ok, this scared the crap out of me... WITH the lights on.
The game's called Found Lost, and it is truly creepy.
Play this game ALONE in the dark, volume up, no other sounds bothering you. That includes NO chatting (Cara....)!!
Towards the end it gets hard. The key is found in a small place, so you have to click the EXACT spot to get it *wink wink*. Took me a while to figure it out.
Another game I played that's kinda creepy is called La Piece, I haven't been able to beat it... it's really confusing, and I think there's a time limit... you'll know what I mean.
NOW, if you REALLY want to be freaked out, play these games alone, in the dark, etc.... and then have someone WHENEVER they want, scrap their fingernails on the door. If that doesn't make you jump, I don't know what will.
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O P H E L I A C
by Emilie Autumn
I'm your Opheliac
I've been so disillusioned
I know you'd take me back
But still I feign confusion
I couldn't be your friend
My world was too unstable
You might have seen the end
But you were never able
To keep me breathing
As the water rises up again
Before I slip away
You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
It's the Opheliac in me
I'm your Opheliac
My stockings prove my virtue
I'm open to attack
But I don't want to hurt you
Whether I swim or sink
That's no concern of yours now
How could you possibly think
You had the power to know how
To keep me breathing
As the water rises up again
Before I slip away
You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
It's the Opheliac in me
Studies show:
Intelligent girls are more depressed
Because they know
What the world is really like
Don't think for a beat it makes it better
When you sit her down and tell her
Everything gonna be all right
She knows in society she either is
A devil or an angel with no in between
She speaks in the third person
So she can forget that she's me
Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt
Doubt thou the stars are fire
Doubt thou the sun doth move
Doubt truth to be a liar
But never doubt I love
You know the games I play
And the words I say
When I want my own way
You know the lies I tell
When you've gone through hell
And I say I can't stay
You know how hard it can be
To keep believing in me
When everything and everyone
Becomes my enemy and when
There's nothing more you can do
I'm gonna blame it on you
It's not the way I want to be
I only hope that in the end you will see
Y O U T U B E L O V E
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M U S I C
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P R O F I L E
me myself and i :D
Megan
9/14/90 (so I'm 20)
The Pacific Northwest! Yay rain!!
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Loves
Music, Chocolate, Internet, Invader Zim, Writing, Reading, Photography, Drawing, Dreaming, Computers, Pandas! <3, Galaxy (my laptop), My iPod, Rain, Snow, Wind, Blogging, Ice cream, The Moon, Full Moons, Stars, Glowsticks, Glow-in-the-dark-things, Stuffed animals, Recycling, Concerts, Hide-and-seek, Laughing, Choices, Doing random things, Doing nothing, My FRIENDS!
Hates
Jerks, Spiders, Heights, Needles, Shrinks that don't eat chocolate, HEADACHES! DX, Roadkill, Meat, PMSing, Drama, Spicy foods, Pink, The Sun
MUSIC
Evanescence |
My Chemical Romance |
Kill Hannah |
Sick Puppies |
Flyleaf |
30 Seconds To Mars |
From First to Last |
Chevelle |
10 Years |
Shiny Toy Guns |
The Used |
Enter Shikari |
Linkin Park |
Avenged Sevenfold |
Story of the Year |
Emilie Autumn |
Green Day |
Lacuna Coil |
Scarling. |
kidneythieves |
Secret & Whisper |
Paramore |
Birthday Massacre |
Resident Hero |
{And about a bajillion others. I'm lazy though. I'll get to it eventually.}
Wheee!
I N S P I R E
things that will change your life
[S O N G S.}
ONE. "Reduced to Teeth" - Finch
TWO: "Anything Can Happen In The Next Half Hour..." - Enter Shikari
THREE. "Hello" - Evanescence
FOUR: "All The Same" - Sick Puppies
FIVE. "The Kill" - 30 Seconds to Mars
SIX: "Demolition Lovers" - My Chemical Romance
SEVEN. "Mad World" - Gary Jules
EIGHT: "Slide" - The Dresden Dolls
NINE. "Let The Flames Begin" - Paramore
TEN: "Sunrise, Sunset" - Bright Eyes
ELEVEN. "Imagine" - (I prefer A Perfect Circle's cover)
TWELVE: "Cellar Door" - Escape The Fate
THIRTEEN. "Ender" - Finch
FOURTEEN: "Because" - The Beatles
FIFTEEN. "A Beautiful Lie" - 30 Seconds To Mars
SIXTEEN: "Strawberry Gashes" - Jack Off Jill
SEVENTEEN. "Sleep" - Story of the Year
EIGHTEEN: "Great White Whale" - Secret & Whisper
NINETEEN. "Goodnight" - The Birthday Massacre
TWENTY: "Hit The Floor" - Bullet For My Valentine
TWENTY-ONE. "Blow" - Atreyu
TWENTY-TWO. "Crystalised" - The xx
ONE. "Reduced to Teeth" - Finch
TWO: "Anything Can Happen In The Next Half Hour..." - Enter Shikari
THREE. "Hello" - Evanescence
FOUR: "All The Same" - Sick Puppies
FIVE. "The Kill" - 30 Seconds to Mars
SIX: "Demolition Lovers" - My Chemical Romance
SEVEN. "Mad World" - Gary Jules
EIGHT: "Slide" - The Dresden Dolls
NINE. "Let The Flames Begin" - Paramore
TEN: "Sunrise, Sunset" - Bright Eyes
ELEVEN. "Imagine" - (I prefer A Perfect Circle's cover)
TWELVE: "Cellar Door" - Escape The Fate
THIRTEEN. "Ender" - Finch
FOURTEEN: "Because" - The Beatles
FIFTEEN. "A Beautiful Lie" - 30 Seconds To Mars
SIXTEEN: "Strawberry Gashes" - Jack Off Jill
SEVENTEEN. "Sleep" - Story of the Year
EIGHTEEN: "Great White Whale" - Secret & Whisper
NINETEEN. "Goodnight" - The Birthday Massacre
TWENTY: "Hit The Floor" - Bullet For My Valentine
TWENTY-ONE. "Blow" - Atreyu
TWENTY-TWO. "Crystalised" - The xx
(Not in much of an order)
T O D O L I S T
this should be useful
Stop A Bullet
Surgery
Sunrise, Sunset
Autopsy Song~
Breath
Mastermind
The Undertaker's Thirst
T A G B O A R D
yakkity yak yak
Yes, I took it down.
I don't promote spamming.
O_O
8:56 PM - Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Possibly THE worst day of my life
1:31 PM - Sunday, June 26, 2005
Do you ever want to die to get rid of the pain? Did you ever want to die to end it all?
That's how I felt yesterday... not in the way you might think.
Friday night I was depressed. I wrote a poem that I most likely will post on Daydream. It was about Skyler (duh), and how I didn't want him to leave. I practically cried myself to sleep, knowing that nothing I'd do would change anything.
Woke up Saturday. After 7am, apparently after the earthquake, but I hadn't known that until later in the day. I laid in bed, not wanting to get up, but at the same time very uncomfortable in my position. I didn't feel good. At all. I felt I was going to throw up. I decided to get up and tell my parents that I was sick. I didn't make it. I had to run to the bathroom to throw up in the toilet. I'll just say that it tasted really REALLY extremly bad, and the taste alone made me want to throw up more. I still didn't feel good when I finished. Woke up my parents, they told me to eat and drink a lot of fluids. Went back to the living room, making another stop at the bathroom. I just sat in a chair, blanket wrapped around me, trying to calm myself. I threw up at least once every half hour it seemed, sometimes just 15 min. It didn't take long until the only thing I threw up was body fluids. Sometimes I was just spitting up. It soon became apparent to me that I couldn't fully lay down unless I wanted to get dizzy and throw up. I couldn't stand smells, they just made me throw up more. My parents diagnosed me with the stomach flu. Most of the day I just laid in my parents bed, the furthest away from the coffee, biscuit, and popcorn smell I could get. As the day went on and I only got 15 minutes of sleep at a time, I got slightly better. I could lay down better, and I became really good (in my mind) at throwing up... or at least with fluids. My dad bought me the pedialite or whatever stuff. Not the best tasting stuff, but as I said to my mom, "Doesn't taste too bad when it comes out". My mom mentioned that she and my dad had stomach flu at the same time once. It came out "both sides", in other words, they had nausea and dirreaha (sp?), and they thought that they both were gonna die (don't blame them). The day felt like the longest day of my life. In fact, it felt like three days in one. I actually feel asleep for three hours on my parent's bed (WOOHOOO!! Go me!!) when I was watching tv. Watched Pirates of the Carribean, while falling asleep during it now and then. At 6 o'clock, I was wondering how I had made it through 11 hours without dying. Towards the end of the day (around... 11 maybe?) I felt better. My apendix/intestine area was hurting like hell but I was pretty much no longer throwing up (I hated how during the day, if someone said "throw up" or anything like it, it made me throw up.... kinda like yawning *yawn*), and I had a huge headache, but I could FINALLY lay down without the need of throwing up.
Today I was woken up by my mom. Took my temp... it was 98.4, a little high for me (I had 99.0 yesterday). Told me to lay down longer and not rush my body or anything. I found it SO amazing when my stomach growled. I got up, went to "my chair" (it was officially claimed mine, instead of my dad's, when I had pink eye quite a while ago), and my dad asked me if I had changed the alignment of the planets, since when I walked in the living room, the tv my dad was watching got all statiky (don't blame me for my unique spelling) and stuff. He told me that since my stomach's muscles had a huge workout yesterday, they would be really sore. In fact, they are so sore, it feels like it going to fall out of me from the weight it has... there seems to be only one position where they feel almost unnoticable. I still have a really bad headcache, but I'm to scared to take anything (Coke is MURDER on my stomach).
I think I'm gonna pass out from the pain all over my body, so I'll end here and go lay down somewhere comfy. I bloody hope I never get the stomach flu again.....
That's how I felt yesterday... not in the way you might think.
Friday night I was depressed. I wrote a poem that I most likely will post on Daydream. It was about Skyler (duh), and how I didn't want him to leave. I practically cried myself to sleep, knowing that nothing I'd do would change anything.
Woke up Saturday. After 7am, apparently after the earthquake, but I hadn't known that until later in the day. I laid in bed, not wanting to get up, but at the same time very uncomfortable in my position. I didn't feel good. At all. I felt I was going to throw up. I decided to get up and tell my parents that I was sick. I didn't make it. I had to run to the bathroom to throw up in the toilet. I'll just say that it tasted really REALLY extremly bad, and the taste alone made me want to throw up more. I still didn't feel good when I finished. Woke up my parents, they told me to eat and drink a lot of fluids. Went back to the living room, making another stop at the bathroom. I just sat in a chair, blanket wrapped around me, trying to calm myself. I threw up at least once every half hour it seemed, sometimes just 15 min. It didn't take long until the only thing I threw up was body fluids. Sometimes I was just spitting up. It soon became apparent to me that I couldn't fully lay down unless I wanted to get dizzy and throw up. I couldn't stand smells, they just made me throw up more. My parents diagnosed me with the stomach flu. Most of the day I just laid in my parents bed, the furthest away from the coffee, biscuit, and popcorn smell I could get. As the day went on and I only got 15 minutes of sleep at a time, I got slightly better. I could lay down better, and I became really good (in my mind) at throwing up... or at least with fluids. My dad bought me the pedialite or whatever stuff. Not the best tasting stuff, but as I said to my mom, "Doesn't taste too bad when it comes out". My mom mentioned that she and my dad had stomach flu at the same time once. It came out "both sides", in other words, they had nausea and dirreaha (sp?), and they thought that they both were gonna die (don't blame them). The day felt like the longest day of my life. In fact, it felt like three days in one. I actually feel asleep for three hours on my parent's bed (WOOHOOO!! Go me!!) when I was watching tv. Watched Pirates of the Carribean, while falling asleep during it now and then. At 6 o'clock, I was wondering how I had made it through 11 hours without dying. Towards the end of the day (around... 11 maybe?) I felt better. My apendix/intestine area was hurting like hell but I was pretty much no longer throwing up (I hated how during the day, if someone said "throw up" or anything like it, it made me throw up.... kinda like yawning *yawn*), and I had a huge headache, but I could FINALLY lay down without the need of throwing up.
Today I was woken up by my mom. Took my temp... it was 98.4, a little high for me (I had 99.0 yesterday). Told me to lay down longer and not rush my body or anything. I found it SO amazing when my stomach growled. I got up, went to "my chair" (it was officially claimed mine, instead of my dad's, when I had pink eye quite a while ago), and my dad asked me if I had changed the alignment of the planets, since when I walked in the living room, the tv my dad was watching got all statiky (don't blame me for my unique spelling) and stuff. He told me that since my stomach's muscles had a huge workout yesterday, they would be really sore. In fact, they are so sore, it feels like it going to fall out of me from the weight it has... there seems to be only one position where they feel almost unnoticable. I still have a really bad headcache, but I'm to scared to take anything (Coke is MURDER on my stomach).
I think I'm gonna pass out from the pain all over my body, so I'll end here and go lay down somewhere comfy. I bloody hope I never get the stomach flu again.....
.:Let it all be a bad, twisted dream:.
8:36 PM - Friday, June 24, 2005
*bangs head* I... can't... beileve... this...!!! I know you guys must not care about this sort of thing... but... I'll get to that later. It's a long story... so I guess I should get going.
It all started out with me listening to a song called "This Town" by Korn featuring Kittie... can't really put up the lyrics unless you want to see a ton of cuss words ^_^. Then I started going "... wait... this doesn't quite sound like Morgan Lander's voice... sounds more like Jack Off Jill" Jack Off Jill's leader singer, Jessicka, has a "innocent girl" type voice, and Morgan has the type of voice that you hear everyday, basically.... So then I went on Google, typed in: town korn featuring... cuz I couldn't remember if it was "Our Town" or "This Town", and I believe on the first page, I got alot of it saying it featured Kittie, but I saw one that said it featured Jack Off Jill (like I said FIRST or second page). So then I gave up, went to yahoo, and watched Jack Off Jill's "My Cat" video, considering that I've only listened to them on June 7, Skyler's birthday, so I had somewhat forgotten how it sounded right. I came to the conclusion that it was indeed, Korn and Kittie. (haha, there's a band called Jack Killed Jill....... Jack Off Jill... considence??)
So while I was there, I decided to check out Mindless Self Indulgence's videos (Skyler's favorite band.... Brittni, shut up). So I went to the 'M' page, and they have those featured videos at the top. I skimed over the names, and had to do a double-take. Ben Moody?!? Ok, PLEASE let it NOT be the one I'm thinking of.... Ben Moody, former member of Evanescence, Co-founder of Evanescence. The video was called "Everything Burns feat. Anastaica" I checked out the artist's profile, and I covered up the picture as it loaded, HOPING it wasn't the "true" Ben. It fully loaded, I closed one eye as I took my hand off the screen. "Shit!" I said that quietly to myself, thank you. It didn't look like what I see in pictures of Evanescence in the early days. But somehow I could tell it was him. He was wearing a hat, not much of his face showed, but the beard/goatee gave it away to me. I banged my head against the computer desk many times, hoping this was all a weird dream, but it just hurt really bad.
So I watched the video... The song was sort of... Country with a touch of Pop/Rock... definatley NOT my kind of music. I stopped watching it and Googled Ben Moody. The first page gave me all the information I needed. Ben has his own website now. And at the top it CLEARLY says in the Latest News (this is copied and pasted): Ben Moody has returned. The founding member of Evanescence is back with "Everything Burns," featuring Anastacia, available exclusively on FANTASTIC FOUR: THE ALBUM (in stores 7/5/05).
Ok so WHY am I making such a big deal about this? Let's just first say that I REALLY don't like it when someone ditches a perfectly good band (take No Doubt for example... though I never really caught on to them) and becomes a solo artist. Not only that, but he was Co-founder of one of my favorite bands!! Perfectly good guitarist, helped write songs... SO WHY DID HE GO SOLO?!?!? Why did he NEED to go solo? Why did he ditch the band for no apparent reason (Chris from Good Charlotte is TOTALLY different... it was all the stupid drug's fault), putting down his fans... which includes me. Ugh... now I'm making myself all depressed before the horrid day that is tomorrow (a few of you know why that's such a big day for me... NOT in a good way, the big BAD days that change your life). Once again, I shall drown myself with music. So 'night all you people that haven't left me for [the fudge that is] D.C. ^_^
It all started out with me listening to a song called "This Town" by Korn featuring Kittie... can't really put up the lyrics unless you want to see a ton of cuss words ^_^. Then I started going "... wait... this doesn't quite sound like Morgan Lander's voice... sounds more like Jack Off Jill" Jack Off Jill's leader singer, Jessicka, has a "innocent girl" type voice, and Morgan has the type of voice that you hear everyday, basically.... So then I went on Google, typed in: town korn featuring... cuz I couldn't remember if it was "Our Town" or "This Town", and I believe on the first page, I got alot of it saying it featured Kittie, but I saw one that said it featured Jack Off Jill (like I said FIRST or second page). So then I gave up, went to yahoo, and watched Jack Off Jill's "My Cat" video, considering that I've only listened to them on June 7, Skyler's birthday, so I had somewhat forgotten how it sounded right. I came to the conclusion that it was indeed, Korn and Kittie. (haha, there's a band called Jack Killed Jill....... Jack Off Jill... considence??)
So while I was there, I decided to check out Mindless Self Indulgence's videos (Skyler's favorite band.... Brittni, shut up). So I went to the 'M' page, and they have those featured videos at the top. I skimed over the names, and had to do a double-take. Ben Moody?!? Ok, PLEASE let it NOT be the one I'm thinking of.... Ben Moody, former member of Evanescence, Co-founder of Evanescence. The video was called "Everything Burns feat. Anastaica" I checked out the artist's profile, and I covered up the picture as it loaded, HOPING it wasn't the "true" Ben. It fully loaded, I closed one eye as I took my hand off the screen. "Shit!" I said that quietly to myself, thank you. It didn't look like what I see in pictures of Evanescence in the early days. But somehow I could tell it was him. He was wearing a hat, not much of his face showed, but the beard/goatee gave it away to me. I banged my head against the computer desk many times, hoping this was all a weird dream, but it just hurt really bad.
So I watched the video... The song was sort of... Country with a touch of Pop/Rock... definatley NOT my kind of music. I stopped watching it and Googled Ben Moody. The first page gave me all the information I needed. Ben has his own website now. And at the top it CLEARLY says in the Latest News (this is copied and pasted): Ben Moody has returned. The founding member of Evanescence is back with "Everything Burns," featuring Anastacia, available exclusively on FANTASTIC FOUR: THE ALBUM (in stores 7/5/05).
Ok so WHY am I making such a big deal about this? Let's just first say that I REALLY don't like it when someone ditches a perfectly good band (take No Doubt for example... though I never really caught on to them) and becomes a solo artist. Not only that, but he was Co-founder of one of my favorite bands!! Perfectly good guitarist, helped write songs... SO WHY DID HE GO SOLO?!?!? Why did he NEED to go solo? Why did he ditch the band for no apparent reason (Chris from Good Charlotte is TOTALLY different... it was all the stupid drug's fault), putting down his fans... which includes me. Ugh... now I'm making myself all depressed before the horrid day that is tomorrow (a few of you know why that's such a big day for me... NOT in a good way, the big BAD days that change your life). Once again, I shall drown myself with music. So 'night all you people that haven't left me for [the fudge that is] D.C. ^_^
8:25 PM - Thursday, June 23, 2005
Even though I don't live in Portland (I'm only a half hour drive away from it), this is STILL funny and true
You Know You're From Portland, OR When... |
Two-thirds of the people you know are from California, yet there is no sun. You can list five reasons why Starbucks is evil. You blame everything that's not right on ex-Californians. You remember the date, severity, time of day, where you were, and how long you were out of power for every winter weather event for the last five years. You know what and when the Columbus Day storm was. Bonus for having been there. You go to a coffee bar and see two guys get into a fight over who makes the best India Pale Ale. You own more than 10 articles of clothing that have microbreweries/brewpubs printed on them. Bonus for embroidered stuff. You can go a whole week without seeing the sun or a person of color.. You have a bookstore, coffee bar, and brewpub all within walking distance of your house. You think downtown is scary 'cause you were panhandled there ... once. When you drive out of town, every other guy in a pickup looks like the governor. When you drive out of town, even the Hondas have gun racks. When the weather gets above 50 degrees you put on your shorts, but you still wear hiking boots and your parka. When the weather gets above 60 you replace your hiking boots with sandals. You think people who use umbrellas are wimps. You can recount more than five anecdotes about why the East Side is a crime-infested jungle ... OR ... You can list more than five reasons why the West Side is a boring, snobby, white-bread suburb. You know what it is in between the East Side and the West Side, and how to pronounce it. You are sitting at a red light surrounded by Subaru Legacy Outbacks. A tree or mudslide has ever damaged your house or car. You live equidistant to a symphony hall, a winery, and a volcano. You actually get these jokes and pass them on to other friends from Portland, OR. |
Block me already!
12:51 AM - Wednesday, June 22, 2005
ok... this is just the most hilarious thingy since... Visha's little thing with Whitney. Anyway, I'm online and Kaitlyn talks to me again, claiming that they are Shelby. She was talking about lesbian thingys... that she was bored, hang on, "omg im soo bored kaitlyn and whitney r taking a shower together and they wouldnt let me in.......AND THERE NAKED" that was copied and pasted... ok, really. I would know that they are naked just by being in the shower, so why did she say that?? Blondes... (no offense, Visha or any other friend of mine)
She was acting all weird... like all.... uh, how should I say, horny? I asked what she was on and stuff... she was being really dumb and kept saying I was rude... Oh well, at least I'm telling the truth. She made comments about my mole -_-;;; then she said that she was sorry, and it was my turn to make fun of her. I decided not to... nice I can't think of things on the spot, it needs to reply to something. Then Shelby said that yea, Kaitlyn and Whitney are kinda dumb, so I said "like u?" she replied "im sry, i was being nice to you" then i said that she had said it was my turn to make fun of her, "oh yea".
She asked why I didn't like her, and told her she could answer it herself.... so I got this: "I HAVE BEEN SO NICE TO U ALL U DO IS BEE RUDE NO WONDERING U DONTHAVE ANY FRIENDS" (she used captitals during most of the chat... that bothered me). Then she called me a female dog which was followed by "HAHAHAHAHA" I told her I didn't care what she thought of me (that's true), then she said that I better. Then she wanted to know if "my russian friend" was on. Once again, SHE IS NOT RUSSIAN!! Ugh... bugs the hell out of me. Then she got all weird again, making more comments about my mole.
Then we did this rhyme thingy...
me: so vain, its gonna eat out ur brain
shelby *after having to look up vain, not kidding*: WOW YOUR A POET AND DIDDNT KNO IT HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
me: haha... that was so lame, its gonna make the wall of shame
*......... blah blah... it got weird after that. *
*She made some gross comment thingy, so I said she was sick.*
Shelby: ur the one who said it u freak
Shelby: that is a geek
me: oh, im a freak
me: geeks r cool
shelby: only band geeks
me: ur calling mr rainey uncool
*BLAH BLAH*
Shelby: WHAT R U TALKING ABOUT U MAKE THING UP ALL THE TIME GO FUCK A DIME
*WAIT!! I'm the one making things up? I might have a made a few, but she did way more than me.*
me: u just put urself on the hated list
*Before I didn't think she was too bad. Now, she's as rotten as the others.*
me: congrats
Shelby: HOW WOULD U KNO
Shelby: WUT ALL OF A SUDDEN YOUR WAY COOL
me: i thought u were trying 2 b nice 2 me?
me: i feel so hurt
Shelby: PUKE
me: wow, i will
*BLAH BLAH... I said something bad... I had to do payback, sorry.*
Shelby: YOUR SICK Y DONT YOU NOT WORSHIP THE DEVIL AND GO TO CHURCH SO YOU CAN GO TO HEVEN IOK
me: whats w/ u guys and god?
me: i mean, really
Shelby: OK I REALLY DONT WANT TO TALK TO U IM BLOCKING U
Shelby: RIGHT NOW BYE
me: byes
Shelby: STOP STOCKING ME U PURVE
*and she adds herself to the bad spellers list* *ok... I'M the perv?? Who was doing the sick lesbian stuff?! I honestly thought she was on some kind of weird drug* *oh, and she started talking to me in the first place, wanting conversation... and how can I "stalk" her on IM? It was the first time I ever talked to her online....*
me: FREEEDOM
*I can't find how to block someone on aol... -_-;;*
Shelby: YES
me: block me already
shelby: I DID
*laughs head off*
shelby: HJSEG
*I think she's a little frustrated*
Yea, I thought Shelby was annoying and rude at times, but after this conversation... she turned herself upside down. I act the same to alot of people, some get mad at me, while some just laugh and such. And I think she couldn't block me cuz I'm on AOL... I duno, that might not be the case. Ok, so Shelby is the little lez perv that could, Whitney is the "I'm smarter than you, and we both know that", and Kaitlyn is the "HAHA, I don't get it" blonde that could stupidify the world even more. And so, with that, I'm going to go to bed before I fall asleep on the 'm' key and make 30 pages of mmmmmmmmmm's (little inside joke)
She was acting all weird... like all.... uh, how should I say, horny? I asked what she was on and stuff... she was being really dumb and kept saying I was rude... Oh well, at least I'm telling the truth. She made comments about my mole -_-;;; then she said that she was sorry, and it was my turn to make fun of her. I decided not to... nice I can't think of things on the spot, it needs to reply to something. Then Shelby said that yea, Kaitlyn and Whitney are kinda dumb, so I said "like u?" she replied "im sry, i was being nice to you" then i said that she had said it was my turn to make fun of her, "oh yea".
She asked why I didn't like her, and told her she could answer it herself.... so I got this: "I HAVE BEEN SO NICE TO U ALL U DO IS BEE RUDE NO WONDERING U DONTHAVE ANY FRIENDS" (she used captitals during most of the chat... that bothered me). Then she called me a female dog which was followed by "HAHAHAHAHA" I told her I didn't care what she thought of me (that's true), then she said that I better. Then she wanted to know if "my russian friend" was on. Once again, SHE IS NOT RUSSIAN!! Ugh... bugs the hell out of me. Then she got all weird again, making more comments about my mole.
Then we did this rhyme thingy...
me: so vain, its gonna eat out ur brain
shelby *after having to look up vain, not kidding*: WOW YOUR A POET AND DIDDNT KNO IT HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
me: haha... that was so lame, its gonna make the wall of shame
*......... blah blah... it got weird after that. *
*She made some gross comment thingy, so I said she was sick.*
Shelby: ur the one who said it u freak
Shelby: that is a geek
me: oh, im a freak
me: geeks r cool
shelby: only band geeks
me: ur calling mr rainey uncool
*BLAH BLAH*
Shelby: WHAT R U TALKING ABOUT U MAKE THING UP ALL THE TIME GO FUCK A DIME
*WAIT!! I'm the one making things up? I might have a made a few, but she did way more than me.*
me: u just put urself on the hated list
*Before I didn't think she was too bad. Now, she's as rotten as the others.*
me: congrats
Shelby: HOW WOULD U KNO
Shelby: WUT ALL OF A SUDDEN YOUR WAY COOL
me: i thought u were trying 2 b nice 2 me?
me: i feel so hurt
Shelby: PUKE
me: wow, i will
*BLAH BLAH... I said something bad... I had to do payback, sorry.*
Shelby: YOUR SICK Y DONT YOU NOT WORSHIP THE DEVIL AND GO TO CHURCH SO YOU CAN GO TO HEVEN IOK
me: whats w/ u guys and god?
me: i mean, really
Shelby: OK I REALLY DONT WANT TO TALK TO U IM BLOCKING U
Shelby: RIGHT NOW BYE
me: byes
Shelby: STOP STOCKING ME U PURVE
*and she adds herself to the bad spellers list* *ok... I'M the perv?? Who was doing the sick lesbian stuff?! I honestly thought she was on some kind of weird drug* *oh, and she started talking to me in the first place, wanting conversation... and how can I "stalk" her on IM? It was the first time I ever talked to her online....*
me: FREEEDOM
*I can't find how to block someone on aol... -_-;;*
Shelby: YES
me: block me already
shelby: I DID
*laughs head off*
shelby: HJSEG
*I think she's a little frustrated*
Yea, I thought Shelby was annoying and rude at times, but after this conversation... she turned herself upside down. I act the same to alot of people, some get mad at me, while some just laugh and such. And I think she couldn't block me cuz I'm on AOL... I duno, that might not be the case. Ok, so Shelby is the little lez perv that could, Whitney is the "I'm smarter than you, and we both know that", and Kaitlyn is the "HAHA, I don't get it" blonde that could stupidify the world even more. And so, with that, I'm going to go to bed before I fall asleep on the 'm' key and make 30 pages of mmmmmmmmmm's (little inside joke)
Urge to destroy world rising...
9:59 PM - Tuesday, June 21, 2005
*twitch* Wow... 2 urges to destroy the world in one day *twitch*... new record. Why? Because once again from those... people.
My first encounter was earlier today. Kaitlyn started talking to me, wanting me to call her friend Haley, so she could find out what this song was called, since Kaitlyn can't be on the internet and the phone at the same time. Well, I hate phones, and I also wanted Kaitlyn to beg. She came pretty close, then it was just annoying, so I googled the lyric for her and got 1 hit on my FIRST TRY!!! It was the right one, too. It really is a talent to have good googling skills, because Kaitlyn tried, but she couldn't get it. Then after that, she wanted more help from me... something I wasn't into. In fact, I never even tried it, so I gave her Kevin's email to ask him *evil grin*. Then she started going on about... things. I was already nice to her enough in one day, and so I was taking advantage of her being nicer. But the info I got made me seriously want to kill someone.... or rather, destroy the world. At least I'm not utterly clueless, but now I'm even more insecure, because I found out that someone (I don't know who) betrayed me. I told Kaitlyn how I felt about it, and all she could say was "sorry"...
Yesterday, my English friend, Visha, talked to Whitney. I told her about the time at school when we were "watching" The Princess Bride. So Visha asked me for Whitney's screenname, and started cussing her out (that was exaggerated). She showed me what she told Whitney and what Whitney said back, and I was laughing sooo hard, my eyes started watering. Let's just say, Whitney didn't like it. So after Visha had to go, Whitney talked to me about what she thought of Visha. She thought Visha was a freak. Oh well, I'm even surprised by how many people I call freaks. Whitney didn't like the way I was acting, and I said that this was me being nice (little over exaggerated), and Whitney learned a new word.
So, just a while ago, BOTH Kaitlyn and Whitney were on, and Visha was on, too, but I wasn't talking to her. So Kaitlyn IM's me, wondering if Visha really wanted to beat up Whitney (hey, I can't control what my friends say). Then another all out fight comes out, Visha willingly decided to yell at the two, and they were speechless. They didn't talk to me or anything. Kaitlyn talked back to me first, saying that Visha was a freak, and she was fat. I made a comment that those were combacks NO ONE would ever think of using. The super sarcastic me surfaced again. Whitney was being the total dweeb that she is again "Oh, I'm right, and you're wrong" "I guess I know your friend better than you do" "She was lying to you"..... just... UGH... SHUT UP!!!!!!! Where's my angry music when I need it??? *Yay! Good depressing song...* I was doing soooooooo great before Kaitlyn started talking to me about Visha..... then she had to just RUIN me when I was in a really relaxed mode. It'll take so long before I'll get back to it again.... *ohh... angry song... sounds kinda like Metallica, but wrong lead voice....* Oh, and I told Whitney and Kaitlyn that they just LOVE being on the top, putting other people down so they can feel better. Kaitlyn told me to just keep telling myself that, and Whitney had NO clue what I was talking about. Seriously, no clue.
Oh, I've got some new personal quotes. Yesterday, I offically claimed "If you try to be smarter, I'll try to be nicer" as my personal quote; got that off my blinkie... I think I put it on this blog. Then another great one I got today, "Urge to destroy world rising" is off of this HILARIOUS comic, the 8-bit Theatre, which can be found at nuklearpower.com, from Episode 15, said by the AWESOME Black Mage. The comic has the original Final Fantasy characters in the Final Fantasy world, and uses the Fighters stupidity and likeness of swords, and Black Mage's high intelligence and urge to destroy things... and it's just hilarious. It's a good way to waste time and laugh ^_^ that I like to do.
My first encounter was earlier today. Kaitlyn started talking to me, wanting me to call her friend Haley, so she could find out what this song was called, since Kaitlyn can't be on the internet and the phone at the same time. Well, I hate phones, and I also wanted Kaitlyn to beg. She came pretty close, then it was just annoying, so I googled the lyric for her and got 1 hit on my FIRST TRY!!! It was the right one, too. It really is a talent to have good googling skills, because Kaitlyn tried, but she couldn't get it. Then after that, she wanted more help from me... something I wasn't into. In fact, I never even tried it, so I gave her Kevin's email to ask him *evil grin*. Then she started going on about... things. I was already nice to her enough in one day, and so I was taking advantage of her being nicer. But the info I got made me seriously want to kill someone.... or rather, destroy the world. At least I'm not utterly clueless, but now I'm even more insecure, because I found out that someone (I don't know who) betrayed me. I told Kaitlyn how I felt about it, and all she could say was "sorry"...
Yesterday, my English friend, Visha, talked to Whitney. I told her about the time at school when we were "watching" The Princess Bride. So Visha asked me for Whitney's screenname, and started cussing her out (that was exaggerated). She showed me what she told Whitney and what Whitney said back, and I was laughing sooo hard, my eyes started watering. Let's just say, Whitney didn't like it. So after Visha had to go, Whitney talked to me about what she thought of Visha. She thought Visha was a freak. Oh well, I'm even surprised by how many people I call freaks. Whitney didn't like the way I was acting, and I said that this was me being nice (little over exaggerated), and Whitney learned a new word.
So, just a while ago, BOTH Kaitlyn and Whitney were on, and Visha was on, too, but I wasn't talking to her. So Kaitlyn IM's me, wondering if Visha really wanted to beat up Whitney (hey, I can't control what my friends say). Then another all out fight comes out, Visha willingly decided to yell at the two, and they were speechless. They didn't talk to me or anything. Kaitlyn talked back to me first, saying that Visha was a freak, and she was fat. I made a comment that those were combacks NO ONE would ever think of using. The super sarcastic me surfaced again. Whitney was being the total dweeb that she is again "Oh, I'm right, and you're wrong" "I guess I know your friend better than you do" "She was lying to you"..... just... UGH... SHUT UP!!!!!!! Where's my angry music when I need it??? *Yay! Good depressing song...* I was doing soooooooo great before Kaitlyn started talking to me about Visha..... then she had to just RUIN me when I was in a really relaxed mode. It'll take so long before I'll get back to it again.... *ohh... angry song... sounds kinda like Metallica, but wrong lead voice....* Oh, and I told Whitney and Kaitlyn that they just LOVE being on the top, putting other people down so they can feel better. Kaitlyn told me to just keep telling myself that, and Whitney had NO clue what I was talking about. Seriously, no clue.
Oh, I've got some new personal quotes. Yesterday, I offically claimed "If you try to be smarter, I'll try to be nicer" as my personal quote; got that off my blinkie... I think I put it on this blog. Then another great one I got today, "Urge to destroy world rising" is off of this HILARIOUS comic, the 8-bit Theatre, which can be found at nuklearpower.com, from Episode 15, said by the AWESOME Black Mage. The comic has the original Final Fantasy characters in the Final Fantasy world, and uses the Fighters stupidity and likeness of swords, and Black Mage's high intelligence and urge to destroy things... and it's just hilarious. It's a good way to waste time and laugh ^_^ that I like to do.
Ohio Is For Lovers
12:48 AM
Lyrics over there >>>> check out a few new blinkies while you're at it (I went on a blinkie rampage again).
Ok, so this song is by another new band called Hawthorne Heights (I think cuz one of their last name's is Hawthorne.... just a theory). And they are already big... wait... how many cd's do they have out *checks* ok, *whew*, they are a fresh new band, and from Ohio (obviously). Just shows how much I know about new bands... so anyway... they are big for some... reason. Why? No clue. I mean, My Chemical Romance wasn't even this big at their first cd. So as you can imagine, this song has been EVERYWHERE... at least on Fuse (music channel... NO reality shows (YES), FUSE ROX!!!!! k, I'm better). So I've gotten this song stuck in my head. It's not the best song. It doesn't have the best lyrics. I can think of so many more songs that have better lyrics with the screaming vocals once in a while. For example: My Chemical Romance, Kittie, Linkin Park, and Slipknot. I still haven't HEARD Underoath, but I'm liking the lyrics. Jack Off Jill is good, too (... once again... the same goes for Kitte... girl bands introduced to me by Skyler. I still think Kittie is better, more hardcore).
So once again... I'm not sure why Hawthorne Heights is so big. Yea, they have some ok guitar skills (I think all guitarists are real good since I've started playing... *practices Em, G, A, Em, G, A...* DANG!! But I am doing pretty good considering my first offical day of learning the guitar (learned one chord!!) was on Sunday. Before, I just... did random stuff... it was bad. At least now I sound half decent while playing 3 chords in a row), but that's probably since I was watching the lead guitar while they played live on Fuse today (damn he's got fast fingers). They probably made friends with big artists like... Fall Out Boy, The Starting Line, or Yellowcard (they were all on the same show... same concert). I haven't looked at the lyrics to their other songs... I guess I should get on that... tomorrow.
Another thing... as I was watching the show I saw a guy that a had a shirt which said: "Ohio is for lovers" and it had a plain picture of Ohio. Then less than a minute later, another guy had a shirt on that said: "Fall Out Boy is for lovers", I started laughing soooo hard.
Also I'm up so late cause I couldn't sleep last night and then fell asleep whenever (no clock in room... ugh), waking up after 12 pm because the phone woke me up... I hate phones for just that reason. Also, I had caffeine in attempt to get rid of my headache. Then of course, it was my brother's birthday and I overloaded on the already sugar overloaded cake (mainly the frosting... the PLAIN frosting... why? Because my brother requested NO CHOCOLATE!!! *gasp* he claims he's been eating too many M&M's, so a chocolate cake wouldn't seem like such a treat. Then raspberry jam in the middle *yuck*... my mom couldn't fine preserves (sp?). I had to sprinkle cocoa powder on my slice of the cake. It actually took me.... almost an hour to finish my slice because I had 2 slices of cheese pizza, the ones you find at Safeway (I didn't have lunch... or breakfast... or whatever), I helped frost the cake, so I licked the spoons and such. Today, we ate about a quarter of the cake, and I said to my mom as she put it away, "It's going to take us over a week to finish that". My mom agreed.
Ok, so this song is by another new band called Hawthorne Heights (I think cuz one of their last name's is Hawthorne.... just a theory). And they are already big... wait... how many cd's do they have out *checks* ok, *whew*, they are a fresh new band, and from Ohio (obviously). Just shows how much I know about new bands... so anyway... they are big for some... reason. Why? No clue. I mean, My Chemical Romance wasn't even this big at their first cd. So as you can imagine, this song has been EVERYWHERE... at least on Fuse (music channel... NO reality shows (YES), FUSE ROX!!!!! k, I'm better). So I've gotten this song stuck in my head. It's not the best song. It doesn't have the best lyrics. I can think of so many more songs that have better lyrics with the screaming vocals once in a while. For example: My Chemical Romance, Kittie, Linkin Park, and Slipknot. I still haven't HEARD Underoath, but I'm liking the lyrics. Jack Off Jill is good, too (... once again... the same goes for Kitte... girl bands introduced to me by Skyler. I still think Kittie is better, more hardcore).
So once again... I'm not sure why Hawthorne Heights is so big. Yea, they have some ok guitar skills (I think all guitarists are real good since I've started playing... *practices Em, G, A, Em, G, A...* DANG!! But I am doing pretty good considering my first offical day of learning the guitar (learned one chord!!) was on Sunday. Before, I just... did random stuff... it was bad. At least now I sound half decent while playing 3 chords in a row), but that's probably since I was watching the lead guitar while they played live on Fuse today (damn he's got fast fingers). They probably made friends with big artists like... Fall Out Boy, The Starting Line, or Yellowcard (they were all on the same show... same concert). I haven't looked at the lyrics to their other songs... I guess I should get on that... tomorrow.
Another thing... as I was watching the show I saw a guy that a had a shirt which said: "Ohio is for lovers" and it had a plain picture of Ohio. Then less than a minute later, another guy had a shirt on that said: "Fall Out Boy is for lovers", I started laughing soooo hard.
Also I'm up so late cause I couldn't sleep last night and then fell asleep whenever (no clock in room... ugh), waking up after 12 pm because the phone woke me up... I hate phones for just that reason. Also, I had caffeine in attempt to get rid of my headache. Then of course, it was my brother's birthday and I overloaded on the already sugar overloaded cake (mainly the frosting... the PLAIN frosting... why? Because my brother requested NO CHOCOLATE!!! *gasp* he claims he's been eating too many M&M's, so a chocolate cake wouldn't seem like such a treat. Then raspberry jam in the middle *yuck*... my mom couldn't fine preserves (sp?). I had to sprinkle cocoa powder on my slice of the cake. It actually took me.... almost an hour to finish my slice because I had 2 slices of cheese pizza, the ones you find at Safeway (I didn't have lunch... or breakfast... or whatever), I helped frost the cake, so I licked the spoons and such. Today, we ate about a quarter of the cake, and I said to my mom as she put it away, "It's going to take us over a week to finish that". My mom agreed.
Summer vacation!
7:01 PM - Monday, June 20, 2005
School is finally out and I just feel... free. Worries and stress have been lifted off my shoulders. The sun feels friendlier and the air smells fresher. I just feel so alive again. I'm able to put my major worries in the back of my head and sleep all I want (YAY). It was a great school year; probably the best yet. Yea, there were some drawbacks, but all of my school years has had some. I thank all my teachers this year and I will truly miss them. Although this sounds weird... but I'll miss the school. Yeah, it's a piece of junk, but i've been there for three years. I will miss the outdoor hallways. That was the best.
Well, for the summer vacation I will: 1) learn more about my new friend, Visha. 2) learn the guitar (I've been wanting to for SO long. My brother has a guitar, but he hasn't used it since class (probably about a year or less ago)). 3) TRY to finish "There's Nothing Left To Do". I have the story planned out, I just need to write it. 4) CLEAN MY ROOM!!!! ^_^;; 5) get myself noticed on Quizilla 6) Read "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince" in less than TWO DAYS!! (hey, I did it with the "Order of the Phoenix")
That's all I will attempt. I could go on... but really all that's up ^there^ is enough for now... in fact, it's probably still I little much. But I HAVE to do #4 and #6. Another thing... for #6... I'll have no other choice cause my surgery is really gonna kick out a lot of things I'd want to do (like I'm not going out in public!). And yes, people, because of the surgery, I'm gonna have my hair down ALOT more than usual. OH, and for those people who are thinking: "Surgery? What surgery?!?" I'm going to get the birthmark off (FINALLY!!). I hate it above most things... that includes Kaitlyn and Whitney. Those two still like to make an ocassional quote about it... *rolls eyes*
Today is my brother's (Matt's) b-day, and for those of you who don't know he's 22 yrs. old now!! I just think it's insane. Not because he's getting so old.... BUT he's getting so old without moving out... no girlfriend... no boyfriend, for that matter... NOTHING!!
Ok, as I wrote this post, I became one step further in Quizilla (aka, I sent WickedWench a message and she replied!). You guys might be like "Whoopdedoo...", but I even freaked out when I saw my quizzes on the Recently Added list. I think that was incredibly pathetic now, and this little thing is going to be pathetic when (or if) I make it to the Highest Rated list. Oh, and WickedWench often tells everyone that if someone messages her, and she doesn't reply, it's because she gets the same message over and over, or if there was nothing to reply to. That's why I was telling myself she wouldn't reply (or at least as quick! I sent the message... about 2 hours or less ago). Remember, the link to my Quizilla account is http://quizilla.com/users/emira0. Yes, my homepage is incredibly dull, but I will liven it up... eventually. ^_^
Well, for the summer vacation I will: 1) learn more about my new friend, Visha. 2) learn the guitar (I've been wanting to for SO long. My brother has a guitar, but he hasn't used it since class (probably about a year or less ago)). 3) TRY to finish "There's Nothing Left To Do". I have the story planned out, I just need to write it. 4) CLEAN MY ROOM!!!! ^_^;; 5) get myself noticed on Quizilla 6) Read "Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince" in less than TWO DAYS!! (hey, I did it with the "Order of the Phoenix")
That's all I will attempt. I could go on... but really all that's up ^there^ is enough for now... in fact, it's probably still I little much. But I HAVE to do #4 and #6. Another thing... for #6... I'll have no other choice cause my surgery is really gonna kick out a lot of things I'd want to do (like I'm not going out in public!). And yes, people, because of the surgery, I'm gonna have my hair down ALOT more than usual. OH, and for those people who are thinking: "Surgery? What surgery?!?" I'm going to get the birthmark off (FINALLY!!). I hate it above most things... that includes Kaitlyn and Whitney. Those two still like to make an ocassional quote about it... *rolls eyes*
Today is my brother's (Matt's) b-day, and for those of you who don't know he's 22 yrs. old now!! I just think it's insane. Not because he's getting so old.... BUT he's getting so old without moving out... no girlfriend... no boyfriend, for that matter... NOTHING!!
Ok, as I wrote this post, I became one step further in Quizilla (aka, I sent WickedWench a message and she replied!). You guys might be like "Whoopdedoo...", but I even freaked out when I saw my quizzes on the Recently Added list. I think that was incredibly pathetic now, and this little thing is going to be pathetic when (or if) I make it to the Highest Rated list. Oh, and WickedWench often tells everyone that if someone messages her, and she doesn't reply, it's because she gets the same message over and over, or if there was nothing to reply to. That's why I was telling myself she wouldn't reply (or at least as quick! I sent the message... about 2 hours or less ago). Remember, the link to my Quizilla account is http://quizilla.com/users/emira0. Yes, my homepage is incredibly dull, but I will liven it up... eventually. ^_^
When I thought I couldn't get more angry...
3:59 PM - Wednesday, June 15, 2005
On the first note: THANK YOU MR. RAINEY!!!! *bows*
I've said once before, and I'll say it again; I HATE it when people talk during a movie. Especially when they're talking about personal things that I really don't want to hear. And that's exactly what happened today. 6th period during "The Princess Bride". Now, I'm not really a fan of the movie, but once again, I don't want to hear people talking about useless junk! Let me start with 5th period. That was... wonderful. We don't have the future make-up and hairstyling people in it. Well, no offense to those few (you know who you are) who MIGHT, but it's not NEARLY as many as in the other class.
Then 5th period was over. Brittni wanted to go outside where all the people wouldn't be. We stayed in, cause those girls rather hang out with the guitarists outside than be inside being told to shut up every minute. Whitney and Kaitlyn were originally in, but I told them both to shut up (loudest sound source in the room at the time). Kaitlyn said "Don't tell me to shut up!" then, to my great pleasure, Colton and Cara BOTH said "shut up!!" at the same time. I gave Kaitlyn a satisfied look as she was putting on a football helmet (I DON'T wanna know why). She said something about my mole. I replied with "I wonder how good it will look on you," because, if that biatch (telling like it is) wants to make fun of me, she better know what if would be like in MY shoes. I'm not too fond of this mole either, and she has to keep on rubbing it in my face. I'm not saying it hurts me, but it's just bloody as hell annoying and shows that she has limited things to make fun of me with. So incredibly sad. If you want to make fun of me, or argue, make it at least SOUND intelligent, not like "Is that a body suit or are you just fat?" (hey, made that up right now, sorry if it offends).
Rainey told all the talkers way too many times that if they wanted it talk, they should go to Wallace's room. We got rid of Kaitlyn and Whitney, they went outside (YES!). Later, the principal said that there was no one supervising them so they all had to come inside. Brittni left for the mentor thingy. So I was all alone with no Skyler and no Quoia either. I'm not saying that I feel... vunerable, it's just it's harder to keep myself under control when I'm alone. So I guess I'm insecure and vunerable to myself at the same time for that (last 2 sentences made no sense...)
So, we've got Courtney (she's actually really, really nice), Nic W., and Shelby talking. It was mostly Shelby talking (She's not even in our class!!!), and I did the "shh!" Courtney said "Sorry", but then she would still talk. Later, Sean's mother came and said that this movie was the best ever, and Shelby said "I know".... What's there to say? Honestly, I know she's "a born talker", but if you were watching your favorite movie, wouldn't you at least shut up and watch? She wasn't even watching half the time she was there, and talking every... single... second. Worstly, they were about 2 feet away from me, not even caring (except Courtney) when people told them to shut up. I moved to the seat next to me, just a little further away from them. I kept my cool, kept myself under control.
Whitney and Kaitlyn sat with those... people, and talked, and talked, and talked... and you know what else they did? TALKED!!! Talked about useless junk such as people who hate them. I told them to be quiet for a few minutes. Didn't listen to me. Told them to shut up, I was trying to watch the movie. Got attention from them. Nic has something against me. Never said I hate him, but I do (dang, just said it). Oh well, so what? Anyway, they still talked. Told them to shut up. Whitney was next to me and said "No need to get mad," at that point I wasn't mad, I may have sounded, but you would have to if they didn't listen to you, right? Before I knew it, I got someone poking at my ear with a piece of tissue paper. It was Ryan H. I bet. I told him to stop; didn't listen. Whitney leaned over to me and whispered, "Megan.," me: *real quiet* "shhut uuup", Whitney: "Megan. Megan, are you going to Bullwinkle's tomorrow?" (we're going there on a field trip tomorrow). I lost it. I lost myself, elbowing Whitney... somewhere. I didn't check. She stood up, smile on her face, also on Kaitlyn's, saying to the whole world, "I'm telling on you!" To my great luck (not being sarcastic), Mrs. McBride was there talking to Rainey. I heard Whitney say "Megan hit me." Oh, you should've seen the proud look on Kaitlyn's face.
They knew my weakness, they knew what would get me started up. So I believe it was Kaitlyn who sat next to me, I'm not sure. I didn't look, didn't make any motion, didn't show that they were bugging the hell out of me... making me go insane. I mentally wrapped myself up in a restraining chair and tried SO hard to block their high-pitched voices, not wanting to hear them. So whoever (probably Kaitlyn) was sitting next to me, whispered in the ear I was covering up: "Do you like this movie? Will you sign my yearbook? Is this your favorite movie?" Then the person across the table (most likely Whitney) said "Will you sign my yearbook, Megan?" Then I heard McBride call Kaitlyn over. Someone protested that Kaitlyn wasn't the one talking (yea right). Then Kaitlyn came back. Whitney asked her what the assistant principal said. I didn't hear what Kaitlyn said, though.
Then as they talked again (Whitney saying she was going to stay away from me, or else I might punch her in the face *people laugh*). Then someone ACTUALLY came to rescue me! The all-powerful Mr. Rainey!!! He didn't just tell those people to go to the other classroom, he commanded them. What was so bad about the whole thing with those people is that they chose to pick on me when none of my true friends were there. It was me against... 4 or 5 people. I felt week. They really liked making me feel bad so that they could feel better. I don't pick on them. Don't make fun of how they look or anything. Just how they act. They ask me why I hate them when they can clearly answer the damn question themselves. And that question is getting bloody old. So old, I'm annoyed when they say it.
Oh, and for those people who ask why I didn't move or anything, it's something my mom taught me. She says to get away from them. If they talk to me on the internet, just log off. But to me, I see weakness in that. I stay my ground, showing them I can resist for longer than they can. When they talk to me on the internet, and I really and pissed, I might say one or two things, then I just ignore them. Ignore the things they say and make them mad in the process. Remember? That's how I got Kaitlyn to call me a... female dog without me saying anything! And I don't care if Kaitlyn and Whitney somehow read my blog. They should know the truth. But, I mean, don't go and tell them anyway.
And Cara... why weren't you there for me? I thought you were my friend? Or did you want me to get chewed up and spit out by those really stupid people?
I've said once before, and I'll say it again; I HATE it when people talk during a movie. Especially when they're talking about personal things that I really don't want to hear. And that's exactly what happened today. 6th period during "The Princess Bride". Now, I'm not really a fan of the movie, but once again, I don't want to hear people talking about useless junk! Let me start with 5th period. That was... wonderful. We don't have the future make-up and hairstyling people in it. Well, no offense to those few (you know who you are) who MIGHT, but it's not NEARLY as many as in the other class.
Then 5th period was over. Brittni wanted to go outside where all the people wouldn't be. We stayed in, cause those girls rather hang out with the guitarists outside than be inside being told to shut up every minute. Whitney and Kaitlyn were originally in, but I told them both to shut up (loudest sound source in the room at the time). Kaitlyn said "Don't tell me to shut up!" then, to my great pleasure, Colton and Cara BOTH said "shut up!!" at the same time. I gave Kaitlyn a satisfied look as she was putting on a football helmet (I DON'T wanna know why). She said something about my mole. I replied with "I wonder how good it will look on you," because, if that biatch (telling like it is) wants to make fun of me, she better know what if would be like in MY shoes. I'm not too fond of this mole either, and she has to keep on rubbing it in my face. I'm not saying it hurts me, but it's just bloody as hell annoying and shows that she has limited things to make fun of me with. So incredibly sad. If you want to make fun of me, or argue, make it at least SOUND intelligent, not like "Is that a body suit or are you just fat?" (hey, made that up right now, sorry if it offends).
Rainey told all the talkers way too many times that if they wanted it talk, they should go to Wallace's room. We got rid of Kaitlyn and Whitney, they went outside (YES!). Later, the principal said that there was no one supervising them so they all had to come inside. Brittni left for the mentor thingy. So I was all alone with no Skyler and no Quoia either. I'm not saying that I feel... vunerable, it's just it's harder to keep myself under control when I'm alone. So I guess I'm insecure and vunerable to myself at the same time for that (last 2 sentences made no sense...)
So, we've got Courtney (she's actually really, really nice), Nic W., and Shelby talking. It was mostly Shelby talking (She's not even in our class!!!), and I did the "shh!" Courtney said "Sorry", but then she would still talk. Later, Sean's mother came and said that this movie was the best ever, and Shelby said "I know".... What's there to say? Honestly, I know she's "a born talker", but if you were watching your favorite movie, wouldn't you at least shut up and watch? She wasn't even watching half the time she was there, and talking every... single... second. Worstly, they were about 2 feet away from me, not even caring (except Courtney) when people told them to shut up. I moved to the seat next to me, just a little further away from them. I kept my cool, kept myself under control.
Whitney and Kaitlyn sat with those... people, and talked, and talked, and talked... and you know what else they did? TALKED!!! Talked about useless junk such as people who hate them. I told them to be quiet for a few minutes. Didn't listen to me. Told them to shut up, I was trying to watch the movie. Got attention from them. Nic has something against me. Never said I hate him, but I do (dang, just said it). Oh well, so what? Anyway, they still talked. Told them to shut up. Whitney was next to me and said "No need to get mad," at that point I wasn't mad, I may have sounded, but you would have to if they didn't listen to you, right? Before I knew it, I got someone poking at my ear with a piece of tissue paper. It was Ryan H. I bet. I told him to stop; didn't listen. Whitney leaned over to me and whispered, "Megan.," me: *real quiet* "shhut uuup", Whitney: "Megan. Megan, are you going to Bullwinkle's tomorrow?" (we're going there on a field trip tomorrow). I lost it. I lost myself, elbowing Whitney... somewhere. I didn't check. She stood up, smile on her face, also on Kaitlyn's, saying to the whole world, "I'm telling on you!" To my great luck (not being sarcastic), Mrs. McBride was there talking to Rainey. I heard Whitney say "Megan hit me." Oh, you should've seen the proud look on Kaitlyn's face.
They knew my weakness, they knew what would get me started up. So I believe it was Kaitlyn who sat next to me, I'm not sure. I didn't look, didn't make any motion, didn't show that they were bugging the hell out of me... making me go insane. I mentally wrapped myself up in a restraining chair and tried SO hard to block their high-pitched voices, not wanting to hear them. So whoever (probably Kaitlyn) was sitting next to me, whispered in the ear I was covering up: "Do you like this movie? Will you sign my yearbook? Is this your favorite movie?" Then the person across the table (most likely Whitney) said "Will you sign my yearbook, Megan?" Then I heard McBride call Kaitlyn over. Someone protested that Kaitlyn wasn't the one talking (yea right). Then Kaitlyn came back. Whitney asked her what the assistant principal said. I didn't hear what Kaitlyn said, though.
Then as they talked again (Whitney saying she was going to stay away from me, or else I might punch her in the face *people laugh*). Then someone ACTUALLY came to rescue me! The all-powerful Mr. Rainey!!! He didn't just tell those people to go to the other classroom, he commanded them. What was so bad about the whole thing with those people is that they chose to pick on me when none of my true friends were there. It was me against... 4 or 5 people. I felt week. They really liked making me feel bad so that they could feel better. I don't pick on them. Don't make fun of how they look or anything. Just how they act. They ask me why I hate them when they can clearly answer the damn question themselves. And that question is getting bloody old. So old, I'm annoyed when they say it.
Oh, and for those people who ask why I didn't move or anything, it's something my mom taught me. She says to get away from them. If they talk to me on the internet, just log off. But to me, I see weakness in that. I stay my ground, showing them I can resist for longer than they can. When they talk to me on the internet, and I really and pissed, I might say one or two things, then I just ignore them. Ignore the things they say and make them mad in the process. Remember? That's how I got Kaitlyn to call me a... female dog without me saying anything! And I don't care if Kaitlyn and Whitney somehow read my blog. They should know the truth. But, I mean, don't go and tell them anyway.
And Cara... why weren't you there for me? I thought you were my friend? Or did you want me to get chewed up and spit out by those really stupid people?
NOT fudging cool!!
4:51 PM - Sunday, June 12, 2005
ok, lets start with: I'm sorry if I start cussing here, but I'm NOT in the best mood, and I need to vent. I seriously haven't been this mad since... I duno.
So, my classmates all know that the project is due TOMORROW! I haven't even finished with my notecards, and I still have to finish my outline THEN to my final draft. Well, I'm gonna be REAL busy for a while.
It ALL started last night. I figured that I would do just fine making the deadline. I was on the internet, getting more notecards done and AOL kept kicking me off and such. I moved the laptop to my room, supposedly going to bed. So I went on my computer to write more of my stories that I have on there. Too soon I had to recharge my battery. So I hooked the AC adapter into the wall, and put the other end in the laptop. I realized then that it wasn't charging it up. Two lights would flash up if it was plugged in, but they weren't flashing. I knew something was wrong. I didn't go tell my parents cause I was supposed to be sleeping. I attempted to fix it; no luck at all. Then this morning, at around... 2:30 pm, when my parents finally came home, I told them. I tried once again to fix it. It felt loose in the plugin thingy. Then I looked at the part you plug in and I realized... there was supposed to be a hole where the rod goes in. And, guess what? It was filled... with the rod that broke off the inside of my laptop!! "Oh, no way!!" were the words that came out of my mouth. We watched a movie we rented (Loco Love), then I went on the internet to print things so I could do more of the project in the car on our way to Portland where we would drop of the laptop. I only got 5 pages printed before we had to leave, with 21 more to go. So I read part of Emerson's boring life on the road, and when we finally came to our destination, we went to the special desk where you bring in your computers, printers, and whatnot. The guy gave a sigh and a weird look when he saw what was wrong. Another guy said that our... thingy might not pay for the damage (we got a long warranty), and might take it as abuse to the computer (W-WHAT?!?!). We came to the conclusion that I may have tripped on it, or something. I really don't know. Then they asked me if there was anything on there that should be backed up if they had to do a system backup (uh... EVERYTHING!!). My eyes watered cause it was my one and only laptop! I BETTER not lose ANYTHING!! I got ALL my poems, some stories (the ones that AREN'T on paper), and other things I've worked really hard on. The guy said everything will be ok, but he was just saying that to make me feel better. So they were going to take my laptop apart and put it all back together after they clean it. Well, it could use some cleaning, I can say that. Then the guy said that Toshiba's usually take 2 weeks. 2 WEEKS?!?! I had some of my project stuff on that computer!!!!!! Fudgy-sickles!!
On the trip back home my dad was angry, mostly at himself I believe. I cried most of the trip. Why? Because I just lost a really close friend!! Now that I won't have my laptop for a while, I feel... like a part of me was suddenly pulled out and put in the trash. I feel lonely. I never thought losing my laptop for a few days would hurt so much as it does. I'm afraid to think what it would feel like when it's gone forever.
I got home, and hiding my true feelings, I acted like everything would be alright. Nothing would go wrong with my laptop. But inside I'm asking myself: "They are going to fucking ruin it!!" and "What if I lose everything?!" and "What if the back up doesn't work? Or they didn't get everything that's so important to me?" So we were home. I went over to the printer to get the pages I had told it to print out. I almost yelled out something bad, but I think I said, "You're kidding!!" The printer was jammed on the FIRST freaking page!!! That just hit me hard. I went outside with the cats to "cool off" for a bit. But I still came back pissed and frustrated, on the verge of tears. I'm not sure why. I'm prone to moodswings. And so my dad fixed the printer, and we got the whole thing going AGAIN, so I got a few doubles. So I just sat in the chair, looking for biographies, pulling out the paper as they came out, so they wouldn't get jammed. My mom was on my neck till 11 pm, trying to get me to finish SOMETHING. Not only is Emerson's life boring, but the 14 page biography I printed was written in 1899!! Wow, no wonder I kept getting lost and didn't know a ot of the words in it. As I worked, I drank a WHOLE can of CocaCola. And friends that know me know that I'm dangerous when I have caffiene and sugar. I started drinking it around 9 pm, and I feel asleep easily after 11.
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Today I started the day well. Skyler gave me candy and a cute little purple teddy bear (as most of you had seen me with today. Like Brittni and her camera...)!! At school, the day was fine. We got our yearbooks and signed them. I attempted to do more of my project, but didn't get as far as I intended to. Right now I feel extremly sad and stressed out. Always on the verge of tears and I just need a break from it all. Damn project hates me. I find it hard to focus on one thing and finish it without distraction. I'm writing this to hopefully feel better and get advice. So far, writing this is making me feel worse.
I wrote most of this yesterday. Today's writing started at "On the trip back home my dad was angry..."
So, my classmates all know that the project is due TOMORROW! I haven't even finished with my notecards, and I still have to finish my outline THEN to my final draft. Well, I'm gonna be REAL busy for a while.
It ALL started last night. I figured that I would do just fine making the deadline. I was on the internet, getting more notecards done and AOL kept kicking me off and such. I moved the laptop to my room, supposedly going to bed. So I went on my computer to write more of my stories that I have on there. Too soon I had to recharge my battery. So I hooked the AC adapter into the wall, and put the other end in the laptop. I realized then that it wasn't charging it up. Two lights would flash up if it was plugged in, but they weren't flashing. I knew something was wrong. I didn't go tell my parents cause I was supposed to be sleeping. I attempted to fix it; no luck at all. Then this morning, at around... 2:30 pm, when my parents finally came home, I told them. I tried once again to fix it. It felt loose in the plugin thingy. Then I looked at the part you plug in and I realized... there was supposed to be a hole where the rod goes in. And, guess what? It was filled... with the rod that broke off the inside of my laptop!! "Oh, no way!!" were the words that came out of my mouth. We watched a movie we rented (Loco Love), then I went on the internet to print things so I could do more of the project in the car on our way to Portland where we would drop of the laptop. I only got 5 pages printed before we had to leave, with 21 more to go. So I read part of Emerson's boring life on the road, and when we finally came to our destination, we went to the special desk where you bring in your computers, printers, and whatnot. The guy gave a sigh and a weird look when he saw what was wrong. Another guy said that our... thingy might not pay for the damage (we got a long warranty), and might take it as abuse to the computer (W-WHAT?!?!). We came to the conclusion that I may have tripped on it, or something. I really don't know. Then they asked me if there was anything on there that should be backed up if they had to do a system backup (uh... EVERYTHING!!). My eyes watered cause it was my one and only laptop! I BETTER not lose ANYTHING!! I got ALL my poems, some stories (the ones that AREN'T on paper), and other things I've worked really hard on. The guy said everything will be ok, but he was just saying that to make me feel better. So they were going to take my laptop apart and put it all back together after they clean it. Well, it could use some cleaning, I can say that. Then the guy said that Toshiba's usually take 2 weeks. 2 WEEKS?!?! I had some of my project stuff on that computer!!!!!! Fudgy-sickles!!
On the trip back home my dad was angry, mostly at himself I believe. I cried most of the trip. Why? Because I just lost a really close friend!! Now that I won't have my laptop for a while, I feel... like a part of me was suddenly pulled out and put in the trash. I feel lonely. I never thought losing my laptop for a few days would hurt so much as it does. I'm afraid to think what it would feel like when it's gone forever.
I got home, and hiding my true feelings, I acted like everything would be alright. Nothing would go wrong with my laptop. But inside I'm asking myself: "They are going to fucking ruin it!!" and "What if I lose everything?!" and "What if the back up doesn't work? Or they didn't get everything that's so important to me?" So we were home. I went over to the printer to get the pages I had told it to print out. I almost yelled out something bad, but I think I said, "You're kidding!!" The printer was jammed on the FIRST freaking page!!! That just hit me hard. I went outside with the cats to "cool off" for a bit. But I still came back pissed and frustrated, on the verge of tears. I'm not sure why. I'm prone to moodswings. And so my dad fixed the printer, and we got the whole thing going AGAIN, so I got a few doubles. So I just sat in the chair, looking for biographies, pulling out the paper as they came out, so they wouldn't get jammed. My mom was on my neck till 11 pm, trying to get me to finish SOMETHING. Not only is Emerson's life boring, but the 14 page biography I printed was written in 1899!! Wow, no wonder I kept getting lost and didn't know a ot of the words in it. As I worked, I drank a WHOLE can of CocaCola. And friends that know me know that I'm dangerous when I have caffiene and sugar. I started drinking it around 9 pm, and I feel asleep easily after 11.
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Today I started the day well. Skyler gave me candy and a cute little purple teddy bear (as most of you had seen me with today. Like Brittni and her camera...)!! At school, the day was fine. We got our yearbooks and signed them. I attempted to do more of my project, but didn't get as far as I intended to. Right now I feel extremly sad and stressed out. Always on the verge of tears and I just need a break from it all. Damn project hates me. I find it hard to focus on one thing and finish it without distraction. I'm writing this to hopefully feel better and get advice. So far, writing this is making me feel worse.
I wrote most of this yesterday. Today's writing started at "On the trip back home my dad was angry..."
Shut up
3:59 PM - Thursday, June 09, 2005
I say that phrase at least once a day. I have to tell someone (or something) to shut up, or else my day isn't complete. I might be mean, yes, but at least I try to get a point across. While I'm at this, I shall explain why I'm so "quiet" sometimes. Because people keep asking me that (or at least used to).
First of all, that's just me, that's who I am. There's something called being anti-social. I'm not really anymore... blame the Zoloft.
Second, what's there to talk about anyway? When I say something, most people don't understand or anything. I'm not really one to explain things, at least not directly. Some things are just to hard to explain.
Third, I don't like to be a hypocrite. I tell people to shut up a lot, at school mainly. I want to get the point across that people talk too much, and if not that, just too plain loud. I say "shut up" more when I have a headache. I get most headaches when I'm at school, less when I'm not. I don't really like it (and I've said this in some other post) when people talk during movies. They ask questions and all I want to say is "Well shut up and watch, then you'll find out," but of course, I hold back on that. Like during Gone With The Wind today, and I will explain that later.
In fact, I yell so little, I lost my voice because of the last school dance. You had to yell in someone's ear for them to hear you.
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Ok, onto the strange events of today.
During Gone With The Wind... a character was saying something softly and I couldn't hear over the other voices. I might add that the volume was as high as it could go. So I said something like: "Be quiet, I can't hear," or something... forgot. Then someone replied, "Then listen," I looked over to see who said that, and to my great surprise it was Bridget. Now I never thought she was too bad... but I did know that she was somewhat on the stupid, "clueless" side. She made a motion and mouthed "listen"... uh... HELLO?! I was the person who was TRYING to listen, but those bloody people were being too bloody loud! I gave a weird look, and Alexis, who was what?... 3 feet away, was looking straight at me and said, "Shut up!" in her normal voice (which, by the way, is high-pitched)... geez!! I made a motion that said I wasn't talking... cuz, I WASN'T!!!
That was 6th period. But something else during 4th period had me pissed off at a certain someone. Yes, I get pissed off easily. Sorry it that annoys you... I'm very emotional =P
Soooo, 4th period was science. Both Wallace's and Rainey's class were working on our hot air balloons that we just started on today. My group consisted of Skyler, Quoia, and me. But since Quoia was gone, we had Pace help us with the balloon for now... we needed the extra 2 hands. We went outside to make it since there really wasn't any other room elsewhere, at least where it wouldn't get trampled on. We glued it pieces together, fighting against the wind that attempted to take the glued tissue paper away. We needed 3 tissue papers to finish the main glueing (gluing?....). And so either Skyler or Pace found another white sheet... so we just needed 2 green sheets left. That's when Kaitlyn showed up. She had a lot of paper... paper that we needed. We asked her for just 2 green sheets... you know what she said? Well, anyway, she wouldn't give us what we needed... then she sat on her paper. Steph comes up and Kaitlyn says that WE were trying to steal HER tissue paper (oh, she also said that she got the paper from Mr. Martin)! She was yelling at me for a reason I don't remember anymore (I have a headache, OK?!?!?!?!!). I told her to stop yelling at me. We were about 6 feet apart, no need to make me deaf! Pace and Skyler headed to Martin's to get the paper a certain SOMEONE wouldn't give us (our class was out of paper...). Even though I didn't want to, I stayed back, trying desperately to keep the paper from flying away, and making sure that a certain SOMEONE wouldn't sabbotage our balloon. I don't think Kaitlyn would be that incredibly stupid to do something like that, but I can't trust her.... well not for that anyway. I CAN trust her to be a female dog and a close-minded person. Don't tell me that it's stupid to say/think that, I really don't need it right now!! (not in the bloody freaking mood here, people!)
First of all, that's just me, that's who I am. There's something called being anti-social. I'm not really anymore... blame the Zoloft.
Second, what's there to talk about anyway? When I say something, most people don't understand or anything. I'm not really one to explain things, at least not directly. Some things are just to hard to explain.
Third, I don't like to be a hypocrite. I tell people to shut up a lot, at school mainly. I want to get the point across that people talk too much, and if not that, just too plain loud. I say "shut up" more when I have a headache. I get most headaches when I'm at school, less when I'm not. I don't really like it (and I've said this in some other post) when people talk during movies. They ask questions and all I want to say is "Well shut up and watch, then you'll find out," but of course, I hold back on that. Like during Gone With The Wind today, and I will explain that later.
In fact, I yell so little, I lost my voice because of the last school dance. You had to yell in someone's ear for them to hear you.
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Ok, onto the strange events of today.
During Gone With The Wind... a character was saying something softly and I couldn't hear over the other voices. I might add that the volume was as high as it could go. So I said something like: "Be quiet, I can't hear," or something... forgot. Then someone replied, "Then listen," I looked over to see who said that, and to my great surprise it was Bridget. Now I never thought she was too bad... but I did know that she was somewhat on the stupid, "clueless" side. She made a motion and mouthed "listen"... uh... HELLO?! I was the person who was TRYING to listen, but those bloody people were being too bloody loud! I gave a weird look, and Alexis, who was what?... 3 feet away, was looking straight at me and said, "Shut up!" in her normal voice (which, by the way, is high-pitched)... geez!! I made a motion that said I wasn't talking... cuz, I WASN'T!!!
That was 6th period. But something else during 4th period had me pissed off at a certain someone. Yes, I get pissed off easily. Sorry it that annoys you... I'm very emotional =P
Soooo, 4th period was science. Both Wallace's and Rainey's class were working on our hot air balloons that we just started on today. My group consisted of Skyler, Quoia, and me. But since Quoia was gone, we had Pace help us with the balloon for now... we needed the extra 2 hands. We went outside to make it since there really wasn't any other room elsewhere, at least where it wouldn't get trampled on. We glued it pieces together, fighting against the wind that attempted to take the glued tissue paper away. We needed 3 tissue papers to finish the main glueing (gluing?....). And so either Skyler or Pace found another white sheet... so we just needed 2 green sheets left. That's when Kaitlyn showed up. She had a lot of paper... paper that we needed. We asked her for just 2 green sheets... you know what she said? Well, anyway, she wouldn't give us what we needed... then she sat on her paper. Steph comes up and Kaitlyn says that WE were trying to steal HER tissue paper (oh, she also said that she got the paper from Mr. Martin)! She was yelling at me for a reason I don't remember anymore (I have a headache, OK?!?!?!?!!). I told her to stop yelling at me. We were about 6 feet apart, no need to make me deaf! Pace and Skyler headed to Martin's to get the paper a certain SOMEONE wouldn't give us (our class was out of paper...). Even though I didn't want to, I stayed back, trying desperately to keep the paper from flying away, and making sure that a certain SOMEONE wouldn't sabbotage our balloon. I don't think Kaitlyn would be that incredibly stupid to do something like that, but I can't trust her.... well not for that anyway. I CAN trust her to be a female dog and a close-minded person. Don't tell me that it's stupid to say/think that, I really don't need it right now!! (not in the bloody freaking mood here, people!)
The most super awesome internet quiz!!
7:24 PM - Monday, June 06, 2005
Revealed
6:13 PM
The mystery person, whom I had thought was Becky, was actually Whitney. Thanks to Brittni, who discovered Whitney's buddy icon that said none other than... "Whitney". So all my thanks go to my friend ^_^. I was very glad that it wasn't Becky or anyone worse. Whitney is somewhat nice to me, and I to her. We have our little "moments" like this morning, when Whitney didn't want to go to Math, and me and Skyler were telling them that we had 2 whole hours of math, doing an exit exam, that I didn't finish. Whitney said that she didn't want to do math, or something, and I told her that I really didn't care, and then she said back "Yeah you do".... duno what happened then. Just that she and Jaron went to Wallace's. Whitney apologized to me that she was hiding her identity from me, and that she was kinda rude (hell yea). I accepted it, even if I should have not. That's the second time she has apologized to me, the first time was the when Kaitlyn and Whitney found out I hated them. We yelled at each other, then about a month or so later, she apologized for being so rude (cuz she is a hypocrite.... sorry, it's true, though).
Whitney is one of the few people who have apologized to me for something. I haven't gotten that from Kaitlyn or Janelle (this does not include if they run into me, or step on me.... although I still have few who apologize for that).
This is off subject... just to warn you. I've noticed that some certain people have kept away from me. Most of them people I don't want to talk to. I don't really care, but it just shows me that they don't nessesarily like me, and that I still don't care about. I'd rather be all alone than surrounded by people, even if they're my friends, or someone else I know well.
Now that I don't have anything else to say, I will end this post... Until next time...
Whitney is one of the few people who have apologized to me for something. I haven't gotten that from Kaitlyn or Janelle (this does not include if they run into me, or step on me.... although I still have few who apologize for that).
This is off subject... just to warn you. I've noticed that some certain people have kept away from me. Most of them people I don't want to talk to. I don't really care, but it just shows me that they don't nessesarily like me, and that I still don't care about. I'd rather be all alone than surrounded by people, even if they're my friends, or someone else I know well.
Now that I don't have anything else to say, I will end this post... Until next time...
Is the movie good... or bad?
11:20 PM - Saturday, June 04, 2005
Ok, I've been wanting to see the movie White Noise since before it came out in theaters. But, sadly, my parents wouldn't let me see it, for some odd reason. So, I've been waiting for many months, and we finally rented it... I watched it alone.... while at the same time turning the sound up and telling my family to be quiet. Let me just say that White Noise is my type of movie *WHOOT!!* It's a horror/thriller, just like Saw and The Ring ^_^. It really reminds me of The Ring, but its a different concept. The movie had me on the verge of tears, and on the edge of my seat. Even if I knew something was coming, I would still jump. So if you like The Ring AND Saw, go and see White Noise.
*P.S.: Cara called me during the movie, and it scared the HELL out of me. Cuz the movie just had the phone thing going on, and there were background noises when I first held the phone to my ear. I was FREAKED out!!*
We also watched Phantom of The Opera today. And let me just say this: Brittni lied to me! lol, she said it was the best movie ever and the saddest movie ever. I could see how people would think it was the best, it's just I'm really not into musicals. My mom cried a bit (but... she's my mom), my eyes didn't even get watery. The best movie to cry to still is Finding Neverland, to me at least.
Yesterday (Friday for those.... certain people) we watched Flight of The Phoenix (the remake).... it was BAD!!! I mean, the acting was good, it was just the script. There was this AWESOME character! His name was Elliot or something, and I said that his voice was like a Twilight Zone voice, then Matt said that long ago he had thought of him as the "Twilight Zone man". HE WAS SO FREAKING COOL!!!!! At first sight, he insantly reminded me of Chester, from Linkin Park (when his hair was bleached) ^_^:
You know, it took me a LONG time to find a good picture with Chester and his bleached hair.... his tattoo's on his arms are awesome!
*P.S.: Cara called me during the movie, and it scared the HELL out of me. Cuz the movie just had the phone thing going on, and there were background noises when I first held the phone to my ear. I was FREAKED out!!*
We also watched Phantom of The Opera today. And let me just say this: Brittni lied to me! lol, she said it was the best movie ever and the saddest movie ever. I could see how people would think it was the best, it's just I'm really not into musicals. My mom cried a bit (but... she's my mom), my eyes didn't even get watery. The best movie to cry to still is Finding Neverland, to me at least.
Yesterday (Friday for those.... certain people) we watched Flight of The Phoenix (the remake).... it was BAD!!! I mean, the acting was good, it was just the script. There was this AWESOME character! His name was Elliot or something, and I said that his voice was like a Twilight Zone voice, then Matt said that long ago he had thought of him as the "Twilight Zone man". HE WAS SO FREAKING COOL!!!!! At first sight, he insantly reminded me of Chester, from Linkin Park (when his hair was bleached) ^_^:
You know, it took me a LONG time to find a good picture with Chester and his bleached hair.... his tattoo's on his arms are awesome!
When people prove themself dumb
3:15 PM - Friday, June 03, 2005
I had one certain person *cough* Kaitlyn *cough* prove themself dumb-worthy, and she keeps on proving it to me over and over again. She doesn't get the fact that I don't want to talk to her... Clips from our conversations (online, I might add):
kaitlyn: "do u still hate me???"
me: "what do u think?"
kaitlyn: "i dont kno"
me: "what makes u think that i might not hate u anymore?"
*FF*
kaitlyn: "all i want is a 'yes' or 'no', is that 2 much 2 ask?"
*yes*
me: "why dont u read between the lines 4 once?" (personal inside joke...)
kaitlyn: "i did, and u still havent answered the question yet"
*almost dies from person's stupidity* *FF*
me: (we are both mad at each other now) "i dont have time 4 this" *puts on away message*
kaitlyn (who still talks even though I'm "away"): "fine, go 2 ur little retard convention"
She didn't know that I was actually getting ready to go to the school dance, and Brittni was picking me up. I was surprised that during that conversation, Kaitlyn actually called me a "freak" for the first time to me (I feel touched *tear*). I didn't care, "freak" to me is an abnormal person... how many times had a called Kaitlyn and others "freaks"? I don't care, they're abnormal to me. Later, after I got back from the dance, Kaitlyn IMed me saying "why weren't you at the dance?" I didn't reply, I just laughed my head off until she signed off... I thought I was supposed to be at a stupid retard convention.
Wednesday's conversation went almost exactly like this:
kaitlyn: "hey"
me: "cant u take a hint that i dont want 2 talk 2 u?"
kaitlyn: "i never got a hint like that"
*smacks head*..... *doesn't reply*
kaitlyn (minutes later): "y r u doing this? u kno that i love u and u luv me"
kaitlyn: "doesn't our date mean anything 2 u?"
*deep breath... doesn't reply*
kaitlyn: "your a b****" (but w/o the pretty stars)
With great temptation, I didn't reply. I wanted to make her mad, and I did (HOORAY!).
Even more lately, another person has decided to get in a fight with me. I highly believe that it's Becky (I honestly can't think of anyone else it could possibly be). Now, I've known Becky since 2nd grade, and we were "friends", if you could say that, I don't remember very much from back then. Then Becky moved, and then she came back during my middle school years, with a new additude. Let's say that we're far from friends now, I don't even want to THINK that we used to be, hence the reason I said that we used to be "friends", if you could call it that, in 2nd grade.
On her screenname, she told me that she was a girl that went to Kelso (about.... 100 miles away, or close to that), and then she said these complicated things about how she, "Sara", knew about me (aka, her cousin is best friends with Kaitlyn, or, my favorite, her friend is a cousin of Kaitlyn's best friend... she made it sound more complicated, though). I knew she was a fake from the start, but I couldn't quite get all the puzzle pieces together. Then, as she continued talking, I realized.... NOT ANOTHER person who is trying to figure out why I hate Kaitlyn!! I played along though, to Becky's great pleasure, then when she revealed the secret that she didn't go to Kelso, but my school, and, by her screenname, I could tell she was in my grade. Before she revealed the secret, I noticed that she only wanted to talk about me, and people in this town I live in, claiming that they knew alot of people here (complete BS... Bad Science.... DUH!!).
I waited till they cracked, and she herself decided to break down the curtain when I asked her favorite music artists. So as she tore it down, I said "figured, figured..." and she truly thought that I believe most of what she was saying, claiming that if I hadn't known who it was, then I wouldn't have talked to them, or told them so much.... I claimed that if I hadn't known who it was, then I wouldn't have told them so MUCH. I mean, really... telling a complete stranger happenings in your school.... I told her I wasn't stupid. She thought she had me wrapped around her finger, whereas I had her wrapped around MY finger.
We fought.... for over an hour... maybe two, I don't know. Let's just say, I was winning, in my opinion, anyway. I thought I had the best comebacks, maybe because I had her wrapped around my finger and I wasn't the one being a hypocrite, she was (saying that it was bad to lie... saying that I was lying (when I wasn't), and note that she was the one who lied to me in the first place, saying she was Sara who lived in Kelso.
She made a quote that it was a sin to do.... something, and it included the word "very" which she spelled "vaery" or "veary", don't remember. So in my reply (no offense to Christians or bad spellers) I said "wow, it's also a sin to have bad spelling, didn't you know that?" Note: I corrected her spelling with Evanescence (evenesince) AND appreciate (apresheate.... or something like that)....
Also in our argument I said "(note the sarcasm)", "wow, note the 'plz'", and... my favorite.... she said: "then who???????????????????"..... I replied with: "note the desperation". She was actually SMART enough to not copy my "note the..." comebacks, because I made those up!!! I say those when I watch a bad movie or a bad tv show!! That means, NONE OF YOU PEOPLES CAN STEAL IT EITHER!!!!! And if you do, I will quote from a cd.... Megan "will come to your house and suck your blood". In other words, "YOU WILL PAY!!" (Gaz quote ^_^)
Ok, all the above stuff I wrote last night, because I got kicked off the internet.
So today (Becky has been suspended), during science, when most people were outside with their boats, Kaitlyn came in and asked me why I thought that it was her that I was talking to last night. I asked her why she was talking to me now. Then she said something, but ended with "well, maybe I love you," (me: O_O too far, she went toooooo far). Whitney came in a few seconds later and asked me the same question. I can't remember what I said, or what I did, maybe I told her to tell Becky to leave me alone. Then I looked up and realized that Whitney was gone.
Later, I believe, a few people from the other class came in when Wallace was in there. Since Kaitlyn was gone earlier, Wallace told her the infamous announcement earlier. 8th grade students can't go to the Bullwinkle field trip if they get a referal, 3 lunch detentions, or 4 pink slips. As Wallace said this, I whispered "She's gone, she's gone, she's gone..." that made Frank mad. He attempted to snap me with a rubberband, but it broke, and snapped him instead. Kaitlyn freaked out on the news. She said it was outrageous (or something like that), and I looked over at Wallace and started laughing, saying: "That's not outrageous" (or whatever the word she used), Brandon said the same thing. Then Kaitlyn said, "But what if you're a person who always gets referals?" I muttered, "Then you're screwed." I don't think Frank heard me that time.
6th period, 2 classes watched Gone With The Wind all in one room, so it was cramped, and the people I hate ended up behind me. Rainey said that Scarlette was a "witch", when earlier he said "witch, but with a 'b'". So then Kaitlyn says, "you mean she does spells and potions?" I turned around slowly with a "are you insane?" look. Tayla said my name while laughing. I tried to explain it to Kaitlyn that Rainey meant a witch but with a 'b', and she said "he didn't say that". I gave up, and raised my hand planning to say "Can you tell these people why you called Scarlette a witch?", but Whitney got to my question first. Let's say... I don't like it when people talk during a movie. At home, if we rent a movie, I might make some side comments to myself that I whisper. But I don't say them loudly in a room full of people such as "I hate that dress" or "He looks 5o!!"
Rainey said that Scarlette reminds of someone. Kaitlyn yelled in her annoying voice, "Who?" He replied with, "Kaitlyn, I can't say, Kaitlyn," or something like that. I started cracking up. A bit later, Rainey was going to say "Scarlette" but instead he said "Kai-Scarlette" and again, I cracked up. Basically Rainey was saying that Kaitlyn was a "witch"... not sure if he knew he was saying that. But still humorous to me ^_^
kaitlyn: "do u still hate me???"
me: "what do u think?"
kaitlyn: "i dont kno"
me: "what makes u think that i might not hate u anymore?"
*FF*
kaitlyn: "all i want is a 'yes' or 'no', is that 2 much 2 ask?"
*yes*
me: "why dont u read between the lines 4 once?" (personal inside joke...)
kaitlyn: "i did, and u still havent answered the question yet"
*almost dies from person's stupidity* *FF*
me: (we are both mad at each other now) "i dont have time 4 this" *puts on away message*
kaitlyn (who still talks even though I'm "away"): "fine, go 2 ur little retard convention"
She didn't know that I was actually getting ready to go to the school dance, and Brittni was picking me up. I was surprised that during that conversation, Kaitlyn actually called me a "freak" for the first time to me (I feel touched *tear*). I didn't care, "freak" to me is an abnormal person... how many times had a called Kaitlyn and others "freaks"? I don't care, they're abnormal to me. Later, after I got back from the dance, Kaitlyn IMed me saying "why weren't you at the dance?" I didn't reply, I just laughed my head off until she signed off... I thought I was supposed to be at a stupid retard convention.
Wednesday's conversation went almost exactly like this:
kaitlyn: "hey"
me: "cant u take a hint that i dont want 2 talk 2 u?"
kaitlyn: "i never got a hint like that"
*smacks head*..... *doesn't reply*
kaitlyn (minutes later): "y r u doing this? u kno that i love u and u luv me"
kaitlyn: "doesn't our date mean anything 2 u?"
*deep breath... doesn't reply*
kaitlyn: "your a b****" (but w/o the pretty stars)
With great temptation, I didn't reply. I wanted to make her mad, and I did (HOORAY!).
Even more lately, another person has decided to get in a fight with me. I highly believe that it's Becky (I honestly can't think of anyone else it could possibly be). Now, I've known Becky since 2nd grade, and we were "friends", if you could say that, I don't remember very much from back then. Then Becky moved, and then she came back during my middle school years, with a new additude. Let's say that we're far from friends now, I don't even want to THINK that we used to be, hence the reason I said that we used to be "friends", if you could call it that, in 2nd grade.
On her screenname, she told me that she was a girl that went to Kelso (about.... 100 miles away, or close to that), and then she said these complicated things about how she, "Sara", knew about me (aka, her cousin is best friends with Kaitlyn, or, my favorite, her friend is a cousin of Kaitlyn's best friend... she made it sound more complicated, though). I knew she was a fake from the start, but I couldn't quite get all the puzzle pieces together. Then, as she continued talking, I realized.... NOT ANOTHER person who is trying to figure out why I hate Kaitlyn!! I played along though, to Becky's great pleasure, then when she revealed the secret that she didn't go to Kelso, but my school, and, by her screenname, I could tell she was in my grade. Before she revealed the secret, I noticed that she only wanted to talk about me, and people in this town I live in, claiming that they knew alot of people here (complete BS... Bad Science.... DUH!!).
I waited till they cracked, and she herself decided to break down the curtain when I asked her favorite music artists. So as she tore it down, I said "figured, figured..." and she truly thought that I believe most of what she was saying, claiming that if I hadn't known who it was, then I wouldn't have talked to them, or told them so much.... I claimed that if I hadn't known who it was, then I wouldn't have told them so MUCH. I mean, really... telling a complete stranger happenings in your school.... I told her I wasn't stupid. She thought she had me wrapped around her finger, whereas I had her wrapped around MY finger.
We fought.... for over an hour... maybe two, I don't know. Let's just say, I was winning, in my opinion, anyway. I thought I had the best comebacks, maybe because I had her wrapped around my finger and I wasn't the one being a hypocrite, she was (saying that it was bad to lie... saying that I was lying (when I wasn't), and note that she was the one who lied to me in the first place, saying she was Sara who lived in Kelso.
She made a quote that it was a sin to do.... something, and it included the word "very" which she spelled "vaery" or "veary", don't remember. So in my reply (no offense to Christians or bad spellers) I said "wow, it's also a sin to have bad spelling, didn't you know that?" Note: I corrected her spelling with Evanescence (evenesince) AND appreciate (apresheate.... or something like that)....
Also in our argument I said "(note the sarcasm)", "wow, note the 'plz'", and... my favorite.... she said: "then who???????????????????"..... I replied with: "note the desperation". She was actually SMART enough to not copy my "note the..." comebacks, because I made those up!!! I say those when I watch a bad movie or a bad tv show!! That means, NONE OF YOU PEOPLES CAN STEAL IT EITHER!!!!! And if you do, I will quote from a cd.... Megan "will come to your house and suck your blood". In other words, "YOU WILL PAY!!" (Gaz quote ^_^)
Ok, all the above stuff I wrote last night, because I got kicked off the internet.
So today (Becky has been suspended), during science, when most people were outside with their boats, Kaitlyn came in and asked me why I thought that it was her that I was talking to last night. I asked her why she was talking to me now. Then she said something, but ended with "well, maybe I love you," (me: O_O too far, she went toooooo far). Whitney came in a few seconds later and asked me the same question. I can't remember what I said, or what I did, maybe I told her to tell Becky to leave me alone. Then I looked up and realized that Whitney was gone.
Later, I believe, a few people from the other class came in when Wallace was in there. Since Kaitlyn was gone earlier, Wallace told her the infamous announcement earlier. 8th grade students can't go to the Bullwinkle field trip if they get a referal, 3 lunch detentions, or 4 pink slips. As Wallace said this, I whispered "She's gone, she's gone, she's gone..." that made Frank mad. He attempted to snap me with a rubberband, but it broke, and snapped him instead. Kaitlyn freaked out on the news. She said it was outrageous (or something like that), and I looked over at Wallace and started laughing, saying: "That's not outrageous" (or whatever the word she used), Brandon said the same thing. Then Kaitlyn said, "But what if you're a person who always gets referals?" I muttered, "Then you're screwed." I don't think Frank heard me that time.
6th period, 2 classes watched Gone With The Wind all in one room, so it was cramped, and the people I hate ended up behind me. Rainey said that Scarlette was a "witch", when earlier he said "witch, but with a 'b'". So then Kaitlyn says, "you mean she does spells and potions?" I turned around slowly with a "are you insane?" look. Tayla said my name while laughing. I tried to explain it to Kaitlyn that Rainey meant a witch but with a 'b', and she said "he didn't say that". I gave up, and raised my hand planning to say "Can you tell these people why you called Scarlette a witch?", but Whitney got to my question first. Let's say... I don't like it when people talk during a movie. At home, if we rent a movie, I might make some side comments to myself that I whisper. But I don't say them loudly in a room full of people such as "I hate that dress" or "He looks 5o!!"
Rainey said that Scarlette reminds of someone. Kaitlyn yelled in her annoying voice, "Who?" He replied with, "Kaitlyn, I can't say, Kaitlyn," or something like that. I started cracking up. A bit later, Rainey was going to say "Scarlette" but instead he said "Kai-Scarlette" and again, I cracked up. Basically Rainey was saying that Kaitlyn was a "witch"... not sure if he knew he was saying that. But still humorous to me ^_^
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