Re:Facebook Status :3:
10:27 PM - Thursday, November 24, 2011
"Black Friday: Because in America, camping out for capitalism is ok, but not for democracy."
Labels: awesomeness, facebook
How to Live
2:10 AM - Tuesday, August 02, 2011
Reading the last page or so of these posts.... I sound like a highly emotional, possibly suicidal, stupid girl.
I'm not.
I mean, I called this blog (thought it's more like emotional vomit put into words) "A Dark Soul" because it's a place where I can write down shit I need to get out. It's where I can vent and clarify my own thoughts.
My English teacher said that if you can't write it down, you don't truly understand it.
I think he's right.
Putting thoughts and feelings into a readable format organizes those chaotic thoughts floating around.
Calms the soul.
Or my soul at least.
Usually.
Unless it makes me realize even more bad things rather than good.
I do strongly believe that you need to keep yourself happy.
You can't rely on others to do that for you.
It's the little things that should make you happy.
And that's what I try to live by.
The little things that make me smile or soothe my soul.
Because if you're happy, things aren't so bad.
Maybe you'll make someone else's day, too.
Practice random acts of kindness.
Because even if they don't thank you, you did what you want others to do to you.
And that's what it's all about.
The Golden Rule
Conflicted
11:45 PM - Monday, August 01, 2011
"I sort of love you right now and I dont care what you think about that"
Oh fuck. That got my heart pounding.
This isn't cloud nine.
It's cloud ten.
And I love this feeling.
It'll probably be my downfall.
A guy and girl CAN just be friends, right?
I hope to the stars and back that it's possible.
If I were to believe in a god, it would be right now.
I really want things to work out and not fall apart in a gigantic pile of shit.
I don't think I'd be able to survive without my foundation.
Hayden is all I have, really, and I seriously don't want to fuck things up and fall for this guy.
Just find all the flaws in him. There must be hundreds. Find them.
Labels: crap, guys
{immaculate}
11:20 PM - Friday, April 15, 2011
I may not be real,
but you are.
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Late Night Melodramatics
3:19 AM - Thursday, April 14, 2011
For some reason, I'm anxious. Which makes sleeping a fleeting dream. And I find I have a strong urge to hurt myself, as if it'll somehow calm my haywire nerves.
It's been *quite* a while, and I know I shouldn't.
Just got to keep my head clear of thoughts...
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Oh my god...
9:35 AM - Thursday, March 24, 2011
I can't believe he just did that.
I tell him I'm really fragile, and that I've been crying off and on for a while, he says he's sorry, I said he wasn't, and then he just... kicked my knees out from under me. Metaphorically, at least.
Now I'm left sobbing my eyes out.
What an asshole.
Labels: guys
It's times like these
12:08 AM
when I feel so fucking appreciated.
I can't do enough.
I can't ever do enough.
I'll never be good enough, will I?
Awesome.
There are just times like these when I feel like he's being selfish.
And that because I don't exactly like how I feel I'm being treated, and because I feel like having time to myself, I'M being a selfish bitch.
Am I a selfish bitch?
I think I am.
Even if he gets frustrated whenever I call myself anything negative.
I'm just gonna go cry myself to sleep because he can't not spend time with me 24/7, and I can't spend time with him 24/7.
Fuck.
Some days I just want to lay in bed all day and not come in contact with another human being.
Is that really so bad?
It's kind of funny
4:00 AM - Saturday, March 12, 2011
Yes, it's horrible.
Yes, it is a disaster.
Yet... remarkable.
People are worried out of their minds about Japan.
Not that they shouldn't.
But it's... kind of funny how... well the country has held up. As in... It could've been FAR FAR worse.
"The Great Hanshin earthquake"
1995
6.8 mag
Over 6000 died.
From toppled buildings and falling debris. No giant tsunami.
THAT quake is what has prevented even worse damage and casualties than what happened yesterday.
Over 180 aftershocks. That is fucking insane.
At this point, with such strong aftershocks, I'm asking how they can tell what is an earthquake or just another aftershock...
I've heard it's the 7th worst earthquake (in recorded history), then the 5th worst... then 3rd... then 5th a lot... then 7th...
Make up your mindddd.