Yay for you. Two posts in a half an hour. Yay.
Here's three posts I've written over the course of... a week-ish.
It's a treat to anyone that cares (like Cara), because it's oozing juicey gossip goodness... >.< Yeah. I've only told Karlie and Brittni about this guy.... Enjoy!

April 27

I'd like to talk to him. I really would. But it would be so odd: I don't know him AT ALL. He doesn't know me. I don't have the guts. And he's *always* with one of his friends.

He seems to have a small group of friends, indicating he's a bit of an outcast. Why? Does this mean he *doesn't* smoke or do drugs? Or do people just not like him?

Girls don't run up to him like they do with James. I find myself wondering if this is good or bad.

The other day, he and Kevin Vann were talking. Kevin and James are friends. Does this make Tyler a seemingly good person? Or is he a jerk; a jackass who bitches about everything? Is he a virgin? Eww, but I still wonder.

I know nothing of the guy, so why the hell am I obsessing over it so much? Maybe because of this almost unbearable need to like someone since Kevin (Kuhn) likes me. Yes, he does.

That's a pathetic excuse. I've noticed Tyler since the beginning of the school year, and I don't recall the first semester, but now I pass him at least twice a day to get to class (going to 2nd and going to 6th. Sometimes he passes me going to 3rd. Yes, I walk slow), I spot him every lunch and when he's heading home after school (he walks).

So why do I *now* decide to obsess? I've always thought him attractive.

But I don't want to be infatuated with him, I want an actual crush on the guy... maybe so I won't sound so pathetic.

Do I sound insane yet? I'm suddenly aware of my thoughts and wondering what got me to even think about them.

April 30

I feel like a stalker.

I watch him similar to a predator watching its prey.

Today Karlie said, "I saw your dude."
"My dude?"
"Yeah. Your dude."

May 5

Karlie and Brit are bugging me like mad about this guy. Karlie wasn't at school on Wed. and neither was "my dude".... didn't turn out to be the best day. I couldn't tell her about how I could've run into him the day before (Going to 6th, I could've put my head down and taken one step to my left and collided into him.... but did I? NO!! Didn't have the guts to take one single step....damn). Yes, I feel absolutely pathetic. THEN he wasn't at school on Thursday, either! The nerve of the guy! Geez.

Okay, so on Friday, during lunch, well, I usually sit in the same spot on the same table, looking towards the staircase. Tyler does also, but he sits at the table next to the windows. After people moved from the other side of our table, I decided to switch things up a little bit and sit over there. Much to my disappointment, there were people blocking my view. DAMN THOSE PEOPLE! *Ahem*

ANYWAY, they always leave after they finish eating, so they went past our table (as always). Naturally, I tried to act cool, calm, down to earth, all that jazz. Naturally. Brittni came over sometime (before they left), and, naturally, we started talking about him. After they left I looked forward. "Oh, nice. AFTER they leave, my view clears up." The two tables between us were absolutely CLEAR in my line of view. Frick. Karlie was once again saying how I should just go and talk to him. Hell no! Then I told them about almost running into him and she said "Oh, you so should have!" They started talking about how when I'd run into him, I should drop my books and see if he picks them up. Or be all twirling my hair, "I dropped my books. I'm such a spaz," with a valley girl accent. Whenever I talk about him, I can't get this stupid smile off my face. After that, Karlie said that if she's ever with me as HE walks by, that she'll shove me into him. Knowing her, she probably would. I know Brit isn't all talk when she says things like that. "Yeah, all of a sudden, you'll tackle me." "Yeah." I also, during sometime, told them that I felt like a stalker and told them which class he has. Health first. Biology/chemistry 2nd. Most likely math 3rd. No clue for fourth. Lunch. Band/drama/occupational for 5th, and no clue for 6th. Then he walks home. Oh yeah.

I think there may have been a noise, maybe of the doors opening or something, so I looked at the doors. Enter Tyler and friends. I turn back to the table, trying to hold in my smile and mumbling "Oh, God." After I told them what just happened, Karlie told me something along the lines of "act cool" and maybe something about being funny or looking like I'm having fun. The only thing I really remember is that every time I looked over to where they were (still by the door), Tyler was against the wall so that he wasn't looking at me and I could only see his profile. "He's not even looking this way." Karlie: "He's probably looking at you when you're not looking. He's stalking *you*. He knows everything about you." Then I said, "I hope so."

The bell rang, and we walked past them. "I'm surprised you didn't shove me into him." "Oh. I completely forgot about that." Sure.