When Carlton, Renee, and Austin were here, we went to Powell's Book City in Portland. There, I bought a book that caught my eye... very decent sized book (307 pages in paperback). I read the back, and it sounded interesting. I bought it... hell, it was only $3! It sucked me in, so I read it since Snakecharm was losing my interest (oh, and I'm writing this cuz 1. I have nothing better to do at the moment 2. This book is really good.... I think that's it).


Not all people would like this, just because I do. This takes place in present day New York (I think... it's been awhile since I read it. Not the city... somewhere in the state). The main character, Claire, it's a cheerleader-- popluar, yet she's the really nice type of them. The thing is... she has lukemia, so people act weird around her and such. A new kid, Lani Garver, comes to school, and the people at the "popular" table make fun of them. Staring at them, trying to figure out if they're a boy or a girl.
By the way, that wasn't from the back of the book... THIS is the back: Hackett Island has never seen anyone quite like Lani Garver. Everything about this new kid is a mystery: Where does Lani comes from? How old is Lani? And-- most disturbing of all-- is Lani a boy or a girl? Claire McKenzie isn't up to tormenting Lani like the rest of the entire school elite. Instead, she befriends the intriguing outcast. But within days of Lani's arrival, tragedy strikes and Claire must deal with shattered friendships and personal demons-- and the possiblity that angels walk the earth.


This book is a masterpiece. And don't get fooled by the angel part... it's not like the glowing people with wings type of thing... Ah, I'm not gonna say anymore. This book is supposed to be ages 14 and up, mainly cuz of language, and such. Like I said, not everyone is going to like this, like people who are REALLY anti-gore. This is basically your basic today teenage life (no sex, perverts). Oh, and I got my ability to not be able to explain things well from my dad, mostly, so sorry I can't explain things well... and I repeat things. This book shows how people change, that people DO change. How the person changing is first scared by it until they meet someone who says it's alright (like how Skyler helped me....DAMNIT!! Where's Micky when I need him?! (I'll get to him later)). This book made me CRY! Oh, and this is one of the books where they don't tell you EVERYTHING. It makes you think, it keeps some questions unanswered, so that you can continue to ponder after you read it. Of course, if you can't stand being confused, stay away from book.



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I met one of the sweetest people alive. Of course, some people really don't care about him, or don't want to listen to him or anything. His name is Miguel, but he said I can call him Micky. He somehow found me on Myspace, and we instantly connected. He said that we were alot alike, and I was so SURPRISED to find out that he was right. We like much of the same things, hate much of the same things.... it's scary. Micky lives 5 minutes away from the US border in Mexico, like south of Arizona or New Mexico, or something. He is actually a really sweet guy. He pretty much fell in love with me.... Mind you, we've been through similar situations. It wasn't until he helped me get over Skyler that I started to like him back. Well, I'm not completely over Sky, but Micky helped show me some things.... I just needed someone to think about in place of Sky... Micky is currently it. Cara and Brittni know that recently I've been constantly talking about Micky... the white mexican guy who lives in Mexico, learned English from just literature, and has to deal with people speaking Spanglish (actual language... believe me, it's ugly). He's 17 now, and he's given me so much in just a week. I've seriously never met anyone sweeter than him. He loves music, computers, games, cartoons, trench coats (trench coats are cool! And he actually bought one), he likes Underworld (I watched that movie 5 times in 2 days... I'm glad after getting sleep I haven't been thinking Underworld anymore... I mean, I was speaking, thinking, playing music in my head, I was reciting lines, everything.... oh, and I scared my mom cuz it's rated R, and it's about vampyres and werewolves (Lycans) *heh* my dad liked it to. There's this part in the movie, where the first time it kinda made me lose my appetite. I said to my dad "You're gonna like this part..." seconds later... "Cool!" "Told you." people who have seen it should know what part I'm talking about). He also likes rain, hates sun... I'm currently picturing him as the character named Nathaniel in Underworld... white, trench coat, dark hair... and the fangs... ah, the beautiful fangs.... er... I was talking about Nathaniel. I believe he's the one that first fought Raze in the subway, right? Or is Nathaniel the bladish guy that had the camera? Cuz I thought that guy died from the UV bullets... and Selene said that Nathaniel could still be out there..... OH WELL!!! Most of you people haven't even watched it, and have NO clue what I'm talking about, right? Ok... where was I? Damn me and my rambling. Well, that's all I want to say today, can't think of much else.



READ "What Happened To Lani Garver" AND WATCH Underworld (I DARE you to watch it 5 times in 2 days... and I actually watch and listen to it, and watch the director/writer comentary once... that's what I did, and tell me you aren't thinking differently... 1st day watched it 3 times, 2 times the 2nd day. Good Luck, all!! ^_^

100 posts!!! I ROCK!!!!

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WHY DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME that Kyle Henick was in a band called Watershed?! *sigh* I'm staying up all night, and I joined Myspace, and all that jazz, and I decided to check out local bands.... *sigh* I remember last Halloween when Kyle and some other guy started doing this Halloween song when we rang their doorbell. DUDE, that was so AWESOME!! I remember just laughing. Brittni, you had to remember that, you HAD to. lol, Amanda and her greek costume.... Then we ran into those bi--atches that go to Canyon Creek. I STILL, after all these years, HATE Garret!!


Check out this [AWESOME] new artist I discovered while being the web surfer that I am. Megan McCauley. Imagine Evanescence style, with.... well, her voice is hard to place. It's not an angel's like Amy's.... It's.... well, sometimes it kinda sounds like Kelly Clarkson, but sometimes it's.... it kinda makes you wonder that when she talks, it would be kinda raspy... it has that "raw edge" as someone said (can't remember). I love the lyrics. They are truly fresh and nothing I've really heard before. (oh shit, that would be my mom waking up... eh, it's not as bad as the HUGE ass Washington mosquito in my room right now... I've been paranoid for about an hour now... it suddenly DISAPPEARED, and I have this slight suspicion that it's in my glass of water, but I'm too scared to go over and check)



I'm REALLY debating with myself if I should add My Chemical Romance to my friends... I want to, REALLY, but.... I DUNO!!! *frantics* SOMEONE SAVE ME BEFORE I GO INSANE!!! I've got *looks at invisible watch* about 5 hours till I'm knocked out dead, and that WHOLE time I'll be on (hopefully... AOL is IMPOSSIBLE to predict). WHERE'S THE CHOCOLATE AND CAFFEINE!!!!!!!!!! Oh yea, and all you coffee lovers, I still really don't like the taste of coffee... it's ICKY! Starbucks is still evil.... That reminds me!! The other day, when we went to go to Hot Topic at the mall, well (Cara should know this) since their like adding on to the mall, and so there's a HUGE chunk of parking lot got and stuff, and RVs were littering the area, we tried to figure out what would go there, and so we thought up of Starbucks, cuz we didn't think there was one already.... Well later we found out there was, and so I said, "Ehh (I'm no Canadian, I just like saying it), they can have TWO starbucks in a mall, You can't have too many Starbucks!" I was just of course.... well, not really.... but I was.... *head hurt*


OK, what was I saying?! Oh yea, I wanted to add that I REALLY don't know what I'd do without MCR in the world, cause THEN what song would hold my all-time favorite song award if not Demolition Lovers?? It will FOREVER be my favorite song *tear*. *light bulb* I have been INSPIRED!!! Poem? WHAT?!?! --- I mean, uh, nooo. *I'm hungry* I've been inspired to put up the next, already written part of There's Nothing Left To Do (I made it a link for the hell of it)!! Maybe I actually might send already written parts to my 2 WONDERFUL critic.... type... people who loook over my work!!! *HUGS*


You think I'm INSANE?!?! Noooooooooo, you people REALLY need to learn that THIS is how I am *giggles uncontrollably* when I don't get ANY sleep for *count fingers*..... 19 hours!!! (I HAVE pulled off a great 26 hours with no sleep.... IT WAS AWESOME!!!) Did I ever tell you guys what happened after my surgery that one day? ANYWAY *shouts over the responses of "yes's"* they gave me this thing.... I think it was called Value... or something, BASICALLY, it made me drunk, and I've never been drunk before (*GASP* I know, I don't drink.... surprise). I was all giggly and stuff. I ended up getting a hangover (surprise, surprise), even though in that one post I said that my mom said that if I drink alot of water, I wouldn't get a hangover, but I did *laughs at stupidity/lack of sleep*. Ok, so I got a hangover *laughs again*, and blah blah. A while, my dad, mom and me were going somewhere and my dad out of nowhere said that he knew how I would act when I get drunk.... all giggly. SHIT!!! Oh, sorry.... paranoia. I'm getting really hungry.... I think my stomach is gonna eat itself.... I think it is eating itself.... I CAN'T STAND THE MADNESS!!!! *runs to kitchen* CHOCOLATE!!! FUCK!! *scar hurt, scar hurt* IT'S VOLDY, AND HE'S COME TO KILL US ALL!!! *OWWW* I also might be acting a little weird, cuz it's that time of the month for me, so..... CHOCOLATE!!! Yeah....


Cara, thank you SOOOO much for that comment on the poem, it was really sweet and made my day, even after being pissed at the world for the Mother's Against Hard Rock thingy. Where's that mosquito? *twitches* Sorry for my RAMBLING on and ON and on and ON, but I'm having too much fun here!!

"I'm gonna sing the doom song!!" "WEEEE-HEEEE!!!" "I'm naked!" "I made it myself!" "Then the squirrel flew away" "The squirrel and I are friends" "Only if you dance for me" "I love this show" "But I want to watch the scary monkey show" ~Gir (the awesomest robot that has EVER walked the universe... not just in cartoon world)

Terribly sorry, but I'm currently PISSED!! I'm not mad at any of you guys, of course, but I'm once again mad at the world in general. So basically this is for me to vent. SORRY if I offend anyone and even more sorry if you get pissed at the world too.


There's this thing called Mothers Against Hard Rock. I've heard of this before, and it didn't bother me, because it is literally IMPOSSIBLE to get rid of hard rock in the US. So why am I mad at this organization now? Because they put bands on their list to get rid of in the US. What bands are those?!?! The Used and freaking My Chemical Romance!!!!!!! These two bands aren't the hardest of all bands. Basically, they're emo/alternative (if you know what that means). WHY these two bands? Because they're POPULAR (and I hate that word)!!! Kittie is darker than them, Slipknot is "worse", Green Day is Anarchy.... I mean, COME ON!!! Might as well get rid of hip-hop, too. Songs FILLED with cussing, people BLASTING the music in their cars, and words like "there's a bullet in my hair" (an actual line I heard yesterday while watching a movie). Yes, I HATE hip-hop, but that doesn't mean they should get rid of ANY music whatsoever. If they DO manage to make things worse in the world of music, people will still keep on making their own music and whatnot. Hard rock will forever be in all of our hearts, and NOTHING can change it. Without "hard rock" in this country, everything would collapse... just get rid of Hot Topic, already! One thing after another would collapse. This whole WORLD rests on music, the government, and tourism.


These are my thoughts, sorry if you disagree. If you do agree, rock on \m/!!!! I think this mood change got my Used mood out of me... ok, I NEED NIN!!! *looks for video code*

Yesterday, I ended up not going to the funeral in Bremerton, WA. If I had, it would've been 3 hours there, and 3 hours back, IN the back of the crammed truck with me, my dad, my aunt Jeanie (actually, she's my dad's aunt, so my great aunt), and her daughter, Kate. My dad was planning on getting back home before 12 midnight, so that would've been... 16 hours gone. Yesterday morning, Matt SAVED me by wanting to go. 5 people in the truck = very UNcomfortable. So me and Matt "fought" who would go, and who would stay. Matt did a very good job "convincing" me to stay. I was VERY glad I didn't go, and Matt didn't regret going. It worked out well.


So yesterday, I went on to Deviantart.com, and there was this comic on the front page (cuz it was favorited by alot of people). The comic made me laugh so hard, and I looked at the artists other works. ALLLLLLLLL day (literally) I was laughing my ass off. I found a new favorite artist ^_^. Here's an icon they made: It's McMorbid, YAY!!! The style of the comics remind me of Tim Burton, and the content kinda reminds me, mainly with McMorbid, of Invader Zim (McMorbid is alot like Gir). My favorite characters are Maria McMorbid and Rip McScythe (RIP IS AWESOME)!! If you don't like Invader Zim, or you just don't like random cartoons, STAY AWAY!! I guess you want a link to them, don't you? Well..... FINE!! It's rimfrost.deviantart.com, there's some language, so yeah. BUT, I want to share some of my favorite comics (with links... sorry there's alot): Pure Evil (one of the first ones), Rip Comic - The Poker (first Rip comic), Rip Comic - Wannabe, Rip Comic - Suicide Letter (hilarious), Rip Comic - Mistake, McMorbid - Game Frustration (reminds me of me), Forkboy - The Powerful Fork, Rip Comic - Rubberfish, McMorbid - THE Shoelace, McMorbid - The Phantom Blot? (AHHHH!!), McMorbid - Hugging Kids. I just scratched the surface with those. I went from the oldest to the newest. ENJOY!!!!!!


I just watched the 6th episode of Salad Fingers..... it was AWESOME!!!! I know some of you have watched them, and even if you get nightmares from it, STILL watch the 6th episode. Trust me, it's freaky! Click here for it. MUAHAHAHA!!!!


I feel like making comics after looking at all of rimfrost's creations... man... I wish I could draw like her... *sigh*

I wrote this last night, or rather, this morning (around 2 am), but then AOL kicked me off. Me, having learned my lesson, wrote this on Internet Explorer, sooo, if I so happen to get kicked off, I won't lose everything I've written, and could still continue to write.



Sorry about the lack of posts.... There really hasn't been anything to talk about until NOW!! Yes, I know what time it is, and I don't care. Anyways, here I am on the internet, minding my own business, when I decide to make this quiz type thingy on bebo.com (I got invited to it by Colton), and there's this question (quiz is if you know ME) that says "Who would I most like to meet?" I put reasonal people down. Each of them I want to meet for different reasons. Since I only filled 4 spaces, and there's 5 (I won't put a 5th one on, though anymore), I was thinking of who I could put in.

Morgan Lander (Kittie)?... Nah....

Bert McCracken (The Used)?
That totally reminds me!! The other day my dad, mom, and me where going to Portland, and my dad accidently took the wrong turn *waves hand in front of his face*, so we where heading to the mall. We stopped there, because, as Cara knows, I was looking at backpacks at Hottopic.com, and I saw a The Used backpack, and then an Invader Zim Gir, and then a My Chemical Romance (didn't tell my mom about that one... didn't think she would "approve" of the picture >=P). I got The Used one, cause it had more pockets ^_^. I like pockets..... getting this backpack was probably the reason I had this odd dream....

Anyway, as I thought of Bert, I remembered that I had a dream about him last night (I DO get the occasional OMG IT'S A CELEBRITY dreams (I've had... Aragorn *yes, not Viggo.... that was LONG time ago*, Hermione, Gerard (Way), Amy (Lee), and now Bert). Let me get started on this dream... some of you might like it...

It started out as a dream I felt that I had before (I used to get this bike in BIG green place ALOT a few years back... this isn't the dream I'm talking about tho)... it was probably because of the atmosphere... I dunno. It was this BIG place.... I had this kind of assistant (I was a music lover, and possible scientist in this ???), and we were taking care of something. I had to keep feeding it (I don't remember what IT was) this sort of "forgetting" food... since it couldn't see me (I mean it SHOULDN'T see me)... and I was probably disapproving of my assistant's work and had to do it myself.

That was possibly a completely different dream... but if it wasn't the IT became Bert... or WAS Bert... I DUNO. But I DO remember that it was Bert a few years in the past. So basically, there was 2 of him living in the same world. I remember that my assistant (blonde... that explains it all in my dreams (sorry if anyone is offended...)) and I were in the back of a car (no clue if anyone was driving) with Bert between us. AHH yes!! I remember well now that I had my The Used backpack with me. My assistant pointed out my backpack and I said "I love Bert..." (in reality, I really don't, I just love the band's music) I trailed off, realizing that the guy I was talking about was between us.... We weren't supposed to talk about his future. Then I remember being at this... sort of condo/hotel type thing... but really old and stuff. There were just all the rooms/condos scattered around outside with ramps and such. I asked someone (don't remember who it was... something tells me Gerard, though... or possibly Quinn (another member of The Used)) by a doorway where Bert was (the "real" one (I did actually say "where's the real Bert?")). He pointed over to some bushes, and not a second later, Ben Stiller (aka the real Bert *I know* (I saw Envy the other day)) dressed like the guy in "Dodgeball" (the one he played... can't remember name) came jumping *yes, jumping* out of the bushes and went into one of the rooms. I went to go check on the "fake" Bert (I might have to say that it was actually the real Bert McCracken, but with sorter hair... I'll find and show a pic of him), who I knew was in another one of the rooms (like I said, there were many). He was laying on one of the two beds in one of the rooms (these condo places had rooms like bathroom and such...), looking over at the other bed across the room.... which was about 4 feet away from him (lol, just typing in "bert" on google gets alot of Bert from Sesame Street).

I remember just leaving him alone... not sure why (dude... this one guy seems to go to EVERY concert he can... and gets lots of photos too, geez). I went over to the condo thing that I saw the real "Bert" go in, and it was this hallway thingy. I was standing there, looking at the videos and books they had (the hallway led to wide stairs (like 2 feet before you take the next step type thing), then a nice big, yet still narrow room, where the movies were on the turny things, and books were on shelves), and I realized that my assistant was by me again. I had to look past her to see none other that Quinn Allman. I didn't really care, but my assistant was GAWKING over him. I felt like saying "What? You've never seen a celebrity before?", but of course, I didn't. He smiled and waved as he passed, and my assistant nearly passed out right then... I left her alone to find something more interesting (There's these girls that got backstage passes for Warped Tour, and they made a site for photos... they've been to more than one show, and they're using comments like "pimp" and "homies". All wearing too much make-up and over-accessorizing... what's this world coming to???)

Well, I spotted a kid (toddler) kissing a film cover with Scarlet (From Gone With The Wind... is that how you spell her name?) on it, and he was actually kissing the picture of the girl (this picture was of her and that Butler guy alsmot kissing...). Finding this rather humourous, I showed this to Mr. Rainey (I think), who also found it entertaining, and yelled it out to the whole room. People laughed.


Beyond this, I don't believe I remember anything. I've had better dreams than this, but I've also had worse.... like the infamous "volcanoes erupting in Hawaii one".... my family remembers that well, because I seemed to have, in my sleep, walked (but it sounds like I ran) to the kitchen and hugged my dad.... in my dream, I must've been running away from the lava at that time.

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And now for something completely different (haha, yes, I'm quoting from Monty Python, haha):

Did I ever mention another story I'm writing? I'm working on the title, because the recent one doesn't do me right. Well, this story is a rewrite and blah blah blah, so I'm pretty much copying off of my old work (it wasn't finished then, anyway... damn writer's block), with a new flair and fixing it to fit into the story.... Well, I recently decided to read it again, because I was trying to change my path a bit... the story was going too fast even for me. So I open the document, and realize that I remembered having at least 19 pages written.... it said 16. Sure enough, instead of the main character, Era, having a rose in her hand, crying.... the end of what is there is before she even got back home from school that day.... probably 5 pages gone. Yea, I did first write this re-write on paper first when I didn't have my laptop, but just typing it again, and putting in those thoughts I had made up as I first typed it up....

I absolutely HATE re-typing, re-thinking. I hate repeating myself over and over again.... That's why whenever I'm talking to my parents and they go "What? I couldn't hear you over my munching on chips, even though I knew you were talking" type thing, I just say, "Nevermind" feeling that they don't care at all what I'm saying, and they won't care if I say it again when they're not paying attention!! Okay, I'm getting a little bound up here... Better get off to bed.


TODAY:
I'm still looking for a decent picture of The Used that is in color. I have this cool b and w one, but yea...

Also, you guys may not know, but I have this thing for sad songs and such. Today I suddenly had this urge to listen to angry music... I don't think Matt likes having to listen to Slipknot, Chevelle, and Kittie... OH WELL!! *turns volume up* I heart my stereo.

I noticed a while ago that my scar is pretty much where Harry's scar is. And what's even BETTER, is that once in a while, it feels as though I get a needle poked at it. Earlier, it hurt, and I went "OW!" and held it against my head.... Voldemort's getting nearer!!! RUN FOR YOUR LIVES!! Yes, I had sugar and caffeine =P

You know what? I change my mind. The MCR layout was driving me INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I give up, and I'm going to the Linkin Park layout NOW. I'm saying this to warn you guys why the layout might look messy when you read this.... considering that it's after 12. Ah well, must get working then!

Like it? It's Gerard Way from My Chemical Romance, in case you didn't know that ^_^;;

I've been literally working my (pardon my French) ass off trying to find how to get links to open in a new window (I got that figured out). But most recently it's to get the comments to work. This layout first came with NO link to comments, so now, I'm using other layouts as reference (like the Linkin Park one that I ALMOST used (it kicks MAJOR butt), but it didn't QUITE appeal to me as much as this one *cheesy grin*. The Linkin Park one made me laugh SO much because at the end of the post, it didn't say "Posted by ____ at ____" it says "____ was blasting his/her music at ____"