Long time, no talk, eh?
Well, sorry about that.... School is living hell. And RIGHT now my life is filled with so much drama it's hard for me to just keep it ALL to myself.... I'll just say I would've NEVER thought that so many people could like me... 2 guys... BOTH seniors... god, I'm so fucking screwed.
One I met on the internet... he lives in Mexico, and I already told you guys about him.... The other guy I met at school. Tom. He's soo funny and a really good writer. Both of these guys are athiests (damnit, why do I ALWAYS fall for athiests? Weird.), both told me they liked me first, did I mention they're both seniors? Well, they are. I have so much in common with both these guys, but there is one that I THINK I feel more comfortable around.... not telling which one. I REALLY don't want to hurt either of them... and I have this feeling that one of them will eventually be hurt if I tell them.... and I duno. Yesterday, you should've seen me... I was freaking out because I FIGURED that Tom liked me... it wasn't until today that he actually told me... with that famous "What if I...." line that guys have (2 diff. guys have used it on me in the past month....) used... on me, at least.
Ok, the subject has turned to all Tom.... his myspace account: Zeath Xio. He's the president of the Creative Writer's Group every Monday after school.... That's how I met him. Also, because his friend, Jeremy, invited me to him... and I "met" Jeremy on Myspace... yes, you DO meet awesome people on Myspace. So the first meeting I went to, Jeremy told Tom that I was the person that he met on Myspace. Then Tom goes "You meet 45 year-old wo/men on Myspace that say they are 21." who would've thought that 1 1/2 weeks from then we would be secretly crushing each other? NOT me..... yeah so what if at the beginning of the year, I would glance and Tom and his friend playing cards in the courtyard during lunch? And what if I tried to drag Brittni out there so it wouldn't look so weird if I went up to them and watched...?
Ok.... *hits self* I wrote this on Oct. 17, and I'm SOOOO sorry I didn't get it out sooner, I punish myself for that.
THEN, I wrote this on Halloween, but once again, I didn't get it out *hits self*:
Happy Halloween!
Must warn you: Megan feels depressed.
I broke Micky's heart.
I never knew saying what I did would hurt so bad...
But it did.
The whole thing turned out better than I would've ever expected.
It really was too good to be true...
A week or so after the talk, Micky became completely heartless and nearly let everything go.
I just want to go over to Mexico and give Ana a big huge hug and a gigantic box of chocolates.
Micky isn't who he used to be... there's something there that I don't remember.
School...
What more do I have to say?
I've been having a few anxiety attacks lately...
I try not to worry anyone.
Especially Tom.
He can see right through me like a window.
It kinda creeps me out.
English is probably the only fun class...
Well, so is Chemistry, but Chem is way harder.
Chemistry takes out the most chunk out of my life than any other subject.
Stupid book questions. >.<
P.E. is Hell...
Math is dull and confusing...
World Geography has to be the most ANNOYING class of all... damn preps don't understand the meaning of a "quarter" .... 1/4, that's IT!! *yells at preps*
Computer Apps is boring and I want to kill Dean... that's all I have to say on that topic.
I hate buses... and I want to kill Brendan.
The worst bus days always happen when Brooke isn't on... I noticed that... It's extremely sad to know that.
Anything else?
Oh yeah, it is official that Tom and I are dating... yeah, haven't heard rumors about us lately, thankfully.
...Of course, I don't have an ear for gossip.
I officially hate J-pop *cringes at the name*
Freshmen get too much homework.
Frank is still the weirdest person I've ever met. *yells at Frank* Freshman!
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TODAY!!!:
Yes, Tom and I are dating.... Frank reacted strangely to that....
I'm supposed to be doing my chemistry right now, but I just don't feel like it....
That big huge bag of Peanut M&M's that Tom gave me is now empty.... that fact depresses me.
I have this feeling that some people don't like the fact that I'm going out with a Senior... that's 17... doesn't drive... and always wears black....
Lately I haven't cared about much....
Sometimes I worry myself......... that's probably the only time that my body language actually shows that something is wrong....
Oh yeah, I have to mention that Tom's going to move to Tacoma... eventually.
...I cried myself to sleep that night.... but my mom had suggested I take Benadryl... and I did, thankfully. Without it, I might've not been able to sleep at all. Next day I was tired>happy>hyper>tired. Fun.
I'm so glad that Micky held on... he actually was able to make me laugh at the same time that I was crying over Tom.
.... And I just lost my abilty to want to share things... so that's it for now, bye
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O P H E L I A C
by Emilie Autumn
I'm your Opheliac
I've been so disillusioned
I know you'd take me back
But still I feign confusion
I couldn't be your friend
My world was too unstable
You might have seen the end
But you were never able
To keep me breathing
As the water rises up again
Before I slip away
You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
It's the Opheliac in me
I'm your Opheliac
My stockings prove my virtue
I'm open to attack
But I don't want to hurt you
Whether I swim or sink
That's no concern of yours now
How could you possibly think
You had the power to know how
To keep me breathing
As the water rises up again
Before I slip away
You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
It's the Opheliac in me
Studies show:
Intelligent girls are more depressed
Because they know
What the world is really like
Don't think for a beat it makes it better
When you sit her down and tell her
Everything gonna be all right
She knows in society she either is
A devil or an angel with no in between
She speaks in the third person
So she can forget that she's me
Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt
Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt I love
You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
Y O U T U B E L O V E
sharing the love <3
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M U S I C
filling ears with love
more lovin'
P R O F I L E
me myself and i :D
Megan
9/14/90 (so I'm 20)
The Pacific Northwest! Yay rain!!
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Loves
Music, Chocolate, Internet, Invader Zim, Writing, Reading, Photography, Drawing, Dreaming, Computers, Pandas! <3, Galaxy (my laptop), My iPod, Rain, Snow, Wind, Blogging, Ice cream, The Moon, Full Moons, Stars, Glowsticks, Glow-in-the-dark-things, Stuffed animals, Recycling, Concerts, Hide-and-seek, Laughing, Choices, Doing random things, Doing nothing, My FRIENDS!
Hates
Jerks, Spiders, Heights, Needles, Shrinks that don't eat chocolate, HEADACHES! DX, Roadkill, Meat, PMSing, Drama, Spicy foods, Pink, The Sun
MUSIC
Evanescence |
My Chemical Romance |
Kill Hannah |
Sick Puppies |
Flyleaf |
30 Seconds To Mars |
From First to Last |
Chevelle |
10 Years |
Shiny Toy Guns |
The Used |
Enter Shikari |
Linkin Park |
Avenged Sevenfold |
Story of the Year |
Emilie Autumn |
Green Day |
Lacuna Coil |
Scarling. |
kidneythieves |
Secret & Whisper |
Paramore |
Birthday Massacre |
Resident Hero |
{And about a bajillion others. I'm lazy though. I'll get to it eventually.}
Wheee!
I N S P I R E
things that will change your life
[S O N G S.}
ONE. "Reduced to Teeth" - Finch
TWO: "Anything Can Happen In The Next Half Hour..." - Enter Shikari
THREE. "Hello" - Evanescence
FOUR: "All The Same" - Sick Puppies
FIVE. "The Kill" - 30 Seconds to Mars
SIX: "Demolition Lovers" - My Chemical Romance
SEVEN. "Mad World" - Gary Jules
EIGHT: "Slide" - The Dresden Dolls
NINE. "Let The Flames Begin" - Paramore
TEN: "Sunrise, Sunset" - Bright Eyes
ELEVEN. "Imagine" - (I prefer A Perfect Circle's cover)
TWELVE: "Cellar Door" - Escape The Fate
THIRTEEN. "Ender" - Finch
FOURTEEN: "Because" - The Beatles
FIFTEEN. "A Beautiful Lie" - 30 Seconds To Mars
SIXTEEN: "Strawberry Gashes" - Jack Off Jill
SEVENTEEN. "Sleep" - Story of the Year
EIGHTEEN: "Great White Whale" - Secret & Whisper
NINETEEN. "Goodnight" - The Birthday Massacre
TWENTY: "Hit The Floor" - Bullet For My Valentine
TWENTY-ONE. "Blow" - Atreyu
TWENTY-TWO. "Crystalised" - The xx
ONE. "Reduced to Teeth" - Finch
TWO: "Anything Can Happen In The Next Half Hour..." - Enter Shikari
THREE. "Hello" - Evanescence
FOUR: "All The Same" - Sick Puppies
FIVE. "The Kill" - 30 Seconds to Mars
SIX: "Demolition Lovers" - My Chemical Romance
SEVEN. "Mad World" - Gary Jules
EIGHT: "Slide" - The Dresden Dolls
NINE. "Let The Flames Begin" - Paramore
TEN: "Sunrise, Sunset" - Bright Eyes
ELEVEN. "Imagine" - (I prefer A Perfect Circle's cover)
TWELVE: "Cellar Door" - Escape The Fate
THIRTEEN. "Ender" - Finch
FOURTEEN: "Because" - The Beatles
FIFTEEN. "A Beautiful Lie" - 30 Seconds To Mars
SIXTEEN: "Strawberry Gashes" - Jack Off Jill
SEVENTEEN. "Sleep" - Story of the Year
EIGHTEEN: "Great White Whale" - Secret & Whisper
NINETEEN. "Goodnight" - The Birthday Massacre
TWENTY: "Hit The Floor" - Bullet For My Valentine
TWENTY-ONE. "Blow" - Atreyu
TWENTY-TWO. "Crystalised" - The xx
(Not in much of an order)
T O D O L I S T
this should be useful
Stop A Bullet
Surgery
Sunrise, Sunset
Autopsy Song~
Breath
Mastermind
The Undertaker's Thirst
T A G B O A R D
yakkity yak yak
Yes, I took it down.
I don't promote spamming.
Too much drama!
6:05 PM - Sunday, November 06, 2005
A R C H I V E S
wasting my life away
- November 2011
- August 2011
- April 2011
- March 2011
- December 2010
- November 2010
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- February 2005
A F F I L I A T E S
i am anti-social, yeah.
.: [ Daydream ] :.
.: [ There's Nothing Left to Do ] :.
.: [ So What? ] :.
.: [ Finding the Balance ] :.
.: [ Suck the Marrow ] :.
.: [ Close my eyes and I am falling away... ] :.
C R E D I TS
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