^_^ we found the kittens! Or rather, they found us. We believe that Blackie (the mother) moved them when we were away at the cemetery's and then they woke up when Matt and my mom were outside. There's four that we know of and they remind us of Hairo (in other words, the rest of my family think they are going to be "Freaks"). Oh, and they are CUTE!!!


Well, it's Memorial Day. A sad day, on my part. Every year I'm reminded of the many people (and animals) I have lost. At my grandparents (on my mother's side) grave... well, my mom's real mom was in the Camas cemetery, this was at the Evergreen, I was trying to understand how hard it would be to lose your parents. Especially at my age, considering what Brooke and Haley had to go through. I was thinking about how it would be if my mom or dad dropped dead right there.

At the Washougal Cemetery, we visited my aunt's (by marriage) mom and dad (they died within a year of each other), and Tracy's grave. If you know where Tracy's is, or want to find it, go and look at all the flowers there and the little "We miss you!" card that her family made. It's so sad. I cried. She was too wonderful of a person to leave. So I guess the statement is true: Angels always fall first.

I just HAVE to get this out. I don't care what time it is. I don't care that I'm tired. I don't care that any minute my parents could be banging on my door telling me to turn off my light.

I hate how the world is.

If you disagree with me, you're truly insane in my book.

Pollution,

Abuse,

War,

Destruction.

And it's all man's fault.


Because of man, the world is dying at a faster rate than it should.

Because of man, humans have taken over the Earth,

And we plan to take over the moon and Mars.

Man's hobbies and lifestyles are destorying nature.

Animals are losing their habitat, they're dying, becoming extinct, fighting more, because of man.


Screw God (if there is one)

Did he plan on humans destroying the entire universe?

Did he want so many people to suffer, and not get the happiness they deserve in return?

We are just God's only entertainment

Along with the so many others that believe in him.



I just want the world to go back to how it felt so big, where now it feels so small.

I want to live life not crowded, without cars and skyscrapers.

Live life not knowing what's out there.

Live without today's "problems", where a standard is made, and we have to meet it, or be lost.

I want to live without the worries of today: dents in your car, tests, grades, work, and medications.



Only the strong survive... today, everyone survives.



I hate how the world has become, and I hate the world now for what it is... what it's done to me.

I hate the world. I'll get over it soon when I realize I can't do anything about it. Too many times have I worried about the current state of the world. Too many times have I cared about things I can't change. But why can't I let go? Why do I always think about it at one time or another? Screw the world!!



I don't care what you think. I don't care if you don't like what I've said. I don't fucking care if you have a problem with who I am, what I do, or what I say. It's your fault. I can't change who I am.

You remember how a deer ran into my dad's truck? He didn't run into it, it ran into him. My dad thinks all deer are evil, and I claim that they are out to get him. So lately, the deer have been proving that they are, as my dad puts it, evil.

A few days ago, my mom found a deer on our porch. She didn't want to scare it off, afraid that it would "tear up" (or whatnot) the porch. My dad claims that they were screwing around with us, trying to get as close to us as they could.

Deer made more apperances as the week went on.

A few minutes ago, my dad informed me something that I just HAD to write on this. It is proof that deer are going to take over the world. So, this morning, my mom and dad went to Home Depot. They were near the place where the deer ran into my dad's truck. It's near this house and trailer, but ANYWAY... they saw a hunter dog (the ones that people take when they go hunting, duh) that was running... with a deer running after it!! I mean, how... odd is it that a deer was chasing after a hunter dog?!

I was laughing SO hard when my dad told me that. I will indeed report other "evil deer" happenings. So until then, beware of the evil deer!

I love this song. The first time I ever heard it, I started crying.



simple plan - untitled :: urbnmix.net


Lyrics over there>>>> cuz blogger wont allow it on a post =P

oh.... uh, hi! *hides bodies* How are you doing? *washes blood off hands* ..... How'd this get on my hands you say? Well... Kaitlyn and Whitney made me mad and got what they deserved.

Actually, they found yet ANOTHER way for me to hate them even more, by calling me tons of things that I'm not (like a slut....) Yep.... and people ask why I hate them.... geez, someone needs to clean their mouths with soap (do people still do that? ...hmmm......). I wonder if those two even remember that little incident in PE that one day.... *glares* *cracks knuckles*.

On Saturday (during Steph's B-Day party), I'm online, and I get an IM from "Steph".... they claimed to be Whitney and asked why I hated them..... I dunno what I said..... but for some reason, she got mad and said that she didn't want to talk to rude people like me. I had a crazy suspicion that it was Cara, playing a trick on me AGAIN, so I said "bye, cara"..... It just so happened that Cara WAS by Whitney, watching our conversation, but it really WAS Whitney talking to me. Whitney then called me a "stupid slutty b****"..... she was the first person to call the other names in this little "conversation". People, I am far from a slut. Whitney is just that stupid... I told Whitney to prove that I was a slut, and I dunno where it went from there. Whitney kept telling me that I "had no friends" "no one likes me"...... ok, now WHEN did I say those stuff to her? She made a few stupid comments about me and Wallace (ewwwwww), me obsessed with Skyler, science, Harry Potter, and school..... which I am not. Whitney is stupid.... I want to kill her now. She kept saying that I "hated her for no reason" which isn't true (Cara....). And Whitney only hated me so suddenly because "I hated her".... oh, PLZ... so lame. Whitney kept calling me a slut... (did I already say that?) sooo, I finally asked how many boyfriends she has had her whole life. She said 5 (people, I am NOT saying that 5 boyfriends makes you a slut, but I have had none so far, so that makes Whitney more of one than me)... me: "OH!!!" whitney: "but they were pretty much the same person. besides, i've never slept with a boy, so how can i be a slut?" me: "me either, so how can I be a slut?" whitney: "shut up".... but that didn't stop OTHERS from calling me a slut... such as Kaitlyn for example.

Sooo, I'm talking to Whitney and I'm all worked up because she's soooo friggin stupid and won't understand what she's saying, and I get an IM from (dun, dun, duuuunnn) Kaitlyn. Who just HAPPENS to ask me why I hate her (me: ok, who is this little birdy?!?!). I told her that I was worked up from Whitney already and I didn't want to get started on this big list...... she told me to just get started and get this over with. Soon enough, Kailtyn was mad too. Kaitlyn's insults seemed to be....... more well planned, and still random, but at the same time not repeated over and over like Whitney was doing. She made a stupid comment about me being "messed up from harry potter" and I quoted (i still crack up over this, it's sooo brilliant): "oh geez, AT LEAST IM NOT SCARED OF GOTHS!!!" *laughs* Kaitlyn: *a few minutes of no response* "SHUT UP" me: *laughs* "its true, u kno it is" Kaitlyn: "SWHUT UP" (she did say that I SWEAR!) and she SO brilliantly signed off!! me: VICTORY!!! *does victory dance*

Whitney wasn't so...... "smart" she kept trying to win over the argument. she made yet ANOTHER comment that I hated her for no reason, and I finally told her that one reason was because she was a prep (which explains alot why I don't like her) and then BOOM!! Janelle gets in the conversation, typing instead of Whitney. She typed fast, telling me what was wrong with being a prep? and other stuff...... i mentioned that I wouldn't become one of them even if I was paid a billion $ (seriously, I wouldn't) and Janelle was being the...... erm.... person that she is. The TRUE her that I can sense from just watching her. I get a lot of bad vibes from people, so I try to stay away. Of course, they might have done other things in the past that I note them for. Pretty much, I stay away (not necessarily HATE) from people when little things add up over time... just bad experiences with them. In this case, a lot of bad experiences with the duo. Ok... soooo I was talking about Whitney. Yea, after a while she just said that she had better things to do and signed off.

So now I'm feeling pretty good. I got both of them to sign off before I gave up. Later, the acual Steph IMed me. She was better than the duo anyday. So I explained a bit of stuff to her, but not wanting to tell why I hated those people, it was too much work for me at the moment. I was still too..... alive, even though it was about a half hour after my conversation with Whitney had ended. A few minutes past and Steph put an away message on. I put one on myself, since I had to go to the bathroom. I come back and find that someone left me a message, and it happened to be Steph. The message only said: "j" (me: O_o) me: "what?" /'Steph': *on and off typing.... then..... "gay" /me: "what?" /'Steph': "u. r. gay." /me: "and? who is this?" /'Steph': "guess" /me: "whitney" (that OR janelle.... but only whitney would say gay) Whitney: "dont talk 2 me or ill call the cops" (or something close to that) me: "only if u dont talk 2 me" ...... *silence*...... after a while, I put another away message that mainly said to whitney and kaitlyn to leave me alone. But Whitney kept on coming for more. Apparently, Janelle was the idiot who called me a hoe. And Whitney was being a TOTAL JERK.

Yesterday (Monday) at school, I was kinda nervous since I knew everyone that went to Steph's party most likely knew what went on. And I didn't know exactly how many people were there, so I wasn't sure how people would react when they saw me or something else. First period, we were switching classes. I was in Sigma, along with Whitney, but Kaitlyn is in Delta (the lesser math people), so I was going to the other classroom, walking behind Trenton when Kaitlyn goes "Trenton, watch out behind you." Trenton looked everywhere behind him. I knew she was talking about me all along, so I looked at her and gave a a face (not sure which one...) and in response she did her weird laugh. Later, during the same period, I looked over at Whitney and noticed she was looking at me with disgust. I disappeared behind Brittni and told her what Whitney was doing. Later, during.... 2nd or most likely 4th period, no, wait... I think it was 2nd. Kaitlyn went into the 8th grade pod and apparently was looking at me with disgust (like Whitney). I didn't see her but Brittni (or someone else...... *me can't focus.... confused!*) told me. Then, at lunch, Mariah came over to me and asked me if I thought she was a slut (ok.....). I said no, I didn't really think she was a slut at all. Mariah said that someone told her that I thought she was. She was at the party and told Whitney and the others to stop IMing me (bless her heart).
Yesterday turned out much better than I expected.

Today, we had PE

Ok, so last night, Matt, my brother, was really, and I mean REALLY excited to see the midnight showing of Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith with our neighbour (Cody) and someone else. My mom made a sort of poncho thingy based on the ones from the movies. So, Matt puts that on, and gets his lightsaber, ready to go. Then, he lost his lightsaber... and me and my dad found it in broad daylight.... Matt was sp excited, it was scary. He was waiting for Cody to pick him up, and he called their house about 3 times in 30 minutes since Cody didn't say when he'd get back, just around that time I guess. This took place around 9 pm. I'm in the living room with my parents watching Alias (I wasn't watching, I was on my laptop writing the post before this). So my brother, being major excited, was pretty much running everywhere. I told him to run around in circles for a minute. You know what he did? He ran around at "the speed of light" aka, he just stood there with his eyes closed.... yep, that's my brother *sigh*. Matt ran to go to the bathroom and get some cd.

Then the doorbell rang.... 7 seconds later, Cody ran it again.... Matt ran to the front door and opened it. From how Cody talked, he was about as excited as Matt. Cody was holding up the tickets saying "I'VE GOT THE TICKETS!!!" Cody said that he was going to go back down to his house to grab something, and asked Matt if he wanted to come.... Response: "SURE!!!!" *runs like hell to the chair 3 feet away, grabs contents (poncho, lightsaber, etc.)* Mom: "Matt. Matt!!" Matt: *turns around* "What?"

I don't remember what my mom said, but I yelled "Don't die of excitement!!" as the two guys ran out the door, slamming the door shut behind them..... Mom: "geez" Me: "They're like kids in a candy store"..... I realize what I said was inaccurate... It should be: kids with ADD in a candy store, already hyper...... yes, indeed. That's how... they were acting, it was really scary.

My dad noted that I was like that about Harry Potter, but that's beside the point. And no, I wasn't THAT excited about Harry Potter.... but almost. And that was just me. This is 2 guys, one 21, the other 18 (I think). You HAVE to admit it's a scary thing to picture.

Oh, and they went to same showing (and cinema) as Mr. Rainey and his wife.

I was surfing the internet, when I found a line from an Evanescence song that I never read before. This line I found said: "I never thought there'd be you", it said the song was called "The Song".... but I found out it was called "You" by googling the known lyrics. I also found sites where the "You" lyrics were removed. I went to one of those pages and it read, quote "At request of the band Evanescence and lead singer Amy Lee,all websites containing the lyrics or mp3 to the song "You"are supposed to remove said lyrics or mp3s immediately. The song was never supposed to be released,it was a personal song dedicated to her friends and family... The band has made many announcements on their official siteto please stop circulation of said song."

Ok..... SORRY AMY and other band members or people who read this... it is personal, but very touching... thus, here are the lyrics:


The words have been drained from this pencil
Sweet words that I want to give you
And I can't sleep, I need to tell you... goodnight

When were together I feel perfect
When I'm pulled away from you I fall apart

All that you say is sacred to me
Your eyes are so blue, I can't look away as we lay in the stillness
You whisper to me, Amy, marry me, promise you'll stay with me
Oh you don't have to ask me, you know you're all that I live for
You know I'd die just to hold you, stay with you
Somehow I'll show you that you are my night sky
I've always been right behind you

Now I'll always be right beside you
So many nights I've cried myself to sleep
Now that you love me I love myself
I never thought I would say that
I never thought there'd be you


You can indeed tell by the lyrics that they're personal, but this song immediantly touched me like so many other songs written by Amy.... the person she talks about, I believe, is Ben Moody.... co-founder of Evanescence, and also former member of the band.... you don't know how.... disappointed I was when Ben left.... I also believe it's Ben since the "My Immortal" video kinda.... yea. That was the last video they did with Ben *tear*

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ANOTHER something interesting.... I was on this website for teens... kinda like The Sims Online, and Brittni and I apparently met the lead singer of the band UnderOath- Spencer Chamberlain. He asked us our favor of music, and since Brittni has too many favorite bands, he asked her what cd she had in her cd player... I laughed, I knew what was in it. Brittni: "megan's cd... my chemical romance i think."Yep, my cd. lol, Spencer said that everyone loves MCR, and he had the honor of playing with them at the Taste of Chaos tour... after he said that, I realized something about his name (his screen name was UnderOath-spen).... I realized that UnderOath was a band that played in the Taste of Chaos tour with My Chemical Romance, The Used, Senses Fail, Killswitch Engage, and a few others (I think...) that I forgot about. I didn't get to tell Spencer my thoughts, because he said he had to go since "we've stopped at a gas station. oh to pee" and he left. So I told Brittni about my theory, and she thought that he was just a fake. Ok, so he's 23, and really only people 13-18 (or 19...) are "supposed" to be there, but he DID tell us his age after us begging him to tell.... that took more than a minute though, of us begging. I did some SERIOUS investigating (I couldn't find his age on the internet, sadly)... which convinced Brittni that he was the real thing *me excited*. So I (AND Brittni) met Spencer Chamberlain, lead singer of UnderOath, who's actually kinda... uh... hot... (I'm not being sarcastic.... and, Cara, he doesn't wear make-up... as far as I know) and has famous gut-wrenching, screaming vocals. The group is kinda Christian... I found a site with the lyrics of their lastest album: which is yet to come out (lol, but I believe they already have 3 albums out, or something). So I checked out the lyrics and I am PSYCHED!!! I want to get that cd sooooooo bad now.

Well, I really g2g and tomorrow, or whenever, I'll write about the thing that happened in this same room that I'm in now (the living room) about.... oh, 30-45 minutes ago.... it was freaking weird and hilarious at the same time.... it includes my brother... and Star Wars.

I'm not a superstitious person, really. There seems that there is always something really bad and really good everyday... pretty much, anyway. I'm not sure of the high point of my day so far, but the worst part is burned in my memories.


Our class went to the school library so we could work on our class projects. Me and Quoia sat at a table, and I looked around, wondering where Skyler disappeared to (you knew that was coming, Britt). He came back a few minutes later, since he apparently was called to the office. Sooo, he came back and told me and Quoia what it was all about.

Skyler's brother (whose age I do not know, but he is under 9) was very sick. He had a temperature of 104 and climbing fast. Skyler's mom planned on taking the poor sick kid to the hospital after he hit 108. Now who thinks 108 is too high to risk? Thought so. Skyler was scared because he knows his mom... He couldn't contact her and tell her to take him right then. I felt bad. After he said that, Sean came over telling Skyler to get out of his chair... Now this pissed Skyler off, and Sean knew it, so he kept on asking us what was wrong. Skyler got another chair, and sat down. Not getting a book, not getting out his note cards, just taking out the packet we had and wrote his name in pen all over. I felt real bad. I couldn't concentrate on my work. I was just watching Skyler, trying to make him feel better as I noticed that his eyes were watering. He kept his head down alot. Just watching him like that made me want to cry.

Skyler was called to the office again, and both Quoia and I figured that he was going home or something. So we, or rather, I, gathered Skyler's things. I looked at the packet... both his first and last name was written all over the black edges of the first page. I went back to work, but told Sean what was wrong with Skyler so he would know why Skyler snapped at him like he did. It turned out that Skyler came back to the library. The rest of the day we pretty much watched a video about wolves. There were alot of cute animals ^^, awwww the cougar kittens were CUTE!!! Ok, I'm done, lol. Skyler seemed happy the rest of the day. Well, he seemed... himself.


I just thought I'd share with you guys what's on my mind currently, besides the fact that I'm tired. But now you know that to, and I'm going to shut up now and go to bed.

One of the saddest movies I've ever seen. Also one of the best movies. The story is magical and deep. Some parts of the movie I could predict, but it was still very emotional. It is a very powerful movie that everyone should watch. GO SEE IT!!! I was crying, and I could tell my mom was too, since she kept blowing her nose when my eyes were watery. In fact, my eyes are getting watery just thinking about the movie... ='(


Yesterday, I also watched a movie called "A Series of Unfortunate Events". The kid's parents die towards the beginning of the movie, yet, throughout the movie, I didn't feel as sorry for the kids as I should have. In other words: not very emotional at all. The only emotional part was towards the end... the climax mainly. The movie was dark yet funny. And I couldn't help but think Violet was wearing gothic clothes... I really couldn't. It's an okay movie, but I wouldn't really recommend it to anyone. Here's a pic of her I found:

I still haven't seen "The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" but I REALLY want to!!!

Happy Mother's Day!

Well, once again, my cat, Blackie (aka Espresso (sp?)), had yet ANOTHER liter of kittens. We don't know where they are, thus we don't know how many. We currently have 7 cats (only about 4 I see everyday), and I bloody hope that number didn't get bumped up to 13 (one of Ruby's liters contained 6 kittens........ 3 of which died in about 2 months, but still).



Brittni has her own blog!!! Go Britt!!! It can be found here.



Me and Cara are good now. It's a very strange story, though, as it always is.



I finished "The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy", and am currently reading the next part (well, DUH) "The Restaurant at the End of the Universe" (for those of you who don't know). At the almost very end of the first part was the FUNNIEST thing EVER (book-wise..... in real life it's still Frank farting in 7th grade)!!! Of course, it was all about Marvin, the Paranoid Android:


"That ship hated me," he (Marvin) said dejectedly, indicating the policecraft.

"That ship?" said Ford in sudden excitement. "What happened to it? Do you know?" (The ship was dead)

"It hated me because I talked to it."

"You talked to it?" exclaimed Ford. "What do you mean you talked to it?"

"Simple. I got very bored and depressed, so I went and plugged myself in to its external computer feed. I talked to the computer at great length and explained my view on the Universe to it," said Marvin.

"And what happened?" pressed Ford.

"It committed suicide," said Marvin, and stalked off back to the Heart of Gold. (Heart of Gold is their space ship)


I was laughing soooo hard. Matt went past the living room (the room which I was in) and we asked me what was so funny, and I just pointed to the book in my lap, unable to get words out of my mouth. I love the part how the computer committed suicide. I'm not even going to ask how.



I still haven't found the true story I wrote, and I'm bloody sorry for people who want more of my story (There's Nothing Left to Do), but AOL is a freaking.... JERK!! and Matt (my bro) has been needing to go on the internet often for his homework. Then, my poor story testers.... I have writers block and I really can't think of what to write next. I DO however, know how to end it, it's just HOW do I get there?

k, let me get back to searching for that story (yes, it is more important than There's Nothing Left to Do)...... OH!! and just for fun, if you want to burn time, you can figure out where I got that story title from. I duno how hard it is, I haven't tried, but you guys can. If you get it right, then you'll get something special (I haven't chosen the prize yet, as I just made this thing up). ^_^