Okay, so I got Cara's message asking if I like died on Blogger or something. So I go and see if anyone left any more comments, and the page tells me that the URL doesn't exist. At this time, my heart is beating in my ears because I was freaking out so bad. I go to the help section, and it doesn't tell me shit. Or anything close to it.
So then I think "Hummm.... What if I change my blog address?" So I did. Now you're probably saying to the computer screen "No you didn't". Ha, that's what YOU think. No, I tried changing it to "darksoul01" then "darksoul09" then "shatteredtear" then "shatteredtears", then just for grins "loveinoctober" (because they sent me a friend request). That wasn't taken, so it let me. Then I changed it BACK to "darksoul0" and republished my blog and TADA!!! YAY!!!! My life is SAVED!
Yeah, so that was fun.
I REALLY should be working on the book report for Siddhartha.... I'm sooo screwed.
I blame the Zoloft.... Yeah, I got back on it. I got a NEW doctor and as she was talking about what she was thinking, I seriously wanted to hug her and say "A woman after my own heart!" because her voice was like an echo of what I had been thinking over the past month. So, yeah. I'm really not anxious for anything at all, but for the past few days I've been really down. I started crying yesterday. I was trying to work on the report and I broke down a little. I started reading some Dr. Seuss books here in the computer room.... I'm so going insane.
Er... so yeah. I BET I'm going to SOOO regret this later, but there is a guy I'm crushing on. I know Brittni knows who I'm talking about. And I'm not going to say his name... unless Brittni suddenly BLURTS it out and you actually knew who he was. Yeah... so he might like me back, I don't know. HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW?
Anyway, I HAVE to say this. A few weeks ago, he hurt his foot from playing hacky sack. Because apparently they all were trying to get it at the same time, and he was the only one that got hurt. SO when he said this, me and Karlie stared laughing, because it was funny, obviously. And I said "It's always funny when guys get hurt." Karlie nodded. Then the guy leans over to me (Karlie sits to my right, and he's behind her) and freaking PINCHES my arm!!! It hurt even though I had my sweater on and he claimed he didn't pinch as hard as he could've. My arm was red there for an hour... THEN a nasty bruise appeared near it 2 days later (hmmm...)
Wow... this blog template is so out of date. Personally, I DO like Gerard's new-ish hair (really short and blonde) but he DOES look better with it black and long. People were kinda confused when I said I liked it. I like his old hair BETTER, though. And I heard about his hair a LONG time ago (like July or August) from my AWESOME Quizillian friend, Jamie.
There's this concert I really want to go to (not as much as I wanted for the Kill Hannah and MSI one) with From First To Last, Atreyu, Every Time I Die, and Chiodos. And I only want to see FFTL and Atreyu. It's on Nov. 15 (a Wednesday) at Roseland at like... 8 pm I think. And my mom doesn't want me to, since it IS a school night. I do have I ride (I think) and friends I can go with.... So, yeah... that's a downer.
I'll get more later. Maybe.
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O P H E L I A C
by Emilie Autumn
I'm your Opheliac
I've been so disillusioned
I know you'd take me back
But still I feign confusion
I couldn't be your friend
My world was too unstable
You might have seen the end
But you were never able
To keep me breathing
As the water rises up again
Before I slip away
You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
It's the Opheliac in me
I'm your Opheliac
My stockings prove my virtue
I'm open to attack
But I don't want to hurt you
Whether I swim or sink
That's no concern of yours now
How could you possibly think
You had the power to know how
To keep me breathing
As the water rises up again
Before I slip away
You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
It's the Opheliac in me
Studies show:
Intelligent girls are more depressed
Because they know
What the world is really like
Don't think for a beat it makes it better
When you sit her down and tell her
Everything gonna be all right
She knows in society she either is
A devil or an angel with no in between
She speaks in the third person
So she can forget that she's me
Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt
Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt I love
You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
Y O U T U B E L O V E
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M U S I C
filling ears with love
more lovin'
P R O F I L E
me myself and i :D
Megan
9/14/90 (so I'm 20)
The Pacific Northwest! Yay rain!!
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Loves
Music, Chocolate, Internet, Invader Zim, Writing, Reading, Photography, Drawing, Dreaming, Computers, Pandas! <3, Galaxy (my laptop), My iPod, Rain, Snow, Wind, Blogging, Ice cream, The Moon, Full Moons, Stars, Glowsticks, Glow-in-the-dark-things, Stuffed animals, Recycling, Concerts, Hide-and-seek, Laughing, Choices, Doing random things, Doing nothing, My FRIENDS!
Hates
Jerks, Spiders, Heights, Needles, Shrinks that don't eat chocolate, HEADACHES! DX, Roadkill, Meat, PMSing, Drama, Spicy foods, Pink, The Sun
MUSIC
Evanescence |
My Chemical Romance |
Kill Hannah |
Sick Puppies |
Flyleaf |
30 Seconds To Mars |
From First to Last |
Chevelle |
10 Years |
Shiny Toy Guns |
The Used |
Enter Shikari |
Linkin Park |
Avenged Sevenfold |
Story of the Year |
Emilie Autumn |
Green Day |
Lacuna Coil |
Scarling. |
kidneythieves |
Secret & Whisper |
Paramore |
Birthday Massacre |
Resident Hero |
{And about a bajillion others. I'm lazy though. I'll get to it eventually.}
Wheee!
I N S P I R E
things that will change your life
[S O N G S.}
ONE. "Reduced to Teeth" - Finch
TWO: "Anything Can Happen In The Next Half Hour..." - Enter Shikari
THREE. "Hello" - Evanescence
FOUR: "All The Same" - Sick Puppies
FIVE. "The Kill" - 30 Seconds to Mars
SIX: "Demolition Lovers" - My Chemical Romance
SEVEN. "Mad World" - Gary Jules
EIGHT: "Slide" - The Dresden Dolls
NINE. "Let The Flames Begin" - Paramore
TEN: "Sunrise, Sunset" - Bright Eyes
ELEVEN. "Imagine" - (I prefer A Perfect Circle's cover)
TWELVE: "Cellar Door" - Escape The Fate
THIRTEEN. "Ender" - Finch
FOURTEEN: "Because" - The Beatles
FIFTEEN. "A Beautiful Lie" - 30 Seconds To Mars
SIXTEEN: "Strawberry Gashes" - Jack Off Jill
SEVENTEEN. "Sleep" - Story of the Year
EIGHTEEN: "Great White Whale" - Secret & Whisper
NINETEEN. "Goodnight" - The Birthday Massacre
TWENTY: "Hit The Floor" - Bullet For My Valentine
TWENTY-ONE. "Blow" - Atreyu
TWENTY-TWO. "Crystalised" - The xx
ONE. "Reduced to Teeth" - Finch
TWO: "Anything Can Happen In The Next Half Hour..." - Enter Shikari
THREE. "Hello" - Evanescence
FOUR: "All The Same" - Sick Puppies
FIVE. "The Kill" - 30 Seconds to Mars
SIX: "Demolition Lovers" - My Chemical Romance
SEVEN. "Mad World" - Gary Jules
EIGHT: "Slide" - The Dresden Dolls
NINE. "Let The Flames Begin" - Paramore
TEN: "Sunrise, Sunset" - Bright Eyes
ELEVEN. "Imagine" - (I prefer A Perfect Circle's cover)
TWELVE: "Cellar Door" - Escape The Fate
THIRTEEN. "Ender" - Finch
FOURTEEN: "Because" - The Beatles
FIFTEEN. "A Beautiful Lie" - 30 Seconds To Mars
SIXTEEN: "Strawberry Gashes" - Jack Off Jill
SEVENTEEN. "Sleep" - Story of the Year
EIGHTEEN: "Great White Whale" - Secret & Whisper
NINETEEN. "Goodnight" - The Birthday Massacre
TWENTY: "Hit The Floor" - Bullet For My Valentine
TWENTY-ONE. "Blow" - Atreyu
TWENTY-TWO. "Crystalised" - The xx
(Not in much of an order)
T O D O L I S T
this should be useful
Stop A Bullet
Surgery
Sunrise, Sunset
Autopsy Song~
Breath
Mastermind
The Undertaker's Thirst
T A G B O A R D
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Yes, I took it down.
I don't promote spamming.
The Past Few Months...
7:42 PM - Saturday, October 14, 2006
A R C H I V E S
wasting my life away
A F F I L I A T E S
i am anti-social, yeah.
.: [ Daydream ] :.
.: [ There's Nothing Left to Do ] :.
.: [ So What? ] :.
.: [ Finding the Balance ] :.
.: [ Suck the Marrow ] :.
.: [ Close my eyes and I am falling away... ] :.
C R E D I TS
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