Well, if you read my other blog, it tells you why I haven't been posting. Sooooo, READ IT if you already haven't (ouch, just hurt bad ankle... no wait, that's my GOOD ankle *rubs it calmly speaking to the ankle* no, I do NOT want to get you sprained, too!!! I hate those evil crutches!! Cuz they're EVIL!! ooowwwwww).

Ok.... where was I? *rubs ankle* oh, yes. FISHY!!! lol, ok, I'll get to that in a bit. Today was pretty eventful, which was a reflief to me, and I was really getting bored from ALL those dull days. That reminds me that Mr. Wallace got this huge speech thing goin from a simple question from Kevin: "Why do we have to learn about rocks? They're boring. What does it have to do with my life (how does it relate). I think I sorta zoned out cuz he was just blabbing on (which he does alot). When it was finally over, we started to get ready for lunch (talking, packing, talking, going to the other side of the room to talk to someone, or just yell to someone who's right next to you). Skyler and I were packing and talking at the same time. He said that the speech made him depressed, since now he knows that everyday is going to be the same, for the rest of his life, and all that. I told him I already knew, since it feels like I'm walking in circles. I bet other people out there feel the same, right? Right?!?

Well, I also said this on the other blog, but I just HAD to tell, it's so funny! K, in... 2 period? Yeah, cuz Wallace went out of the room at the time and all that. And Will stole Jordin's shoe and put it where she couldn't possibly reach it. Well, I guess she has a lot of admirers or something who tried to get it for her (one still being too short to reach it). Then a few seconds after Jordin got her shoe back, I heard Kevin say, "Aww, come on Trenton, we were just playing..." Me, with the somewhat sickened mind (*sarcastic* THANX Skyler! That is soooo contagious) started laughing and tapped Brittni on the shoulder and said, "Brittni, did you hear that?" "No." "Kevin said to Trenton, 'Come on, we were just playing'. Now, if I didn't know what they were talking about..." I didn't finish the sentence, it spoke for itself (.....duno what that means, but ok). Brittni said I had a "gutter brain" so I told Skyler what I just told Brittni, and he laughed.

Later, during the last period (which today we had Health *sarcastic woohoo!*) and Mrs. Brashers answered questions that people put in this little.... plastic.... thing.... container. And I will NOT say them, cuz they were very.... disturbing and whatnot. The Terrible cheerleader (that must die) Kaitlyn, was really stupid and also her friend, Whitney. They were like, what's that? And the rest of the class (or most..... or was it just me?) pretty much slaped their hand on their forehead. Me, when they made a stupid comment that made people laugh, I would go, "omg, omg, omg, omg, OMG, omg, omg..." with my face buried in my hands. I also made a few comments that got a laugh (or look) from the people near me (thank god the cheerleaders were on the other side of the room).
Then, after the questions and disturbing thoughts were done with, we had to pick a partner (me and Brit) and fill out our paper from this one paper with all the information (there were 13 sheets, and around 26 girls... so yea). Well, we got a certain disease (13 papers of STDs) and we were reading it and Brittni started cracking up. I looked at the paper to where she was pointing and also started laughing. Fishy smell!!!! That was one of the symptoms one could have (only women get this disease). The woman would smell a "fishy" smell. We were cracking up for the longest time, and Brit decided to show Shauntel, who was like "ewwww", then Samantha wanted to see what it was since me and Brit were cracking up again. Then Sam said "Fishy smell?" and we both cracked up once more. We made comments about the fishy smell. Then Brit said something I think to Shauntel and Sam (who were working together) who were laughing, I duno, and I was totally lost, I felt I missed something, so I said my famous word, "What?" then added "Fishy smell?" since that's what we had been laughing about earlier, so I thought it might be attached to that. The other 3 girls started laughing, so did I. Me and Brit got back to work and I was like, "I need to say that more often, 'What? What? Fishy smell?" We laughed and Brittni said, "It's like Cara says, 'Guess what?' and you would say, 'What? What? Fishy smell?'" I started cracking up and leaned over my desk for support. After that, we made a ton of fishy smell comments, telling people they smell like fish or something. When the end of the school bell rang, we both said goodbye and Brit said I smelled like fish, and I replied, "Fishy!" (as like... a...... an insult...) and I don't remember what she yelled back. But that was soooo much fun..... What? What? Fishy smell? is my NEW line, do NOT steal it w/o my permission, or even borrow it w/o asking (sry, spongebob moment.... LUV that show....)

Until next time my fishy friends... (that reminds me, I told Cara online that I don't like watching the red carpet and she said I was weird and I replied: is it me, or just u?..... she didnt think that was funny, but i thought it was hilarious). So until next time... I hope you don't smell like fish when you come back, cuz... whew.... geez, it sure makes my place reak (sp? oh well..... i give up....). I hate fish. THEY SHALL ALL DIE!! no, I just don't like the taste *bleh* but some are pretty *sparkles in shiny colors*, and some really should die... with help... *clears throat* Well, I got a spliting headache (and NOT just from all the fishy *heh heh* comments and jokes and all that) so I think I should go as being on the computer doesn't really help me feel better....

Yea, Billy outside with his guitar wearing a Marilyn Manson shirt. You go dude. 

k, I'm so ridiculously bored, it's not even funny. I couldn't think of anything for the title, so bear with me. But, yea, I learned so much from Mr. Wallace in less than an hour. Not only did I have a headache from lack of sleep (1 hour last night) I also had, on top of that, alot of stuff crammed in my head from that short of the time. He told me about the speed of light, then it went to aliens, and that just led to God, which I will not go into much detail, but after the long talk and questions, I was convinced that God was an alien. Weird, I know, but it makes sooooo much sense to me with details. It explained Mary, the virgin, that one star (what's it called......??), nearly everything.

I tried explaining it to my brother, but he didn't get it. Telling me how Stephen Hawk proved God was real through math (-_-;;). Then, I explainned it to my mom, and she actually got what I was trying to say. And she was like "ooh" sometimes too, as if she hadn't thought of it. Honestly, most of the stuff Wallace told me, I didn't even think about once, ever. Mostly how that one star (???) was actually a spaceship. I remember what we said about the star. Wallace: "They followed a star..... And what do spaceships look like when they're in space?" Me: o.o "..... stars....." I can't believe I never thought of that, especially the fact that I love learning about space and am fantasised the stars........ ooooooooo, pretty lights.... (I say that alot. People who don't watch enough TV, that's from an episode of SpongeBob SquarePants. And its said by Patrick...... I duno, one day I just started saying it)

I noticed that you should listen to CDs once in a while, especially ones you haven't listened FOREVER!! I did that last week with the first Good Charlotte CD. One of the songs spoke to me more than it ever did before (tell me if you think you know, and Cara, don't tell anyone or put it on here). If I didn't love that song enough before, I love it even more now. I also listened to an ancient CD a while ago, and I was SOOOO surprised by how well I knew the lyrics ('course, it only came to me a few words ahead, lol). I listened to Linkin Park: Meteroa earlier, and sang along even though I wasn't paying attention. I hadn't listened to that for months! I listened to it over 3 times, maybe 4. Each time it ended, here's me: Its over already?! O.O *tears* (v_v)<<<<<thats my smliey, DON'T STEAL IT!!! I also got other cool ones, too, but never will I show you people my fav.

I think I'll write a poem about sleep..... dreams, floating..... ooooo *drifts off to sleep* maybe tomorrow....... so tired z_z.........

I don't like this one very much, but it's more recent than the others. 

Doesn't look much like a girl in this one, does it, Amanda?! Stop calling him a friggin girl, just because of his hair cut. I mean, Nick Calafato looks more like a girl than Billy. Admit it. 

SEE, CARA. Billy drew this. He's so awesome.... My bro doesn't like his drawing style, but then again, he doesn't like a lot of things I like, and vise versa. 

You knew it was coming, didn't you? Another pic of Billy and his guitar. He just loves that thing, doesn't he? 

This one is so cool, too. I like the shirt... it fits him... well, like his personality.... yea. He looks like he's concentrating a lot. 

hehehehe, I like this one alot. It's like "What the--? Are you insane?!" 

GO BILLY!!! 

This one scared me when I first saw it.... I thought that there were TWO Joels.... of course, the one with more tattoos is Benji, but still, It's freaky how much they look alike from far away. Poor Billy, he looks alone and sad in alot of pics.... 

This one is cool, too. Billy just seems to stand out to me in this pic (so does Benji, but thats a different story). He's so tall and skinny....... Whoa this pic is kinda oldish... I thought Joel had more tattoos....... 

Cara and I are having a competition...... yep, with Billy and Adam (yuck). I just don't see why she and Amanda think he's a greasy, ugly, girl. I mean, how rude!!!! I love this pic soooo much, I can't even begin to describe it. 

Those pic captions, I did not make, ok, just to make it clear. There was another pic that I wanted to get up, but no matter what I did, I couldn't get it up. WickedWench is like one of the best quizmakers on the site. She is awesome, go here for quizzes (the quizzes are mainly for girls, unless you really are that curious.....) there are currently two quizzes with just pics, and they do say that they are pics in the quiz name...... those are nice to look at, so at least look at the pics, even if you're a guy. Girls, if you like GC, read the other quizzes, if you don't, stay away. Well, I better go.... I do actually want to sleep tonight and go to school tomorrow.

Billy should smile more. The guy is so ridiculously good looking, I'm jealous. 

Paul: "Hi. My name is Paul. I like puppies and kittens. Want to be my friend?" 

Benji: "Grandma? What are you doing here? I wasn't doing anything. I swear." 

Noodles make Chris happy 

Billy: "Hmmm, what is this thing...?"
Benji: "oooo, l found a quarter."

Billy is one pretty princess. 

Joel: "Did I remember to put on deodorant? Doesn't matter." 

Well, people have noticed that I didn't go to school today. It was cuz I really wasn't feeling good in my stomach, and also my side hurts. I also felt this way yesterday, but I thought it was just cause of what I found out the day before, which had pissed me off, and I was worried what was going to happen and everything. But then, that feeling didn't go away, and got worse last night.

So, this morning I decided not to go to school considering how I had felt yesterday. You're probably like, but its almost 11, why aren't you in bed? Well, when I am sick, I go back to bed. and..... I don't know when i feel asleep this morning (it was for sure after school would have started) and I woke up around 2:30 pm, thanks to my mom who called to see how i was doing. Phones always wake me up. It works better than yelling my name or something like that. So, I was asleep most of the time my friends were at school. Naturally, I'm not tired, having slept well over 11 hrs in the past day.

I was on the net earlier, talking to Cara, and I was searching on Google for something....... Well, Cara now knows well that I...... have a thing for Billy Martin of Good Charlotte. So I was searching for a possible blog that GC or, rather Billy, write in sometimes, as I have found a blog for this one guy (what's his name?????). Well, he was from the band called Mest. He and GC's Benji are like best buds. So yea.... I found this one blog with this person who lives in New Zealand (I SOOOO want to go there someday), and she wrote that GC had been going to her store for frappichinos (no clue how to spell it, just bear with me). Then, of course she said that if the guy with dark hair, blue eyes, and awesome arm tattoo (Billy -_-;;;) was reading the blog, she had a fancy for him. I also found a person with a blog who was OBSESSED with Billy.... it was freaky..... then a found a possible site that they write in...... but.................... it was in Spanish..... which totally sucked....

On one of the best websites in the world (Quizilla, even though they have technical problems ALOT) one of the best quiz makers on there, put pics of GC up and put hilarious captions on. One of those where you look at the pic and go, "Ok, thats just Joel...." and then the caption makes you laugh for a while. I'll put the best ones up. Cuz I love GC soooo much, and i just LUV the captions. Also a link to that awesome quizmaker, cuz I'm sooooo nice *halo*. And I'm also THAT bored.

Frank is probably the funniest person I've ever met. First of all, you have to know what he looks like. Weird shaped head and a unibrow. He's so funny. People kind of make fun of him, but he takes it really good and turns the comment into a joke, like saying that he is actually the most normal looking person in his family.

He acts weird, too. At the awards ceremony thing on Wednesday, all mentors (who take care of 6th graders) were called up. I'm not a mentor, so I watched as girl after girl was called up. Then, Mr. Rainey got to the end of the alphabet, and then said, "And if you didn't think there were any guys, there's Jaron *censor*!" Jaron (preppy guy) went up to alot of girls clapping, mostly in a certain area (Michael, sitting next to me said, "There's still no guys up there."). Then Rainey called Franks name, and Frank stood up, "Yes!!" with his hands up, making peace signs.

Frank has the funniest angry face ever. One day he came up to me and said, "You know, I can never be mad to anyone."
"Why?"
"Cuz when I do (makes angry face, and I crack up), you guys always laugh," and he smiled. When he makes his mad face, he sort of tilts his head down, and his unibrow sort of scrunches up and gets all bushy, and that's the main thing that you see, really, just his now bushy unibrow. It's so funny.

Frank says the funniest stuff, even if he doesn't mean to. Like today, Frank had 2 volleyballs. I chased him telling him to give me one of his balls he would reply, "No!! they're special!" or "No! I'm not going to let you touch them!" a few weeks ago, Brittni was trying to think of a new screen name for aim. Frank said what his was. It was something I can't say on here. It was hilarious, though. I was like, "Frank, do you know what that means?" Brittni told me not to tell him. And I kept saying his expanded form of his name without abreviations, changing the words so I wasn't saying a bad word. I was cracking up. OH! I remember what it is, lol, its so funny. I'm still not saying it though.

This week has not been cool, far from it. The thing after the Super Bowl, and the arguments between me and Cara. I'm sorry I scared you people last night (you know who you are). And especially Cara. I just got so carried away, and it's not all your fault, I realize that now (or rather this morning). But you didn't have to go saying all that stuff. Then say later that you cared about me, and it made me feel like you were a hypocrite. You cared about me yet said all that stuff? I don't want another argument today, I've had enough, and you should too. Be nicer to Skyler, he didn't mean to say it.



Today, I got a spitting headache from school. My classmates know why, too. 5th period, I came aware that there was a highpitched alarm going off. I brushed it off, figuring it would stop after a while. Then, Chris said something about, and everybody said that they could hear it, too. Mr. Rainey opened the door to the hallway of our pod (where the water fountain and bathrooms are) and the bell like thing became louder. We were all trying to figure out what it was, then Mr. Martin said that it was supposed to be a fire alarm or something, so we went out and I saw that the other people were alive!! In other words, other classes were going to their post outside where we stay during fire alarms/drills. Then after a few minutes outside in the freezing wind, we got sent back and the alarm was still going off.

5th period is social studies for us, and we were writting the prewrite for an essay on why we would, or would not, want to meet Thomas Jefferson (the 3rd president). I was sitting with Quoia, Skyler, and Colton, cause Chris moved and Steph was starting to bug me. After a while, people tried not to go out in the hall, and when they did open the door, many people would tell them to shut the freaking door. I couldn't concentrate, nor could the people I was sitting with. Mr. Rainey turned on some music to drown out the alarm noise. Quoia asked for 80s music since the music he had in (classical) was scaring her. The songs we listened to, a ton of people knew, and were dancing, especially Colton, would was sitting next to me. He popped his neck and was like, "oooowww!! I popped my neck!" The rest of us cracked up. We all got ready early, still extremly annoyed by the ringing, and unable to concentrate (oh, Rainey wanted the prewrites done by today. I barely wrote down anything). Nearly everyone was singing along with "American Pie" at least at the verses. I only saw one group of 3 boys not singing. I was singing along a bit, too. It was fun.

PE we knew was going to be a nightmare. I thought it was totally awesome how 2 years in a row, I've had PE on the last period of every other day. Mrs. Brashers (she's a witch) had us wait outside, and you could hear the ringing so loud from outside the locker rooms. Brashers gave us our progress reports (A-) and told us to plug our ears and dress quickly, and she also told us that a light/bulb broke, which like caused the non-stop ringing. I had a headache already by then. I dressed as fast as a could, jealous of Brashers since she had earplugs! She just happened to have them in her pocket. when I was done dressing, I plugged my ears and hit my forehead against the lockers. It worked. It made my headache go away a bit and make the noise seem not so loud.

So, I guess Brashers was right, in the actual gym, the ringing wasn't bad at all. In fact, you could barely hear it over everyone's talking. I nearly ran into Ms. Bohn (music teacher..... oh, is she a Ms. or a Mrs. ?) when I went to the bathroom, in my gym uniform (which was nice with the freezing wind!) and she asked me if the ringing was bad in gym class. And I told her that in the actual gym, it wasn't bad, but it was really loud in the locker rooms. She responded "I bet it would be," then as she left the restroom, she kept on talking.... I guess to me, though I really couldn't hear her. But I do remember her saying that her students were like outside or something....

During PE I hung out with Skyler, Quoia, Jasmine, and Frank. Jasmine got hit in two separate sensitive places.... (yea........) and both of those balls were thrown by Bogue (that's his last name, first name Andrew, but everyone calls him Bogue) and he was cracking up after both. Quoia was finding her volleyball, wherever it went, when Jasmine got it in the most sensitive spot. We were all laughing, and Jasmine was trying to rub it, since it thankfully hit upwards, so it didn't get..... um...... that dead on. That would have hurt really bad. I said I was sorry to Jasmine, saying that it had to hurt. Then she told the two guys that they couldn't understand her pain, and only I could. When PE was over, and it was quieter, I realized the ringing stopped (HOORAY!!!!!!! yay!) and it was so much quiter in the locker room. The people I hate were probably singing as usual, but I guess it was still alot quieter than before, when you had to yell for someone (or at least for me...) to hear you (or to hear me). Jasmine said "I'll be afraid of balls for the rest of my life.... oh wait!" that was funny.

I've carried this weight for too long...
Dissociated
Unappreciated
And everything I hated
Keeping me so jaded
I look into the mirror
And I hate what I see
All my life's disfunction
Alive in front me

LP



First of all, I have to say I'm sorry, Brittni, I said those things. I read the post before I deleted it and was so surprised how much I didn't remember even writing. I was so angry and sad at what Cara was doing to me. I feel so broken right now. And I still feel I don't belong. I never said you guys weren't my friends anymore, I just can feel myself sliping away....

I'm sick of people being mad at Skyler and me for what happened last night.

Look, I'm sorry everyone I've hurt. My life feels like it's over now, thanks to Cara (blame her allll you want). No matter what I do, everything gets worse, and worse. Cara's being a complete prep and doesn't like hearing the truth.


Brittni!! I'm sorry!

UK keyboard. Not much difference, but Cara wanted me to put it up. 

Russian keyboard, cuz I felt like it! It actually looks less like the English version than the others. The other ones surprised me, especially the Chinese keyboard, how it had English. Japanese didn't surprise me much. 

German keyboard 

Japanese keyboard 

Cara wondered how Chinese people type. Then I started rambling on how i thought Japanese people typed (I've been trying to teach myself, with help from the internet, to at least write japanese, and I saw an anime show with a guy using a computer with Japanese symbols and typing stuff) so i did a Google search and found an interesting website with many different foreign keyboards. So this is a Chinese keyboard. Click on it to get an enlarged image 

Me, and my aunt Carolyn. The hats might tell you it's New Year's Eve, but actually it's Christmas Eve. We always to to their house after the sermon thing, which i can nearly sleep through, seriously. I was wearing that hat earlier, but took it off when my mom wanted to get a pic of it, so I did that. haha, Carolyn laughed and went, "Well, it's good enough." 

Frozen in time 3. Different angle