...
Darby, who was sitting in front of us, said that he once made a stop sign say "STOP in the name of love."