The whole thing with Cara and her grandpa reminded me of an event that happened to me during the summer vacation after 6th grade. The more I think about it, the more it makes sense about how it relates to the way I am today. I figured sharing it with you people, you'd be able to know me a bit better... how I was like back then. I remember writing my view of what happened. But I can't find it. I'll keep on searching for it, and when I do, I'll type it up as fast as possible.

Basically, after 6th grade was over, me and my family went to Seattle for my dad's sister's graduation thingy. Since she was going to be a teacher. It was soo dull, and not worth the trip cuz I had to miss getting The Order of the Phoenix the night it came out. I had to wait 2 freakin days after it was released, seeing people in Seattle with their own copies of the book (like a clerk in an anime shop). Ok, then when we got back home, my mom showed signs of being sick.... then... something life-threatening happened. My mom almost died.... my dad was scared as hell.... I was so scared, I locked myself in my room and cried most of the day away...... I duno about my brother. I barely saw him, and often didn't hear a word. I remember barely eating, not watching tv. I wonder to myself now, what I did all day. Oh yea, computer. When I had that ancient computer that was slow as hell. I'd spend all day reading an online fanfic.


I'm deadly depressed now. I shall keep on searching for signs of that story.

I'm sorry if I'm rude beyond all rudeness in this explaination (which is bound to be insanely long)

Mainly, yesterday (geez, seems like longer ago), Cara commented on my blog accidentally as her other username, then she deleted the comment, realizing her mistake. The blog on that username was her prayer journal, and I'm perfectly fine about what she prays about, but it just that she went into detail about it (I'm since some of it was about me... no names, though). I'm not mad at Rainey, since it was Cara who made the blog in the first place. I don't like people talking about me in "public" as you could call it, where many people could find out about it. Yea, it might be nice for people to pray for Cara, also, and me, I don't care. But it's just the "should I back off or go at her stronger?" ok, that sounded wrong, but it's the "what happened?" kind of questions people might ask. In fact, they could figure what was happening, and I would have yet ANOTHER person on my back. I honestly don't like people telling me I should do "this" or "this" or "that" to brighten my mood (you know what I'm talking about, Britt) or to make me feel better about something. I guess when it has to do with feelings, I don't like to be told what to do.

And, Cara, if you remember, the counselor lady told you and Manda to not tell anyone about it. Just keep it to yourselves. I appreciate that you care, I really do, but sometimes, it really gets out of hand (for me at least). It got out of hand when you wanted me to believe in God. As I've told you soooo many times before, I don't believe that I need to believe in him to really "live". You're pretty much telling me what to think and what not to think (once again, trying not to be hypocritical, if I am... I duno). It got out of hand (I think) when you told so many people (so, it was like 5.... wait... that IS alot).

OK... so.... what was I saying? ugh.... oh yea! I don't think you're there for me (as I said in one of my comments on your blog) when I need you. And when I don't need you, you're there. Just like with the Kaitlyn/Whitney issue. That's what I fear is the result of too many friends (I THINK!!!). You don't know what side to take, but they won't let you get out of the picture completely cuz they need you.


fudgie... lost my freakin flow... AGAIN!! I hope you guys get what I'm saying... or know what I'm going through. So mainly I'm mad cuz I don't want more people telling me what I should do to "feel better" or worrying about me. I think I have enough people in my life as it is.

I feel sooooo sad for Will. He's a really cool guy in my grade and he's in most of my classes. Today I found out (along with a lot of other people) that Will's dad died on Saturday (Oh, when Wallace told us, he said that Mr. Hawley had died. And I was like "WHAT?!"... but he meant Will's dad... and I calmed down). My last year teacher, Mr. Schlauch, and my current teacher, Mr. Wallace, were great friends of Will's dad. I remembered how Will and his dad would go hunting and fishing together... what a loss that must be.

So when I found out that Will's dad died, I immediantly felt sad, and remembered how Brooke's (my neighbour......... sorry about the u's.... I do it without thinking) mom (Tracy) died. Brooke was the oldest, about my age, with a sister about 2 years younger, and a little brother no more than 2 years old. Her passing away hit us all really hard ("us" as in the neighbours). I remember crying when I heard about it. Me and my family (save for Matt) were really close to that family. I honestly wouldn't have minded to have Tracy as my mother. She was so kind and... everything. I remember going to their crowded house. The father was just BAWLING. And the kids... not even watery eyes. I felt so bad that they were trying their best to hold it in.

So back to Will's dad... his death was a tragedy. Jordin and Will used to go out. But they broke up some time ago. At the beginning of lunch, Jordin (being the worrier) said that she felt really bad and was scared of what Will would do. She seems to still care about him. But then again, she always worries about other people's safeties. Now I'm not saying that's an insult or anything, you just don't see it very much. I think she would be a great mother (that was WAY cheesy...).


So awhile ago, when I got online, I started listening to some music on my computer. "Hello" by Evanescence came on... and I seriously almost started crying.


Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me I'm not broken
Hello I'm the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday



All of my favorite songs happen to be really sad ones that can make me cry. Like this one, for instance. Also "Demolition Lovers" by MCR, and "Missing" by Evanescence. I do have other songs I really like, such as "Thoughtless" when sung by Evanescence (KoRn wrote it, I know). Also "Brackish" by Kittie is cool. Well, I'm gonna stop rambling on and go get some chocolate (the medicine of life!) ^^

Ok, this is weird. But I'm kinda happy and flattered about it, too. There's this guy on my bus... a highschooler. I sit in the front, listening to my cd player cause I just really feel like it and the music is to drown out the really annoyingly LOUD people on my bus (All, save for one, come from the middle school -_-;;). So this guy... I've seen him on my bus for 3 days now. The first 2 days, he pretty much appeared out of nowhere, cuz he sits in the back, then at the major stop (like 13 people get off there), he follows them and sits towards the front. I duno why he does that... but that's beside the point.

For the past two days, we've had an old subsitute driver. He's sat in front of me in the first seat on the passenger's side. Yesterday, I didn't stand up fast enough so the bus driver started moving. I stood up and that guy told the bus driver that I was there and needed to get off. All I could say was "yea" part of the reason was I couldn't think of anything else and I was listening to music. I was mentally hitting my head for quite awhile, thinking that guy thought I was really stupid and stuff... i duno.

Today we had the same old bus driver lady. And me and that guy sat in the same spot as yesterday. I was thinking of thanking him for yesterday... but I couldn't for some reason. The lady passed my spot, and that dude told the lady to stop since I was on, or something; I was listening to my music again. The bus driver apologized to me, saying that she should've learned from yesterday. "It's okay" I heard myself say. Then she said something else I didn't catch as I got off.


I still can't think of a way to thank him... maybe just smile and wave? I duno...



OKAYS!! I got a new blog for my story I'm going to be posting on here. Brittni likes it alot, so I'm posting it sooner than I planned. The story is called "There's Nothing Left to Do"... and, you'll find out.... read it!! especially if you like my poems!

(Oh, now that I'm on, no one else is...) I'll start with the end of the world, cause it's shorter and I'm tired, so I'll make this all as quick as possible.

I borrowed The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy from the Camas library... and to tell the truth, the beginning is very slow paced, so I'm not even half-way done with the book and it was due April 14... 3 days ago. So, today, I decided to renew it online... turns out you can't renew when other people are waiting for it =(.... so I was screwed.... I'd have to put it on hold AGAIN!! And wait another 2 weeks or so. So, after the evil deer (which I will explain soon enough) thing, me, my mom and dad went shopping for groceries at Fred Meyer, and so we passed the book corner thing, so I decided to see if they woulde have that book... they didn't. I didn't have my Barnes and Noble gift card (least of all, my wallet) with me, so we headed home, I searched the internet to see if they would have it. I knew they would, but my mom wanted to make sure. So then, we get back in the car (-_-;;) after I grabbed my wallet AND a cd (on out first trip I brought my cd player... with no cd in it ^_^;;;;). So at the store I found a paper back copy, and of course I grabbed "Shattered Mirror" by Ameila Atwater-Rhodes (fav. book AND author EVER!!!) since the last time I was there, they didn't have any copies (must've ran out), then while me and Dad were searching for the new Artemis Fowl book (that I discovered while on the stores site), cause my dad is a more fan of those books than I am -_-;;, my mom found a book and showed it to me (me: O_O w... t... f...). It was the WHOLE Hitchhiker's "Trilogy" and more. It's about the size of...... no, BIGGER than The Order of the Phoenix. I'm bloody (I heart that word) serious. And best of all... It only cost a little more than the first book ALONE!!! So I got it, and if I wasn't very far on the first book.... I found my spot in the bigger book and as I put the bookmark in and closed it, I said: "That's sad... that's very sad...." Less than a 1/4 of an inch through, and..... 3 1/2 more inches to go!!!



The evil deer are coming....

Today, I FINALLY convinced my parents to go and see The Ring 2!! I got to see the 4:35 showing at Cascade 16 (just so the "certain" people know where I was at the time). I LOVED the first one and I nearly yelled ("OMG!!!!") in excitement when I heard there was going to be a second one. So anyway, my bro didn't want to see it (come to think of it... he didn't even see the first one O.O). The auditorium (thing) was empty when we got there (ah... I remember that's how it was when we saw the Spongebob Squarepants Movie....)... so then my parents got snacks as I sat back, relaxed and put my foot on that bar thing ^_^, then this group of... girls... that look younger than me, come in and take a seat. I wonder if only ONE was 13, and it was their birthday today... Pretty much at the very last minutes... people came. So there was over 20 people there.

The movie was good, it wasn't scary, it wasn't the best movie, but it was good. I still like the first one better though. At the end, my dad was like "What's with teenage girls seeing this movie?"... teenage girls made up... 90% percent of the people there. "Probably just to say that they saw it" was my reply. The group of 4 or 5 girls that came in after me were sitting behind me to the right... they were so bloody annoying!! They screamed when it wasn't scary... they said "eewwwww" when it's just.... not gross.... They did laugh at the greatest line of the movie though... The movie was very sadly predictable -_-;; unlike the first one. I'm like "Oh, Samara is going to come up" "He's gonna have that screwed up face (like when they get scared to death in the first one)" and other stuff, but I don't want to give the "story" away.

The most rememberable line of the movie is at the end when Rachel (Naomi Watts) is with Samara who just wants to have a mom... and so is saying "Mommy..." all staticly and stuff, so Rachel says "I ain't your f***ing mommy".
My absolute favorite scene of the movie was with the EVIL DEER!!! lol, Rachel and Aidan are in their car, going down the road when this deer is in the road, then it rams into the side with it's antlers (most of the deer in the movie had antlers) and breaks the window, then another deer with antlers runs into the OTHER side. Then Rachel steps on the gas and leaves the two deer in the dust until ANOTHER deer comes running head on at the car, hits it, breaks part of the windshield, goes over the car, and falls off. This scene had the most suspense of the whole movie (sad I know) and I actually didn't predict it (yay!!). Instantly I thought of the deer that ran into my dad's truck that one time, so I lean over my mom and say to my (smiling evily) dad "At least that didn't happen to your truck"
Another good scene was at the Morgan's old house, which was for sale. So Rachel ran into the salesman and he was saying the Morgan's moved away when they actually both killed themselves... lol.

I noticed that the first one ended very open, as did the second one. The first one ended when we pretty much thought Samara was gone, as did the second. In the second though, we learn more... not really about Samara though... okay, this movie might sound really cheesy now, but really, it's not. It was still interesting and I could sit through it. Thankfully it wasn't as long as the first one (YES!!).




I'm bloody tired, so I'm gonna sleep now *yawn*, and if I remember something, I'll add it tomorrow... 'night all.

I'm sooooo tired of people saying that I hate other people for no reason. Okay, people REALLY don't know what I've been through. I DO hate Kaitlyn and Whitney, just like I hate the sun. Why do I hate the sun? It's bright, it blinds me, it creates too much heat (I like the cold), etc. So why do I hate Kaitlyn and Whitney? They are total brats, annoying, and pretty much think that they are on top of the world. They drive me INSANE!!

OK, does NO ONE remember when Kaitlyn pinched my butt in PE?! DOES NO ONE?!?! After that day, I hated them with a passion. Before that, I just hated them. That moment has been burned in my mind. I'm talking to Brittni, and all of a sudden, I feel someone pinch me, not knowing and not caring who it was, my hand grabbed their wrist, without me even turning around. So then I turned around and I found out I was holding on to Kaitlyn's wrist. Whitney was standing right next to her. Well, this is the part that's kinda fuzzy in my head cuz this happened such a long time ago. Pretty much I was just glaring at them, asking questions about what the hell they were doing. Kaitlyn was saying that Whitney did it as I twisted her arm a bit. DUH!! I FREAKING CAUGHT HER IN THE ACT! Whitney said that she "couldn't help it". To tell the truth, I was sooooooooo mad that they were trying to get out of the trap they put themselves in. *deep breath* Calm down, Megan, calm down. Ok, then later, I saw Whitney pinch Frank's butt with Kaitlyn next to her. I told Frank what Kaitlyn did to me, and his smile disappeared (Frank has this thing for Kaitlyn, and after that happened, he didn't know who he liked better, Whitney or Kaitlyn) and he said "Oh, that's not cool"

Now, tell me that is NOT a reason to hate Kaitlyn and Whitney. Cara, you freaking BETTER read this whole thing, I am so SICK and TIRED of you and a few other people saying that I hate those.... PEOPLE for no reason AT ALL!!!!!!


Yes, I AM mad, OK?! DON'T MESS WITH ME WHEN I'M MAD!!!! *deep breath* inhale... exhale.... inhale.... exhale... *meditates*



It is possible to have too much chocolate ='( I hate chocolate hangovers, and yes, I do somewhat have another one... I ate some semi-sweet chocolate chips last night and this morning, and believe me.... I don't feel good (I couldn't help it... they were right there!! They were calling to me, and I can't live without having some chocolate everyday, my day isn't complete without some.... (don't think about it, don't think about it, don't think about it.... dang....))


Heed my words, people...

I have a few games/vidoes that were cool and stuff...


BlueSuburbia.com, I played this... masterpiece. It's an interesting twist on a point and click game. Well, technically... anyway... it's mainly a game where you click around and there's poems and a video.... It was sooo inspiring, and also depressing. Don't play this is you are trying to be happy. But I really would recommend Cara and Mr. Rainey to play it. The poems were deep and that video was sad... but good. Really good.

Death Wears a Tophat, a short mystery game where you figure out the murderer. All the characters are clocks (you heard me). It's funny and stupid at the same time. I laughed my head off. Play, play, play. 15 min. tops to beat it.

The Doors, another point-click game (I heart them). This one is hard, even for me, but it's definately easier than the Crimson Room, Viridian Room, and Blue Chamber. I acutally beat this on my freakin own!!! I didn't get help AT ALL!!! YAY FOR ME!!!!!!!!!! kay, but really was hard. I kept clicking everything and going in circles, trying to figure things out, or trying to find SOMETHING!! So if you need help on it, ask me, I'll help ^_^

Interactive Buddy, great, GREAT game, especially if you like torturing things ^^, I found out about this game, and I played it for HOURS!! I was so entertained! The game saves itself, I think it installs a cookie or something, so you can play day after day after day. It is soooo much fun!!

Walking in Circles, k, great game! It is confusing, and you really do walk in circles, lol. If you need help, and you have the PDA, you can go to Instant Messaging on that thing, where there are REAL who can help or are in need of help. You can post, too, cuz those people are playing the game also (that... didn't make sense.... -_-;;;). But, some of them are real jerks. I still haven't finished this game!! girrr!!

Addictinggames.com, good game site, really good. It has some of my favorite games on there such as Alchemy, Zuma, and it also has Interactive Buddy^^ Gprime.net is also kinda like it, but it also has videos and stuff, I just haven't checked them.

i-am-bored.com, pretty basic, right? TONS of games, videos, quizzes... EVERYTHING to at least have you something to do. eBaumsworld.com is also a good place like that. bored.com isn't as great, but it's still ok.

Quizilla, ok, how could I NOT say this one, really? I'm almost always on this site, reading story-quizzes, or just taking quizzes, such as "Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you?" or "What color are your wings?" There's plenty of insane people on it, so you can still keep yourself entertained.

QuizFarm is a really totally good quiz site. It isn't like Quizilla and doesn't have stories. It asks you questions and you choose your best answer. Then at the end, you get a percentage of all the possible results. Like I took one called "What religion should you belong to?" (I should be a Satanist... lol, it said that before I freak out, I should research it a bit, and I don't have to believe in Satan. So that was cool). There's some really good ones there.

Blinkie Madness.... weird address, I know. But it has TONS of blinkies and I have gotten some of mine from that place, it's fun to just look through them with the sayings and stuff.

Great song by Evanescence. I haven't heard the acutal "song" yet. According to my research, I can only get Origin (Evanescence's first album) from downloading it off the internet *sigh* that sucks...



I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now

Where has my heart gone
An uneven trade for the real world
I want to go back to
Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all

I still remember the sun
Always warm on my back
Somehow it seems colder now

Where has my heart gone
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
I want to go back to
Believing in everything




Does that make more sense Manda and Cara?


I still don't feel good =( ..... (lol, Brit) and on top of that, I can't sleep ='(

omg!! I forgot yesterday was Gerard's b-day! *slaps head* This is a pic of Gerard Way of My Chemical Romance (for those who don't know). So now he's 28... I still can't believe he's that old... It's real hard to find a good pic (that Cara will approve) without the rest of the band in it... 

Last night I was up pretty late, not because I wasn't tired, or that I was laying games, but because of the Doom Song. I probably spent a whole hour listening to it, I just couldn't turn it off, it was scary.

After Cara said she annoyed her bro and future step bro with the Doom Song, it made me really curious. So here I am, in the living room with the volume up on my laptop, of course the songs playing, duh (I wrote the poem 'The End' on Daydream while listening to this...). lol, I love this, I gonna keep it on for awhile, and put it on the blog on "special" days. I hope.... I better remember... *sings along with the Doom Song*


Cara and Brittni, didn't I tell you I would let you listen to the Doom Song? I could NOT believe it when I found the code for the song, I immediantly put it on the blog (after figuring out which one to put it on)

=P Cara is the insane one here.


She has this thing for 40 yr. old country guys.

She doesn't think Billy is cute (feel the wrath of thousands of fan girls... no, I'm not one of them... I don't think that he should be my husband or anything. He's perfectly fine with Linzi... I hope).

She tends to watch "children" shows (like Dora the Explorer and Madeline)

She says "ew" to anything "gore- related" or guys wearing make-up. She doesn't like eye liner!! (Me: I can't even see myself anymore without it on!!! It just doesn't look like... me)

Meanwhile *listening to music*.... hmm... Cara wouldn't want to hear this song... it's like my fav in the whole cd. It talks about blood and death and all that good stuff. She should also listen to "Vampires Will Never Hurt You" by the same artist.... it's really cool. Then, I guess she won't like Kittie.... if not that, then she won't like Otep... sad, sad......

She doesn't like the quote "You are what you eat... I could be you by morning".... that's by Mandy from the show "The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy".... She thinks Invader Zim is a stupid show... It's my fav show in the ENTIRE universe.

She has something against creative people. Like Billy, Gerard, Frank, probably Bert, even though he really doesn't wear make up, like Frank. She better stay away from the mall and especially Hot Topic, cuz once in a while, I see "creepy" people... This one guy had a small mohawk, dark brown/black hair, black eye liner, long black trench coat, black boots, some black shirt and other stuff that I don't remember. Better stay away from my favorite author, Ameila Atwater-Rhodes. She writes really good vampyre stories...



Honestly... who do you think is insane? The happy-colorful person, or the dark creative person?

I'm gonna go to bed now... my neck hurts like hell.



Oh, and Cara, because of you calling me a hypocrite, your not gonna get more of the story for a while longer... It might be too dark for you anyway...

I know... it's late... can't sleep... I had too much caffeine... hey, at least now I'm not laughing hysterically for no reason. This time, I have a reason... What do I do when I'm pathetically bored? One word: Google. It is sooo fun typing in random things to see what you get. Like one time I found pics of my brother when he was in the Highschool track team. It was his coach that posted them, by the way. So this time I decided to type in people that I know. Rainey... his blog was THE FIRST FREAKING THING!!! wooohoooo!! You go dude! I still can't find myself (my name gets 226 results....)... when I was trying to, I found Marian's name. So I decided to try her. 2 results of the correct person, just searching for the name, in fact. So then, I decided to try Tamir... since I am bored. The first one was his entry in Pavlo's online guest book. Yes, I'm not kidding. It was the correct person and all. It was funny reading the entry^^. I'm not sure all the (5) results are correct... I didn't know Mrs. Bohn had a website... hmmm.

Cara, I'm laughing at your results, you got 146... not gonna check them all, sry....

Whoa. 44 for Brittni. (I'm googling as I write this)

lol, Skyler got no results at all.

Colton has 118... LOL!! The 3rd result is freakin HILARIOUS!! (no, I can't post it here)

641 for Amanda... whoa...

Mr. Wallace... omfg.... 8,380 results........ *speechless* I don't think any on the first page are of the teacher we know of.

Mrs. Bohn has 495 and her site is on the first page....

.....oooooo, I typed in "jms jazz band"....... 8 results..... don't look good

If you type in the whole name in one set and then "jazz band"... VERY good results... 4 in fact... 2 on Mrs. Bohn's site... 1 from the school district site.... then the other from some newsletter....

Dude, for a second there I forgot Morgan's last name... O_O... oh, it says "Did you mean: "Morgan Ranch"?"...... but there is ONE result, it's from the county newspaper.... Riverside Bowl?! me confused.... sooo did she bowl or something? cuz there was a bowling tournament apparently....

OH!! Nice! Michael H. has 27,900... apparently there is a very famous person with that exact name... there's an actor/director with that name (*OWW!! I just hit my head against the window sill! owwwyy.... that hurt... CURSE YOU, WINDOW!!!! Owww, my headache got worse...*)

Kevin got 882... none right on the first page...

Andrew got 88... hmm, there's a judge with the same name....

I'm gonna quit now. I'm slightly tired and my head hurts -_-;; That really hurt, ok?! *yawn* omg!! I actually yawned! Bravo to me! owww...... *rubs head lightly* (lol, Bert sounds like a girl..... oh, nvm, you guys have NO CLUE what I'm talking about. I know that for a fact). Well, goodnight all.


Oh, and Cara, that was really funny, the emails you sent. I guess there is something wrong when I'm not online.... "OMG!! Megan's not online! Something must've gone wrong! Maybe she had a heartattack or stroke.... CALL 911!!!" that's what the voices inside my head said^^ lol... Just like a quote I said to Brit... can't really rememeber... it was like "I hear a lot of voices... mostly in my head though" I said that last part out of thin air because I haven't been hearing my name being called for some very odd reason. I gotta go to bed and rest my poor head....

ok, I haven't posted cause my life is that dull. But at least it's Spring Break, but that fact has it's downs... like boredom, and not seeing people as often (I barely even leave my house). Well, yesterday was "eventful" but that was cause we actually left the house cuz of a doctor appointment -_-;;. I'm not going to go into detail cuz I get depressed and angry just thinking about it (I need ice cream...), then after that... thing... me and my mom went to the mall cuz I wanted to get a cd, which would hopefully make me feel better about what happened. It was My Chemical Romance: Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge (Cara, I can't believe you never heard of it...), and it's AWESOME!! I'm listening to it now (I will avenge my ghost with every breath I take. I'm coming back from the dead and I'll take you home with me. I'm taking back the life you stole. *lol, that's from the song I'm listening to now*). After I got the cd, I got ICE CREAM!! It was goooood^^. Then later in the day, at night, I got super mad for a reason I'm not telling, and then I regreted giving away the internet for the rest of the day. I just needed to get it out in some way. I think I ended up just listening to loud music... (I really need ice cream right now) oh, and I also ate a bit of chocolate. That helped^^.

The video >>> over there, is SUPPOSED to be "Helena" from the cd I got yesterday. It's a really good song, but the link isn't working as you might have noticed (and never again, and never again, they gave us two shots through the back of our head, and we're all dead now... *another song*). The MCR videos from that site (musicvideocodes.com) don't work for some reason, I checked other artists and they worked. I'm still disappointed that they don't have any Kittie videos =(... Anyway, I'm trying to find another site that could have that video. If you do know, PLZ tell me!!

Well, I'm gonna go and eat ice cream, so ttyl.